The cold and dismal darkness of the night is comforting to one such as i
The silence gives clarity to my otherwise blistering hot spirit
The elevation adds a sense of perspective to my thinking
The glistening and every shining light of the moon brings focus to my turbulent and dark soul
The absence of people feels pleasant despite the sensation of loneliness and alienation
I come to the catharsis and or epiphany that I am going to be alone forever and no matter how much I wish to live...I am already long dead
Is there anyone out there to share this abyss of a heart with?
Is this black and eternal flame only meant to serve as a joke or punishment for evil deeds unknown?
Or is it simply a reminder of the life and peace I once knew?
I have not the answers and soon, and as surly as the day shall return, I will lose interest in knowing...
I embrace death not only as a friend but as a piece of myself, for death is neutral, indifferent, and true, and though it may be cold and unemotional it is mine
I wish you as well as so many others before and after you were mine, but as a sly fox escaping a hunter's trap or a silent and deadly spider that disappears before anyone can swat it, my just dues eludes me
Can you feel my sorrow?
Can you taste my pain?
Have you gazed drunkenly into the darkness looking for a sign of deliverance or damnation?
Will you be the one to save me?
No you cannot...but the gesture would be most appreciated...
My spirit is broken, my mind is twisted, my soul is dead, and my body is soon to follow
All I have is this black fire, but nothing last forever...
I am in great pain, please help me...or not...at the moment I don't not care
Sep 6, 2017
Sep 6, 2017 at 2:37 AM UTC
Sometimes I'm happy
Sometimes I'm sad
Sometimes I'm angry
Sometimes I'm glad
At times I'm up
At times I'm down
Sometimes I smile
But mostly...I frown
Jul 11, 2017
Jul 11, 2017 at 10:16 PM UTC
Tried 2 connect wit u but u don't even hear--me--
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Im
Your
Fo-ol--
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I went thru hell 4 u but u still won't get near--me--
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Life
Is
Cru-El--
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Won't b long--now--
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Care 2 c--?
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On my own-- now--
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Lucky me--
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I know- -
×2
The ba-stard--son--
I can--not b-- the on--ly one--
I love-- your touch--
It sick--ens me--
I hold-- u close-- so u-- can't leave--
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But you all--ways-- find-- a way--
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U were all--ways-- miles-- away--
Jun 19, 2017
Jun 19, 2017 at 3:49 AM UTC
I love ****** girls wit no rubber n robbing ******
These ******* aint on nothing
Can't rock wit the flagging ******
Im riding inna steamer
Im focused
Im watching ******
Them bullets hit yo femur
Them shells a be dropping ******
I hop out
Stand over buddy and letem have
U stupid ****
Swear I done told u about the static
His soul rise
Frozen n still as his cold eyes
His bros cry
Begging n pleading like don't die
Its funny 2 me
****** is sweeter than honey 2 me
My homie quarterbacking
Im thirsty
So run it 2 me
U ******* tryna stick me
Im witty
U dummy 2 me
U selling ***** d but Im pottie
U bummy 2 me
The beef I tried 2 squash it
But shorty said **** me
U blood related 2 me count yo blessings
Boy u lucky
Tryna war wit me
It could get ugly
****** in the field coming at u like its rugby
Deuce deuce make the biggest killer turn *****
School a hard knocks
Man u ****** playing hooky
How u tryna flex like u talking 2 a rookie
Stove on my waist
Chip a ***** like sum cookies
Caught a ***** slipping but my lawyer knock the case off
Nana clip
Raaat!
Peel his mufuckin face off
Snub nose
Pap
Take a mufucka face off
****** in the field
They just tryna get the base off--
I never really gave a ****
What's the point?
Lifes a gamble
Never crapping
Rolling 6
That's a point
Bro can serve u
What u need?
