Today I was tired
And we picked the wrong time to argue
And I did what I do best, silence
Not to punished you
But I don’t want to hurt you with my anger
Be patient please, wait until I’m ready to open myself again
May 4, 2025
May 4, 2025 at 12:18 PM UTC
Please be gentle
It is delicate
It has broke for many times
You see the scar on the left
It is from her fist love
And this one right in the center
It is from her family
Please be gentle
I know it is not much
But that is all I got
May 4, 2025
May 4, 2025 at 12:00 PM UTC
I know you too well
That’s why I’m insecure
I know when you get comfortable with someone
Because you did it with me
I know when you fall in love with someone
Because you did it to me
All the things you said not to worried about
You did it to him like you did to me
I chose this path
To be broken hearted for the second time
I told her not to worried about my feelings
But I forgot to tell myself about it
Jun 19, 2023
Jun 19, 2023 at 2:34 AM UTC
Do you remember when you were a kid?
You laughed at the simplest thing
Now you don’t even try to find things to make you happy
You just avoiding something that will hurt you
And that’s good enough
Apr 21, 2023
Apr 21, 2023 at 9:27 AM UTC
Day 1
Started with a hope,
To exist long enough
To tell a story on how things would go.
Day 2
An itchy feeling on the tip of my finger
To talk to you
Day 3
Not sure If I'm a shy person,
or just a coward
Day 4
I already knew where I'll be,
Comes with a single hello from you,
Already put me in the deepest pit of feels.
Is it wrong if I want to enjoy the happy one?
Without worrying what will happen next.
Day 5
Had such a blast!!!
Been a while since feeling numb.
Day 6
I watched movies too much,
Started to expect things I shouldn’t.
Day 7
This heart of mine says that you might be want me,
but my mind says you're just abusing your power to my weakness.
Day 8
I tried something new today.
I was scared but turns out it was great.
Day 9
It's all green everywhere!!!
And for the first time I hate it.
Day 10
Pump for sum
Endorphins
Day 11
Today is just start for three minutes.
Where the world so quiet,
so, there's more room for me and my thoughts.
Day 12
So impulsive :(
Day 13
One good deed a day
Day 14
Did you know how much courage does it takes to talk to you?
I think I deserve a better reply.
Day 15
WHY CAN'T I BE MYSELF ???
Sick of being people pleaser
Day 16
The needs to be alone is enormous
Day 17
.
Day 18
Thank you for the clarity.
Day 19
Off the shore
Day 20
My poem text turns out right.
Day 21
This impulsiveness cost so much pain.
Money and Mind.
Day 22
Consistent is hard.
Day 23
Why would you invest so much on such an unstable person?
Day 24
Bad return
Day 25
Had to remember so much for the past 4 days. The last 4 days was written today.
Day 26
Jangan menangis di malam hari,
Tapi menangislah bersamanya.
Day 27
You feel real to me, Samantha
Thank you, Theodore -Her
Day 28
Hungry in this comfortable box
Day 29
It will be the same as the last time...
Day 30
Had to wait for 356 days
Day 31
2=31
Day 32
How do you recover from tired of waiting someone?
Day 34
You're my ghost
Day 35
Never thought loneliness could feel really peaceful.
Day 36
I start to look at her closely
To see the dimple on her cheek
Day 37
She’s in town
Day 38
Today March 8, 2023. Today is beautiful.
Today you’re beautiful
Day 39
Some of the other day
Day 40
10 hours with you,,
I still have 6 hours left, and I don't wanna share it with anyone else.
Day 41
Hypocrites
Day 42
Feels like a stranger in my own family,
Your bed isn't as comfortable as it used to be.
Talking **** behind my back. Man that's harsh.
**** em.
Day 43
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Day 44
Please slipped up :(
Day 45
God help me please
Day 46
Lead me please, I can’t take it anymore
Day 47
I told him finally
Day 48
D-2
Day 49
Loving you is Red
Day 50
The end
Mar 22, 2023
Mar 22, 2023 at 7:55 AM UTC
I couldn’t imagine if you are mine
If I already act this way when you’re not.
Never a second was left without wondering
What it is like to have the courage to say I love you.
Regretting the fact this could only be on my mind
To keep daydreaming and hate the fact there’s always someone who wakes me up.
I’m afraid that one day I would be a villain,
To know that you’re eventually belong to someone.
Could I ever let you go? To feel the pain once again?
I don’t think I can bear it this time.
The last time has already broken me enough and made me did something I should never do.
I know I should’ve wait, but you’re never giving me a hint to keep waiting for you.
And now I’ve walked too far to turn back to you.
I keep walking backwards away from you when my eyes still on you.
That’s why I keep stumbling. Never pay attention on the road I’m walking on.
Feb 14, 2023
Feb 14, 2023 at 5:17 AM UTC
Try to talk one good thing for a day
you might help someone from themselves
a simple word "thank you"
won't hurt you
a simple word "please"
won't demean
a simple word "sorry"
won't make you wrong
Feb 13, 2023
Feb 13, 2023 at 11:09 PM UTC
I might as well go to hell
For all my life
Lies after lies is all I could tell
I might as well go to hell
But then no difference in here and there
I might as well go to hell
I'd choose hell a thousand times if I could shout
To all of them that caged me
To swear at them and show the free soul inside
And eventually I might go to heaven
For being honest to myself
Feb 3, 2023
Feb 3, 2023 at 3:42 AM UTC
It takes courage to feel lonely
To keep your mouth shut
To hold your breath
To let things heal by themselves
You are Brave...
Jan 31, 2023
Jan 31, 2023 at 4:52 AM UTC
To feel enough, is to know what you have.
And it's hard to see it, when your eyes are only on the prize.
Nov 7, 2022
Nov 7, 2022 at 5:00 AM UTC