you have everything
in me
black and white
dark and light
night and day
life and death
slowly
experience it
in me
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 6:46 AM UTC
We talk all the time
when we’re laying in my bed
looking in each other eyes
You always laugh
when I say something funny
and I feel like I am falling apart
We talk all the time
when we're on our way
to the market
to buy fresh vegetables and fruits
I once saw a smashed peach there
on the ground
and I did not know what to do
We talk all the time
when we're listening
to our favorite band
Sometimes I hear nothing
and the music’s playing
I get scared
We have never met
even when we almost did
in the past, at that party
I keep thinking about it
and it makes me smile
for we still have a chance
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 11:16 AM UTC
Asking myself
What is love
Is like asking somebody else
If they know what the universe looks like
I am believing more and more
I shall never experience
What is like to be loved
By someone who did not create me
Feb 7, 2019
Feb 7, 2019 at 9:31 AM UTC
I have learned that
when the wind is blowing
the river is disturbed
when the darkness is coming
no life can grow
and I have learned it the hard way
I have learned that
when the sky is calm
so is the river
when the light crawls upon
any life can rise along
and I have learned it the long way
What comes has to go
What goes has to come
back
Feb 7, 2019
Feb 7, 2019 at 9:30 AM UTC
the cafe is packed
people come and go
just like in real life - she thinks -
they order wait eventually get what is theirs
so greedy
don’t blame them
they do what they can best
getting up
brushing their teeth
and making a stand
every
day
and you
what have you been doing?
sitting here like everything is right
how is supposed to be
no flaw
stain
taint
hole
that would **** you in
a black black hole
that would end all of your sorriness
this luckless weeping
at nights
That no one knows about
Feb 5, 2019
Feb 5, 2019 at 7:29 AM UTC
It was so close
To let go and never coming back
To those who would call themselves
Heroes
Survived ones
Thinking if
My old self would be proud
Of me
Different light
New perspective
I am here
Drinking black coffee
And actually enjoying it
Stains of a lipstick
Even my hair is washed
I did it
I had enough strength
To get up and be here
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 1:13 PM UTC
you try
and it’s good
keep trying to be better
to stand up for what is right
at least in your view
do things that you’ve always wanted to
just imagine
being finally in the right place at the right time
finally becoming who you desired to be
but what is it exactly?
you’ve heard this sentence so many times already
and still it sounds strange
who
you
are
the strong sunlights are spoiling your hair
and you just came out from the hairdresser
to look as close as you can as the Hollywood start
you recognise these people who don’t care
about looks as much as you do
and somehow you wish you could be them
after one day you’d hate it
begging to come back to your previous state
how did you become so bitter?
where have your positivity gone?
or perhaps
there was none of it
ever
all of this was just a illusion
cliche
a piece of photograph that everyone loves to look at
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 1:12 PM UTC
but how hard it is for you actually
being there
stop to reflect
and run away as fast as you can
how hard is it?
to go forward
instead of going back
you are a good girl
you are not a bad girl
you may be different
or you may be the most normal person in the whole world
you choose
so
is it really that hard for you?
to take the step and see what is on the other side
reject all the nonsense
you have experienced before
and come back
go to this bad boy you have always been dreaming about
but I dare you to never look back
and do not look for love anymore
because there will be no any
your choice remains forever
and you must learn to live
as if there was never anything else
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 1:11 PM UTC
I don’t know
am I even trying to rethink it?
or is it the void of what it could be
what it could have been
because remember that
the life you chose is already done
the fate has been completed
and you have done all you possibly could
are you still there?
waiting for another round
nervously playing with fingers
you feel edgy
and it is a good thing
you are on the edge
of good manners
the whole ‘adventure’ as you would call it
is not even a reality
how can you know if it is all true
when there is no one around
aren’t there suppose to be like a mass?
a great group of people
who comment your every move your every breath
maybe this particular life
this odd scenario of improper situations
has never been used
and yet there you are
enthusiastically looking out for the sign to start
to begin with a grand gesture
the one and only life you have to live
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 1:10 PM UTC
I did not expect it
no one did
that you would even show up here
tonight
with such a big smile on your face
what did make you so happy?
is it the fact that the end is coming?
the final relief that could finish you
using extremely painful force
it would easily put you on the floor, I bet
but yet
you’re standing here
smiling and nodding agreeably to people around you
even your dress seems decent
so after all you have decided on this short one
well, I can’t say
your legs are looking really good
seems like you’ve started working out again
all the sweat of yesterday
had been washed out with warm stream of water
you were waiting for this moment for a long time
admit it
there is nothing better
than the process of liberation from all hands that have touched yours during the long day of pretending
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 1:09 PM UTC