Thoughtsbykenz - Hello Poetry

I saw that you were drawing up stories of you and I so I reached out and you reached for an eraser and I wondered what it would take for you to drop it and pick me up instead but you held it so tightly determined to rid yourself of the past, present or future But there's always a trace of the past on the next page where your pencil left traces You flip through books and rip out your favorite pages but write about the skeletons that you have trapped in those cages and I wondered if i had the right key would you open your box of bones for me so that I could prove to you that I will never leave before you awake That I pray the lord to take my soul way before he would ever take yours because I could never face it to live without you Because my heart still beats every time that you draw me up and erase it Because I loved you but I rotted away Waiting for placement

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Mar 25, 2020

Mar 25, 2020 at 10:05 AM UTC

Traces

I saw that you were drawing up stories of you and I so I reached out and you reached for an eraser and I wondered what it would take for you to drop it and pick me up instead but you held it so tightly determined to rid yourself of the past, present or future But there's always a trace of the past on the next page where your pencil left traces You flip through books and rip out your favorite pages but write about the skeletons that you have trapped in those cages and I wondered if i had the right key would you open your box of bones for me so that I could prove to you that I will never leave before you awake That I pray the lord to take my soul way before he would ever take yours because I could never face it to live without you Because my heart still beats every time that you draw me up and erase it Because I loved you but I rotted away Waiting for placement

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I wrote fantasies and I wrote about sleep I wrote about demons and how they danced around a fire in my dreams I wrote about skeletons in my closet that suffocated me I wrote about monsters that I rolled around with In my sheets and when “I love you” Used to sound sweet I wrote until my brain stopped flooding and my fingertips began to bleed Poetry i wrote until it Finally Became easier to Breathe m.d

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Feb 20, 2020

Feb 20, 2020 at 12:50 PM UTC

Poetry

I wrote fantasies and I wrote about sleep I wrote about demons and how they danced around a fire in my dreams I wrote about skeletons in my closet that suffocated me I wrote about monsters that I rolled around with In my sheets and when “I love you” Used to sound sweet I wrote until my brain stopped flooding and my fingertips began to bleed Poetry i wrote until it Finally Became easier to Breathe m.d

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I want you to know there is glitter inside my bones And sunshine inside my soul So if you ever feel cold You must consider that It did not come from me You have debris and cloud And you’re buried underneath I have been polished like a diamond wedding ring that I wished for upon dandelions and I hoped the seed would settle in your chest But your eyes were dark brown and you were never the calm before the storm you were the storm and the mud that left tracks in my house where I would clean up your mess because your mess has always been mine and when I drank coffee you drank whiskey bc your eyes were dark brown and they burned down the town and we drove through the streets screaming this is our city and while your bones were hollow I kept telling you there was glitter in mine and the cloud that hunger over your head refused to let you see sunshine I am not the reason you are cold I have tried to plant sunshine in your soul

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Jun 11, 2019

Jun 11, 2019 at 11:33 AM UTC

Calm before the Storm

I want you to know there is glitter inside my bones And sunshine inside my soul So if you ever feel cold You must consider that It did not come from me You have debris and cloud And you’re buried underneath I have been polished like a diamond wedding ring that I wished for upon dandelions and I hoped the seed would settle in your chest But your eyes were dark brown and you were never the calm before the storm you were the storm and the mud that left tracks in my house where I would clean up your mess because your mess has always been mine and when I drank coffee you drank whiskey bc your eyes were dark brown and they burned down the town and we drove through the streets screaming this is our city and while your bones were hollow I kept telling you there was glitter in mine and the cloud that hunger over your head refused to let you see sunshine I am not the reason you are cold I have tried to plant sunshine in your soul

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I miss the way your kiss felt electric and Your laughter got me high I miss the way that we made lightening between my thighs and baby, baby, baby….. blue eyes Summer skies Sun kissed skin and you Are my favorite sin.