Gram a piff
That's a point
I aint joking leave u smoking off the rip like a joint
Awh man--
Tell me getem
N I gotem
****** missionary
N I think I hit the bottom
Bugging *** ***** on my **** so I swatem
Travel round the globe
No flex but I trottem
Double teaming hoes
We the tag team champions
Lucki Eck$ playing in the back Cuz its ambient
Going in her front
Fam coming thru the back
Fiend 4 the D
Yeah she craving 4 the sack
**** laced wit coke
Molly n a acid tab
Homie u is trash
We should throw u inna plastic bag
Homie u is *** n ***** so u gotta rash
Blowing money fast
Take a stash then I do the dash--
Poison in my veins
Baby I am so insane
Better watch the fangs
Shorty this is not a game
Devil on my shoulder
Angel scared 2 show his face
I would let u in my head but u can't relate
Jun 9, 2017
Jun 9, 2017 at 11:22 PM UTC
Ask yoself what you mean 2 me
Im dying 2 know
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I gotta secret 2 tell u n im dying 2 show
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Ladies first
Spill yo heart yo spirit n pain
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Tell me first
Im not tryna be lonely in shame
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U say the life means nothing when its absent of me
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U say the night seems longer n the mornings are brief
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U say that cutting yo body helps 2 lessen the pain
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U say that moments without me are like sleeping in rain
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U think of me as a blessing
U can't breathe when I leave
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U wanna know that you're needed
U want people 2 grieve
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U wanna know that im dedicated
U want the proof
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U wanna know that im genuine
U craving the truth
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The only fear u have is living n dying alone
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Scrambling 2 rectify yo sins
U be tryna atone
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U not affected by the thought of u Goin 2 hell
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As long as Mr. Right is witchu n sharing the cell
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Try but u fail
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Nothing 2 tell
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U shopping 4 better options but there's nothing 2 sale
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Follow the trails
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Follow yo heart
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If u don't feel it n the end then u dead from the start
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Love is a arc
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Life is the flood
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Pain is a lesson
N 2 u I am more of a drug
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Feeling the buzz
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Imma fool 4 yah love
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Don't even need 2 penetrate cuz im cool wit a hug
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And after hearing all of that I only have 2 say
(1,2)
You don't know what u mean 2 me...
Jun 8, 2017
Jun 8, 2017 at 9:22 PM UTC
The girl say she love me
I go silent then reply
I say cool
She say what?
Loves refreshing but Im dry
U can't blame me 4 my lack feelings
Rarely was I loved
Imma addict in recovery n love is like a drug
****
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I wanna feel the type a love that's on my television
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But its a battle staying happy not a exhibition
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As a youngin I remember having premonitions
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Imma pass away alone n Im not superstitious
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If u love me cut yo palm n let me taste the fluids
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People say that they in love but its so diluted
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And if loves a battlefield well then Im undisputed
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Loves a game amongst the worthy but u not included
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Im the type 2 lead u on n promise u the world
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I make love 2 u n tell you u the only girl
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I'll abandon u n act as if it never happened
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Leave u crying in yo pillow n hysteric laughing
May 24, 2017
May 24, 2017 at 11:57 PM UTC
I just wanna be loved
I just wanna feel needed
I just wanna be close 2 u
All my life was mistreated
×4
U gave me hell when I was broke
Its only fair 2 give it back
U give me love because im rich
U gave me love
I didn't ask
×4
I was nice in the beginning
U was rotten from the start
I just wanna break yo spirit
I don't wanna hold yo heart
And If suffering is beautiful then pain is like a art
I wanna hear you cry n scream like a blade is in yo heart
{(Ugh+)*2nd repeat only }
×2
love you
I hurt you
I use you
I lose you
I leave you
Deceive u
U die
I mourn
{Repeat until it fades out}
Apr 21, 2017
Apr 21, 2017 at 5:04 PM UTC
Latia come with me--
