You told me you love me and I said I cant stay
You put your hand on my chest and told me it was okay
I told you to run and get away
Before you get to know me
Before you decide to play
The confusion of this delusion
Is causing a defusion of my sanity,
Why must you torment me with your calamity,
I’ve only taken trips to the lands of make believe,
You filled my head with lies of all I could have achieved,
You blinded my eyes with the strings you used to manipulate my heart,
And as you pulled you tore a pieces of me apart,
A smile on your face with lies on your lips,
You really thought I’d bend the knee whenever you shook your hips,
Like a rotting tooth I had force myself to remove knowing I’ll never recover from the pain,
I came back to reality not feeling the same,
I left too much of me in your fantasy,
All that’s left now is a shell of what used to be me
Feb 15, 2024
Feb 15, 2024 at 10:25 PM UTC
Keep cutting deeper, until you find my salvation. Cutter deeper still, until you cure my starvation, There’s no one left to confide, No one left to confess to all the horrors kept inside, Don’t stop, there’s no time for doubt, Please keep going, I need to get out, There’s no one to left, to pretend to care to my face, Long forgotten liars who watch this place, Waiting for my end so they can laugh and to shed fake tears, Where were they all these years? I won’t miss those miss those at all, I won’t miss anyone who watched me fall, The ones who claimed to be the ones who cared the most, But only when I was an entertaining host, So, cut me a little deeper until you find my salvation, I’ve lived long enough, I need a vacation
Jun 28, 2022
Jun 28, 2022 at 1:33 PM UTC
Verdant eyes as lush as any field
Azalea hued lips that can make even a king yield
Your voice a song in my ears that I’ll never forget the lyrics to
Lifting my soul towards the sky when it’s clearest blue
The best curves on your body belongs to your smile
I tried my best not to give in, living in my denial
Your gentle sweetness has pulled me in when I thought I could never allow myself to breathe
Your words have done what I never thought would be possible to achieve
To be the one that occupies your thoughts from the moment you wake, until you close your eyes and meet me in your nightly lullaby
Keeping you in my thoughts like a bird learning to fly
I’ll see you for who you are and not what you think
Keeping my distance as far as I can to not form a link
Knowing you deserve better than I could ever give
But close enough to know you for as long as I live
Making sure the regrets keep piling high
I’ll keep this secret to myself until the day that I die
Mar 3, 2021
Mar 3, 2021 at 11:54 PM UTC
You see a majesty in others where there is none
You gave up on your dreams before they've begun
Inspiration, in those of less worth, you plant that seed
But in yourself, you don't feel there's a need
You've let the thoughts and wills of them keep you down
Envious hearts refuse to see you among the clouds, so they tied you to the ground
Fear set in after watching how your wings expand
Find your way through the fingers of their ever clutching hand
Forget what they said you were before
Never look back, as you continue to soar
Feb 28, 2021
Feb 28, 2021 at 5:54 PM UTC
The gentle tones the escapes your caressive lips fill me with a calming serenity
How your laughter fills the emptiness that can last an eternity
To be able to hear your voice in person is what any man of worth would die for
Like a sailor slowly coming to terms with being ashore
The bliss too insurmountable to put into even the finest of words until the end of time
You make even the sun envious with how much you shine
Feb 22, 2021
Feb 22, 2021 at 11:11 PM UTC
Could it have been more than this
A jumble of lies and broken promises
Finding no comfort in each other's lives
Searing words used to cut our barely formed ties
Every secret shared, twisted and contorted to match the world created in your make believe land
False words spilled on the battlefield where you wanted to make your final stand
Your voice which was once a source for my delight
Now weaponized for your continued slights
Gone are the days I long to be where you are
We were never close, but still not too far
Years of regret cling to me like wet sand on a filthy beach
Wasted hours on someone who I could not reach
Fatigue had finally set into my weary heart
I want you know how much I thrive now that we are apart
I don't care who you have become or what you do
I can live a healthier life without you
Feb 21, 2021
Feb 21, 2021 at 8:28 PM UTC
As I watch the grains of sand flow
I reminisce of days when things were slow
When children remained innocent until they were ready to grow up
How easily imagination flowed through our minds like emptying a cup
Opinions were shared and not used as a weapon to tear others down
Hearing people enjoy your days out in the sun without hearing siren sounds
To be able to look up and see a group of clouds dance across the sunlit sky
Hear birds chirping away as they ate the left over seeds
Feel the wind violate your body with its gentle touch
These are the things I miss so much
The hourglass keeps its steady pace
This uninvited passenger has decided to stay
Inside of my mind, stripping all that was good forcing it to decay
It made a home where once I found happy solitude
Eating away at my jovial nature, replacing it with a darker mood
Each grain falls, feels like an eternity
Wanting to feel the end, because now, this is me
Feb 21, 2021
Feb 21, 2021 at 5:19 PM UTC
The green of your eyes are like a beautiful meadow waiting for winter's first frost
I can stare into them for hours, hoping to get lost
Wanting to never find my way back as long as they're all I could see, wondering how warm the curves of your smile would feel
Knowing if I could experience it, how easily my soul could heal
From the exhaustion I'm in whenever I hear your voice
Like a siren's call, pulling me in, I have no choice
But to give in, to my favorite person I have yet to meet
Getting my love is no small feat
Feb 20, 2021
Feb 20, 2021 at 9:36 AM UTC
The dawn never starts, night never ends
Without you in my life, my heart never mends
The light of your eyes has faded from my memory, forever gone
I whisper your name in the dark, hoping for the calm
I await for you to shine before me once again
Wishing this long night will meet its end
Feb 20, 2021
Feb 20, 2021 at 9:31 AM UTC
Each night, my anticipation grows, As I lay silently for you to come
To feel your frigid touch and deceitful hum
Your flavorless breathe as it prances on my warm flesh
Lay on my awaiting chest, push yourself into me until we mesh
Feel my heart beat quicken as you begin your torment of teasing
My eyes remain shut as you work your way in, the agony you inflict as you do is quite pleasing
My lips, moisten by the thrill, open slightly for you
The storm gathers inside of me, ready for what next you will do
Pressed together, our lips form a seal
Before this exchange is done, you will reveal
How you’ve captured my curiosity deep in the recesses of my mind
Calling out to the darkest depravity, which I’m sure was not hard to find
Our contorting bodies merging into one
Anguish flows over me waiting for you to be done
Take what I never wished to be cursed with until now
Take it all, never leave them a clue as to how
My soul was eaten this night
As you leave my decaying corpse, you turn around before your shadowed flight
And reminisce our our shared embrace
An unfamiliar feeling overtakes you, as your heart begins to quicken its pace
Was it a mistake to remove me from my prison
What is this doubt that has arisen
Forcing its way to the forefront of your emotions
Pushing and clawing its way out, in a raucous commotion
A tear escapes, never to be seen again
You will be the only one to ever mourn my end
Feb 20, 2021
Feb 20, 2021 at 9:29 AM UTC