I haven’t been able to write about you, from the moment we met. I finally feel like I figured it out. You’re different. I don’t and I can’t find the words to write about our relationship or my feelings towards you, other than that you make me happy, but I can write about what you make me think. Our course of words takes me to places forgotten and new realizations and you encourage me to pursue and keep pursuing the things I love to do. To the boy next-door, I thank you.
Jul 3, 2017
Jul 3, 2017 at 4:30 AM UTC
head to pillow
just staring blankly at the floor.
This feels all too familiar
I thought to myself
as waves of fear rippled back.
hours pass.
head to pillow
that familiarity unknowingly lingering in the back of my head
body freezes as it makes its way forward
until it’s all I can feel.
Waves crash yet no salt streams down my face
No matter how calm
the winds and waters will find a time to collide
Jul 3, 2017
Jul 3, 2017 at 4:03 AM UTC
It started with my heart
You turned it stone
Then it began to pump lead through my veins
Causing my body to weigh more than I could carry
I couldn't find comfort
It was all so rock solid
Sealed shut
Permanent
Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 1:53 AM UTC
I asked myself
what’s wrong with a little dreamin
Our imagination can’t hurt us
but reality will
I thought I had finally chosen right
after countless ill decisions
I thought I knew from the beginning
but what I was missing
was staring me down even before the start
dumpster demons
how could it be so
And yet
I miss your smile
vibrant and luminous
just right
because when I’m with you
I want to match your smile
you make me match your smile
Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 1:51 AM UTC
Laying in bed side by side
facing one another
looking into each others eyes
but looking away when it becomes too much
your thumb grazes my lip
and my eyes come right back to yours
thank you for taking the time
to make me feel desired
I thank you for putting this smile back on my cheeks
Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 1:50 AM UTC
Only with the knowledge
that the end, for us, is within sight,
have I learned to
let myself fall.
Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 1:44 AM UTC
And with you,
I have no words.
I came close to
uttering the
three infamous syllables
of an "I love you"
Yet the words that
I transcribe
are empty and
confused.
Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 1:43 AM UTC
two rather large glasses down,
one heart crumbled the other thriving.
Leave the shattered pieces on the ground
find the light
find the happiness and the warmth
that linger within
after layer after layer of singed love.
a fire that was lit and never put out
burned me to my core
leaving no light
no happiness within
no warmth for me to bathe and bask in.
Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 1:39 AM UTC
Hollow on the inside
Unreal on the out
can you hear the echoes that come from my heart
or are you not listening
where are you my dear
I’ve been waitin on you
but I can’t wait much longer
I can only be so hollow until
I become so thin that I break
please don’t break me.
save me
love me
hold me
and never leave me
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 4:50 AM UTC
If you read the words I wrote
it might just break your heart
cause they’re sure as hell too much for me to handle
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 4:46 AM UTC