when my little sister was born
i was no longer the youngest
and i was happy to have her around
when my little sister was a baby
she was very smart
learned how to walk sooner than most of us
when my little sister was growing more and more each day
she took risks like
biting into a lemon
or
waking up our sleeping cat
when my little sister started school
she was excited
when my little sister learned to ride a bike
she fell many times
but one day
she kept going and going
when my little sister said something smart
i'd ask her
who told you that?
and she'd reply
anybody
she really meant to say
"nobody"
when my little sister thinks something is unfair
she gets upset
when my little sister thinks someone is unfair
she gets teary eyed
and
hurts inside
when my little sister sees a scary movie trailer on tv
she runs to the other room
so innocent
when my little sister asks me if I have a girlfriend
and I reply no
she replies
you don't need one - you need to take care of me
when my little sister wakes up and finds out she was sleeping all alone
she runs out of the room and cuddles next to me or Erik - our brother
or she says
i don't want to sleep anymore
when my little sister sings along to one of my songs
it brings me joy
when my little sister grows up
i want the best for her
when my little sister grows up
i want her to be an example
and
as long as i'm alive
i need to be that example
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 6:32 PM UTC
i see you in my future
i see cupid shooting laser beams
i know the feeling isnt mutual
but
ill see you later in my dreams
in my dreams
i see you when i daydream
when i'm sitting at my desk at school
you taste me on your cigarette that you smoke
'cause you think you're cool
you think you're cool
the only time
i had the world
in my hands
was when i held yours
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 4:34 PM UTC
you let go of me
like threads
on an old button
no longer intertwined
you were once my support
you held me together
you held me tight and close
slipped from my grip
you said everything
happens for a reason
i saw it as treason
you never gave me a reason
you betrayed your
own heart
love
how can someone so beautiful
be so hideous
on the inside
that
I will never know
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 4:24 PM UTC
Jealousy was the
ugliest thing ever
created
even God is
a jealous
one
Nov 14, 2014
Nov 14, 2014 at 2:44 AM UTC
clouds are weird
usually we can feel certain things
but
not see them
with clouds
it is different
we can see them
but
not feel them
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 3:34 PM UTC
i
am
human
just like you
grew up confused
fused into a small hole
quite the ***** up
but focused
we are all like lines
i build escape plans through words
every time I find myself stuck
i find escape within me
i find escape in books
i took from my imagination
and drew inspiration
we are all like lines
lines guided my curvy path
life was a little like math class
nothing but memorization
strangers act like they don't remember that we were once friends
last year, last month, last night
or
in the past life
we are all like lines
some of us
meet with someone else
and we intersect once
we make contact
and touch
but funny enough
we never really touch
on an atomic level
our atoms repel
we are like lines
perpendicular
and
never cross paths again
but some of us
meet with someone else
never make contact
or
touch
we are like lines
parallel
we go on forever
but
never intersect
we are all like lines
i saw lines in the way i manipulated
the pen
the pencil
the brush
the spray can
i spray my pseudonym on your wall
well
because I can
the paint
dripping from the walls like
blood streaming down my eyes
the pain
a distraction that
kept me alive
kept me awake at night
kept me away from the safety of my home
but also
kept me away from the dangers of my home
a contradiction
i was living in the streets
the days i never came home
i was living in the streets
the days i never came home
i saw lines in capturing moments
the symmetry in architecture
in nature
i saw myself as a temple
a monument
we are all like lines
i saw lines in guitars
and
how i can change the sound each string makes in endless ways
but in reality
the guitar changed me
it changed the way i tune myself
i finally felt in tune with the world
the fire was inside me
when i took the first breath of air
the water was inside of me
science and religion
i was never thirsty
the earth is really old is all i know
growing up i never learned
never learned how to say no
always afraid of getting old
i forgot the lines i forever rehearsed
the day my mom found out i smoke ****
my eyes were low
and
so was
i
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 2:33 PM UTC