Some stuff has been happening to me and I don't know what to do anymore. The stress is more than I can bare; but am expected to. And I know this website is about poetry, but ya'll are like family so I need some advice. Here is a vague explanation on what's going on:
Well I almost got kidnapped for one. About a week ago and I've been scared to be by myself since then. My grandpa has stage 4 lung cancer; the thing is he's known he's had cancer for 10 months and refused to get treatment. He's dying! And I'm stuck 600 miles away form him, I can't help. I can only be here for my siblings. My mom is with him and has been gone for weeks and she doesn't know when she is coming back it won't be for a few months. I am left with cleaning the house 24/7, and while I'm there for everyone else whose there for me?
Jan 28, 2020
Jan 28, 2020 at 2:30 PM UTC
What is love?
love is when your at the end of your rope,
and he tie's more on a rope
love is what you get when
two shattered hearts make a whole
love is waiting
waiting for him
love is thinking of the worst thing he did,
and still smiling
love is a mothers kiss,
on a new born baby
so when you feel love
don't waste your time
love is what I feel,
when I think you you
Jan 17, 2020
Jan 17, 2020 at 11:36 AM UTC
Hope is the Sun rising on
a cold winter evening
hope is the i love you
after a rough day
hope is the unexpected smile
from the homeless guy
hope is the feeling you get,
when you see the soldiers coming home
hope is the hearts desire
that you long to fulfill
hope is a wish
you don't know you have yet.
Jan 17, 2020
Jan 17, 2020 at 11:33 AM UTC
What is love?
love is when you on the end of your rope,
and he gets more rope to tie it too.
love is the feeling you get when,
that special someone turns and looks at you.
love is thinking about the worst thing he's done
and still smiling and laughing.
love is the overwhelming since of joy,
that is unecspected and exspected all at once.
love is risking it all for the single,
reason you should hide.
love is the feeling I get when I,
see, hear, or think of you Teddy Bear.
Jan 1, 2020
Jan 1, 2020 at 5:32 AM UTC
I haven't been able to write a lot . . .
or talk to the person I love.
Not because I don't want to
but because I literally couldn't!
Around December 19
I got in a major car accident.
I needed over 53 stitches,
I have bone bruising,
I've been in a lot of pain not gonna lie.
but when my life flashed before my eyes,
I saw my BFF Chris (yk the one who helped me a while back).
and I saw the person I love the most . . .
But my mom, is letting me have cosmetic surgery
to cover the scaring.
But none the less I did get to come home for the holidays
even if the reason was to see a doctor or two.
so it's like 3 am and I can't stop crying I'm in so much pain,
both physical and mental.
Thought I'd give an explanation, on why I haven't been able upload.
I have been writing, in a notebook someone gave me.
Dec 30, 2019
Dec 30, 2019 at 3:53 AM UTC
I tried to find my reflection in the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lack
all the smudges in the mirror
made me go insane
all I ever thought I was
was a mistake
Dec 17, 2019
Dec 17, 2019 at 11:53 AM UTC
This isn't a poem, it's a thank you. Thank you all so much for, bein there for me. And inspiring me to know what I have. And thank you all for lifting me up with some of your comments. If anyone would love to talk to me, or anything don't be afraid to text me on discord. https://discord.gg/SBFp4m
Thank you for excepting me when others, wouldn't. I a glad to be in the Hello Poetry family with such talented and amazing people
Dec 17, 2019
Dec 17, 2019 at 10:54 AM UTC
It hurts to breathe.
All I want is for all the pain to go away
But it's reluctant
and sticks with you as if there's a
glitch in the system,
and it's stuck hovering above you.
Or maybe it isn't a glitch maybe
it's just life's reminder
of the fact that you'll
never be happy
you'll never be okay
you'll be forever in pain
well that is until
there's no more
well that is except for peace.
I went to many people
who promised they could fix me
but it is because of them I am broken
They make me relize my fault
my failures
I pleaded with them to make the pain to go away
they tried, oh how they tried
But my der best friend,
you are the reason I made it this long
Thank you,
But I can't deal with the pain anymore
If you want something done right
you must do it yourself.
So I will
Goodbye
Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019 at 9:29 PM UTC
You are my family.
Given the choice I would choose you,
and you alone.
I would go to the ends of the earths
just to find you.
Because if not for you:
what is my reason for existence?
For breathing?
For putting up with everything and everyone?
You are the reason,
and you are it alone.
You are my whole world,
my everything.
My love at first sight.
My buddy as Mrs. Kelley would say.
You are my partner in this,
ever since that first kiss.
That was my way of saying
you can have my shattered heart.
As long as you can put it back together.
I love you my Noah,
my teddy bear,
my love,
my everything.
Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019 at 7:02 PM UTC
As I lay there on you shoulder,
listening to your heart beating.
I here it, slow and steady.
Like the sound of a distant war drum.
With every beat, my eyes are drifting to the melody.
Until I find myself in a dark abyss, drifting to sleep.
I open my eyes one last time to reassure myself I am with you.
And I pass out, without any warning.
Without a sound, or scream.
I pass out, in a sleep coma.
In your arms, I feel as if this is how it's suppose to be.
I don't sleep much at all if you haven't noticed.
So when I do get tired
I will find myself longing for the melody
the melody that only plays for me.
But when it's not there,
I won't sleep.
My body won't let me,
my body and mind;
needs you to be there.
To comfort and protect me,
to hold me when nightmares awaken me at night.
To let me know you are there.
So I will search for the heart beat song.
Not just anyone's, only yours.
Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019 at 6:58 PM UTC