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I'll set you free--
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I wanna feel your flames--
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All over me--
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I might love her--
1+2+3
The sun is gone--
1+2
Your fast asleep--
1+2
I only want-- to hold you near me--
1+2+3+4
As long as you- are mine--
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My life is- fine--
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In love there- is no time--
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Fear is a crime--
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Do I love her?--
1+2+3
Now all I feel is pain--
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Cold in the rain--
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She says I've gone insane--
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I can't complain--
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I might love her--
1+2+3
Across a endless sea--
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My mind runs free--
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My heart is stuck in flames--
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So hard to breathe--
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I can't love her--
1+2+3
The moon is red--
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Blood on my sheets--
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Before you die-- I hold you dearly--
1+2+3
The room is void of light--
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The rope is tight--
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No trace of fear in sight--
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Tears in my eyes--
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And i loved her--
1+2+3
Apr 8, 2017
Apr 8, 2017 at 12:36 AM UTC
For give me mothers if I take another son away
The ***** shouldn't a tested if my ****** wouldn't spray the K
2 the face
2 the point
Hollows in yo temple *****
Leave 2 dents in yo face like some dimples *****
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Ugh
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The devil told me that I'm coldblooded
Semi stoic look on my face n these hoes love it
Ain't got it on me when they shoot imma road run it
Never put trust n no ***** cuz these hoes covet
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Ugh
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Im like the black mclovin
Wit a wrap sheet 4 days
Tell yo mans cuz he shovin
N if low keep pushing imma have 2 start bussin
'Nother dumb ***** dead in the streets over nothing
Agh
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My mama say that idk about the struggle but she don't know half if the **** a ***** toggle wit
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She only know about a 5th of the **** I did
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N if she knew me she would call me the apocalypse
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Cuz I done did mo dirt then a Lil bit
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N if this rapping don't crack imma cop a brick
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These ****** say they were its at but the fulla ****
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Cuz we the only mfs really taking risk
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When I was 17 I ****** a ***** n she was 30
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They call it statutory **** but I was hella flirty
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I know some ****** out south that'll do u *****
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Razor blade 2 yo face like that ***** birdie
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Ugh
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I gotcho sis on my lap
N yo fix in a sack
Text books on my back
Imma lowlife pirate I ain't even gotta act
N my ****** on attack
Lowlife just relax
Ugh
1+2
N I mean that ****
I was blind 2 it all now I c that ****
Imma show u mufuckaz that u can get rich
If yo friends turn 2 opps n yo main chick flip
Ugh
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Mar 29, 2017
Mar 29, 2017 at 2:12 AM UTC
Yea +
(×4)
I rob ****** 4 they shoes
Yea+
Yea+
(Me n joey got the juice
Yea+
Yea +)×2
Lowlife
Greedy Gangsters
Imma drug addict
Aye
Imma devil
Imma spirit
U don't want no static
Aye
Selling molly pills n bags
'Ziner on my ***
Aye
Joey crack a beat his *** over petty cash
Aye
Stole some heron
I can't use it so I knock it off
Aye
U been selling shirts 4ever shorty knock it off
Aye
I got 2 ****** doing 40yrs a piece
Aye
Mr reaper (×2)
U not scaring me
Aye
My ***** got hair like just like rogue from the x man
Aye
Rob u blind n sell yo product 2 the next man
Aye
She a pirate
She a siren
She a winters dream
Aye
Low nem grave, he playing ***** get the summers eve
Aye
Jimmy Hopkins wit a pistol
Hang u like some stensils
Aye
Low nem drawing on reaction, in not talking pencils
Aye
Shorty stealing science scales cuz she loves me
Aye
U ain't hear me call u fam so plz don't trust me
Aye
Money man(×2)
Im the son of Sam
Aye
Burnt my soul, I can't ever c the sun again
Aye
All my family drug dealers
Killaz
**** ******
Aye
N Im always looking down cuz Im above ******
Aye
Were da dope (×2)
Were da plug *****
Aye
45 kicker
**** that pistol fit so snug *****
Aye
I know shooters (×2)
Just like hot sauce
Aye
Were Im from couple bills a get u knocked off
Aye
Mar 27, 2017
Mar 27, 2017 at 7:42 PM UTC