I am bending in the wind,
I am cracking at the roots,
Drowning in old reboots.
All I know is what I don’t want,
But all I do want is to be proven wrong.
Introduce me to a different song.
I am blending into the trees,
No longer recognized by thee.
Barely floating with my head above sea,
Bearing anchors on each my ankles.
All I can see is who I used to be,
fragments of what once was, just bleeding at the seams.
Just trying to march to my own beat, but finding it easier to flee.
So I go swimming with the fishes.
Everything quiet, everything at peace.
Once easily deceived by shadows of wishes that would never be.
Now only one shark is left swimming at sea.
Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 7:34 PM UTC
I feel like I'm being pulled in every direction
My life is a cluttered mess
I feel too much emotion and I start to second guess
I'm stubborn, hard headed
And over-sensitive at best
My tongue moves too fast
But my mind moves too slow
The words that escape become an unfriendly foe
The layers begin to crumble and the doors begin to unfold
I always ruin everything, leaving nothing to hold
I don't know which way to go or where I'll be at next
I have a lot to get off my chest but my mind needs some rest
The words I try to say aren't the ones I really meant
This is all just one giant mess
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 9:33 PM UTC
I'm stubborn and clumsy
Not just with my actions,
With my words
I'm sensitive and sweet
But I'll play your words on repeat
I love like a sunset
But am sad like the moon
Surrounded by stars
But still alone in a crowded room
Half way to Mars
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 2:42 PM UTC
If I had to pick two colors, I'd have to pick black and gold
The way you laughed, the way you spoke
You beam colors,
Black and gold
No matter where I go you're somewhere in my soul
I don't know why I can't let you go
Millions of miles apart
Still the color changes in my heart
Black and gold
It wasn't just a kiss with his hands down her waist and hips
"I love you, I can explain this"
Down with this ship.
Shattered to a million pieces
No more amends and peaces
Now my heart feels empty, my heart feels black
Trapped with all the things I lack
Your love made me erode
And if our love had two colors
They'd be black and gold
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 2:11 AM UTC
The roses you once planted in my soul
Grow thorns everywhere I go
They say it takes 21 days to kick a habit
But they must not have met you
For you are more than just an absence
You demand to be felt
And I'm sorry about the ****** cards we were dealt
They say it takes 21 days to kick a habit
21 days and you're not an addict
But still you melt my heart like acid
And I still don't know what happened
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 1:25 PM UTC
I'll celebrate today
Like I'm meant to stay
I'll laugh and play
Along, accepting broken praise
Please still know
I'll be thinking of you, my favorite foe
Surrounded by faces and voices
But still I miss your noises
Shouldn't want to spend my time with you
Shouldn't give in to your deception
With you, I always make an exception
It started with a stumble
Suddenly I was falling in with your rubble
Just a fragment of your heart
A sliver of your chest
Whatever happened to the rest?
Happy birthday to me
And all I should be
But still I'm wishing
I could be celebrating with thee
Oct 28, 2015
Oct 28, 2015 at 12:01 AM UTC
They say they see a light
Deep in my tired eyes
A spark still inside
Waiting to ignite
But still I feel so little
Like I'm lost and stuck in the middle
My flowers can't bloom
Trapped in a golden tomb
I need the sun
For the daisies to grow in my lungs
I need the sun
For the sunflowers on my tongue
I can't remember how I got this far
I've been lost for months, weeks, maybe days
Lost in your trance
Stuck in a daze
Your eyes tell a story
One your mouth can't convey
Never having the right words to say
I disappeared in your quiet eyes
For they have nothing to hide
But won't you please show me
The way back
To my
Quiet light?
Sep 21, 2015
Sep 21, 2015 at 1:10 PM UTC
She's lost and she's cold
Not only her mind, also her soul
She's scared and confused
Radiating colors and hues
Pinks and blues
Gentle sorrows and subtle boo hoo's
Thorns on her tongue
Roses in her chest
Still she finds it hard to catch her breath
If only she could see
The little magic she can be
She bites her lip but sips her tea
She won't tell you what it's like to be thee
She won't be lonely long
Her velvet skin and satin hair
She's quite the stare
When it begins to rain
She always stays
Growing daisies on her skin
So many flowers growing within
Sep 18, 2015
Sep 18, 2015 at 2:23 PM UTC
My feelings are always too much
Turned redundant to the only one
Who could ever light me on fire like the sun
Easier to keep them repressed
No room for leaving or distress
A love struck fool and never anything less
I long for a lover who's looking to stay
A friend until the darkest parts of day
Maybe when the stars align
I'll find the friend whom's heart matches mine
Maybe one day my lover will belong
He'll make my soul sing a sappy song
Forget all the affliction that came along
Growing and feeling made with
Sweetness and being
All the heartache and pain
All the lovers lost in vain
Until that day,
I'll find a lover in the rain
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 2:50 AM UTC
You're still messing up my days
Ever since you went away
Your existence leaves a haze
Months, even days
Still your presence seems to stay
I lay and I wonder,
Who could you possibly be under?
As the rain started to fall
Mother Nature began to thunder
I could feel it all start to crumble
I miss the way our hearts would brush
I miss your fingers and their touch
I miss the way our breathing would sync
Our hands could always find their way through the sheets
Do you brush her hair while you lean down and stare?
Does she make you laugh when your days aren't fair?
Do you think of my eyes and skin?
Do you miss my embrace and my frame, so very thin?
Or was I just a pit stop down the road?
You, I may never decode
Instead I watched you erode
Slowly unravel and become new
The boy with the smile of blue
A stranger before me, someone I would never know
Still I can't help but wonder
About the boy without a number
The boy who was quite the jumper
The innocent boy who smiled of blue
The innocent boy who left
for something new
Sep 14, 2015
Sep 14, 2015 at 4:37 PM UTC