The hardest thing I went
through growing up
was probably that
I never actually felt
loved.
And I still dont feel
loved,and I lost way
more trust.
Or maybe that people
always bad about me,
without knowing
how hard im trying.
Sometimes I just feel
like dying,but I cant
I have my little sister
and brother too,I just hope
they dont suffer like me
because its not fun.
Genuinely...
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 10:25 PM UTC
I changed over time,I
learned how to keep
my feelings to
myself,even if I knew
I needed help.
And truth is,I didn't
want others to be
concerned,because I knew
they had there own problems
and they were barely even
solving them.
So ima keep my feelings
bottled up,no matter what,
because I dont want to
be a bother or make you
wonder whats wrong?
And I guess thats just
my life from now and
on.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 10:20 PM UTC
I told myself I would stop,
making myself throw up.
But here I am again,
full face and mouth in the toilet,
I guess I really am just dumb.
There are two fingers in my mouth
all the way in the back,once im
done I start sobbing thinking about
my past.
Welp...I guess this routine
never goes away,but god
I wished for it one day.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 10:08 PM UTC
We once shared warm sunlight’s glow,Now alone, I feel so cold.
Like a lonely tree in rain,Our love is gone, only pain remains.
Your voice, a whisper in the rain,brings only hurt, and so much pain.
Love like ours, now just a ghost,Haunting me the most.
I walk alone through fallen leaves,Carrying what my heart still grieves.
A silent ache I can’t undo loving you, and losing you too.
Like a river dried and cracked,My heart’s been broken,but I can’t turn back.
Love slipped away, like rain from sky,
Leaving me here to wonder why?.
I walk alone through empty fields,
Carrying scars that time won't heal.
A quiet ache that won't let go loving you was my greatest woe.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 10:05 PM UTC
If you met me you wouldnt think,
suicide almost took my life.
Way before I saw my sisters eyes,
before she was born,
I was being torn.
But I survived for my little brother and sister too,
because I knew they needed someone to look up to.
Even if im all shades of blue
my scars are fading
and my depression too.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 8:28 PM UTC
Sometimes I have my I need
my big sister moments,but I
am the big sis,the one they
look up to often.First
granddaughter,first niece,
first everything,had to grow
up fast and spread my wings.
I had to do it all on my own.
Carry the weight,be strong
be grown.
Even if I was just small,I had
to step up and give in my all.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 7:45 PM UTC
I had to raise myself everyday,
no mom no dad to show me the
way.
So I promise,if you dont love me
its okay,I have always been alone
either way.
I did it all by myself,you see
thats what made me who im
supposed to be.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 7:43 PM UTC
They think because your a girl you have to get all dolled up.
Like really for what?
They think you have to wear pink everyday,
you have to do your hair a certain way.
But no,thats not the reality,you can wear gray and black
as long as your comfortable in that.
You can have your hair as messy as you want
because your human,not some doll.
You dont have to wear a dress,you can wear shirts and sweats.
I promise your still a hot mess.
Same goes with men you dont need to be
skinny and have abs or a six pack.
Same goes with boys you dont need to be skinny,
you can be fat,
as long as your okay with that.
And truth is,you dont need to be a certain gender and act like that.
Because at the end of the day its your decision on what you want to do
and be.
Dont listen to others and their lack of honesty.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 7:40 PM UTC
Can I say something real quick,
I know you guys talk bad about me behind my back,
im not stupid,I just wanna keep the peace,
because I dont want anymore drama in reality.
I love playing along,cuz I wanna see how far you guys are willing to act,until you stab me in my back.
And it wouldnt be the first time,probaly not the last.
But its also my fault,because I keep forgiving you guys,and letting yall come back.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 7:34 PM UTC
I fear that the day you decide to break up,
is the day that everybody loses me,
and im not even joking.
I wont laugh the same,I wont smile the same,
my spark is going to be gone,and each time I listen to a song
there will always be tears in my eyes,
because it will remind me,
of when you were mine.
And im saying this right now,but if that day ever comes,
it will be worse than this,ill probably even beg you that day,
to not break up with me
because I do love you in reality.
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 7:28 PM UTC