We will never understand each other's feelings
There's not enough words to describe the feelings we feel
Yet we show them through anger and mistakes
A broken trust and the pain that goes with it
The mistakes I can never correct
The pain I continue to have every night
I still feel nothing and I hate the lack of emotions I can have
Can you have emotions towards the lack of emotions?
I know you hated every time I couldn't answer for my mistakes
The answers that handed no help and no closure
I hated myself for the lack of help I gave
For the mistakes I made almost sent me to the grave
I still wonder if in five years there will be anyone left
Any one I can say, "Yes, I will stay on this land for you."
I will calm my steady hand
Raise the glass and wonder how many floors I'm on
What it truly takes to have a lack of emotions
For something always pulls me back, but they are growing old
Stress or disease will bring them down
I wonder if I will still be here in five cold winters
Dec 25, 2020
Dec 25, 2020 at 12:26 AM UTC
We're Just a Couple of People
Left out to die
Woke up and now we're ready to fly
Got a cold sweat and a shower waiting
It's been going on for a few days and it's fading
No more steam no more mirror
Shattered a couple years ago
I'm no hero
But I always wanted to die as one
But now I realize even that would be no fun
So now I'm left out here to die
From a couple to one
Dec 19, 2020
Dec 19, 2020 at 2:16 AM UTC
I'm Taken Aback
From the sights we used to see
I wonder if I never left that night
Would you still be the old you
The one who still loved and cared
And would I still look past you
And get up and leave
Because I didn't care
Dec 19, 2020
Dec 19, 2020 at 2:11 AM UTC
Never knew rain could hurt as it fell
Yet, I feel myself watching the dark clouds roll by
Hoping to hear the thunder
Feel the rumble and clash
A might to make me jump
A jump I was always to afraid to do
Never knew that I can't survive alone
Yet, I am here for however long is left
Every night a struggle
And every morning a chance I give up
I've written a thousand poems
And now I can only put this one out
Never knew what it meant to never have enough words
Never knew the life of it all
Never knew
I am here but for how long
I am thinking until I stop
I wished I saved every poem
Never knew I'd forget every single one
Now I know
Dec 19, 2020
Dec 19, 2020 at 2:03 AM UTC
I'm taking my time writing in the dark
I can't see the light from here
Nobody ever wonders what it's like
I'm just taking a second to breath
Just stop telling me where to go
I'll figure it out before I'm dead
I've never tried to write a metaphor
This is just how words come out
But now I can't think of what to say
Whatever you think it may be there's not a second to delay
Nothing ever comes out right
Only shine bright with the stars and their delight
I'm running late again
I'm trying to keep up, but the strings might tear
I'm going to make it to the other side
Dragging and pulling I don't care
It doesn't really matter to me now
I'm still in the dark writing with a head heavy as lead
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 5:43 PM UTC
You don't know anything about me
I only write to stop from thinking
I'm more worried about my life than I should be
I don't sing enough when I don't like my voice
But that doesn't matter when
You don't know anything about me
Yet you keep asking me about myself
I couldn't even tell you anyway
I wish I could see through it
I've never once tried to dance to a beat
I only walk in rhythm when I can hear it
Wonder what it's like to care about it anyway
But I couldn't care when
You don't know anything about me
Yet you keep asking me about myself
I couldn't even tell you anyway
I wish I could see through it
Everyday I wake up blurry
Could never tell a dream apart
Now I'm just laying in bed
Waiting for my alarm to go off
I can still hear you asking me about myself
I can't even stand to look at you
Yet every morning I come back
I really have to stop looking in the mirror
Oct 31, 2019
Oct 31, 2019 at 11:00 PM UTC
I'm heartbroken
Concrete split open
I can't breath right now
But I'll be alive tomorrow
I woke up with sunshine in the morning
Blinds wide open
I crawled my way through the window
Please hurry
I can't make it to my bed
There's only a few more feet left to go
My legs won't work anymore
But I'll be alive in the morning
I'm still heartbroken
Concrete's still split open
But don't you worry 'bout me
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 7:38 PM UTC
Always been that lonely flower
But a flower always flying
With my roots still in the ground
Every attachment keeping me up
Every petal catching wind
I always thought I'd keep flying
But every root lost
Every petal picked
I couldn't stay afloat
For there was no reason for the wind anymore
And thus I fell
Jun 28, 2019
Jun 28, 2019 at 3:28 PM UTC
Listen to my silent room
Never more was there another sound
Beyond this window and beyond that door
A world filled with too many sounds
In my room I controlled the sound
And It responded to me and only me
As the sky turned Dark
And only orange from a street light
Filled my silent room
I found myself on my darkened bed
Watching light move silently
The only sound is my bed
As I move to better watch the orange light
Again listen to my silent room
For now even I don't control the sound
Nov 29, 2018
Nov 29, 2018 at 3:19 AM UTC
I really need to just write
Figure out what to in life
Feels like I'm just swimming
Waiting for the moon to come out
See how the waves move throughout the night
Rocking back and forth about to topple over
Pushing and pulling water that tries to seep through
Another wave going over trying to be another cover
Still waiting to see the moon
Every breath just another step closer
Every wave trying to cut through
Really just going to be another
Swimming waiting for the moon
Still yet to see the moon
Aug 7, 2018
Aug 7, 2018 at 11:40 PM UTC