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Jun 11, 2019

Jun 11, 2019 at 11:28 AM UTC

Summer Love

I miss the way your kiss felt electric and Your laughter got me high I miss the way that we made lightening between my thighs and baby, baby, baby….. blue eyes Summer skies Sun kissed skin and you Are my favorite sin.

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I wish that I would've fallen in love with someone who loved me as hopelessly as I loved you so I could have experienced what it's like to be someone's world in the palm of their hands so I could know what it's like to see someones world stop and not just feel it In my imagination Without me, he couldn’t stand to be alive By my side hand in hand and if he dropped me, his world stops turning Yearning to keep me Put me in your hands hold me as if i were the most fragile piece of your own soul I am the world I’ll keep you whole Don’t forget The world is in the palm of your hands Drop me and Your life turns to sand On the clock The hands stand still As you drop me Against my will Only had you loved me as hopelessly as i loved you Maybe you’d understand my obsession You caused my depression In my dreams You held me and told me I am more perfect than the moon Had you loved me in the slightest measure that i loved you I would not envy the sky because in his eyes I was the stars and the comets in which We wished for infinity lives I wish I would have fallen in love with someone who loved me Til the world stops I want to be sky that you admired never take your eyes off Jealous of the open sky The satin sunset we gazed into Was always prettier than me He held me in our satin sheets I prayed he saw the universe in my eyes Silence He dropped me His world did not stop turning The ache in my heart It’s burning The hands on the clock Stand still at the time of my demise When my heart was shot I still visit the scene of the crime

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Jan 14, 2019

Jan 14, 2019 at 8:21 PM UTC

Unrequited love

I wish that I would've fallen in love with someone who loved me as hopelessly as I loved you so I could have experienced what it's like to be someone's world in the palm of their hands so I could know what it's like to see someones world stop and not just feel it In my imagination Without me, he couldn’t stand to be alive By my side hand in hand and if he dropped me, his world stops turning Yearning to keep me Put me in your hands hold me as if i were the most fragile piece of your own soul I am the world I’ll keep you whole Don’t forget The world is in the palm of your hands Drop me and Your life turns to sand On the clock The hands stand still As you drop me Against my will Only had you loved me as hopelessly as i loved you Maybe you’d understand my obsession You caused my depression In my dreams You held me and told me I am more perfect than the moon Had you loved me in the slightest measure that i loved you I would not envy the sky because in his eyes I was the stars and the comets in which We wished for infinity lives I wish I would have fallen in love with someone who loved me Til the world stops I want to be sky that you admired never take your eyes off Jealous of the open sky The satin sunset we gazed into Was always prettier than me He held me in our satin sheets I prayed he saw the universe in my eyes Silence He dropped me His world did not stop turning The ache in my heart It’s burning The hands on the clock Stand still at the time of my demise When my heart was shot I still visit the scene of the crime

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she tried so hard to fight loneliness she dedicated her life to finding companionship and when she had no more life to give, they rewarded her dedication with a casket fit for one

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Jan 14, 2019

Jan 14, 2019 at 7:46 PM UTC

Rip

she tried so hard to fight loneliness she dedicated her life to finding companionship and when she had no more life to give, they rewarded her dedication with a casket fit for one

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I know who I am My moral's Things that cannot shake me But I'm drowning in my sorrow's All of the things that continue to break me I have let the bad things shape me Mold me into a form I do not recognize I know who I am She is very hard to find Under the debris and The dark night's I can still see My moral's the things that cannot shake me But I let the bad things break me I dig and I dig through the mess I’m depressed My moral's may be something I silently put to rest

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Jan 14, 2019

Jan 14, 2019 at 7:44 PM UTC

Morality

I know who I am My moral's Things that cannot shake me But I'm drowning in my sorrow's All of the things that continue to break me I have let the bad things shape me Mold me into a form I do not recognize I know who I am She is very hard to find Under the debris and The dark night's I can still see My moral's the things that cannot shake me But I let the bad things break me I dig and I dig through the mess I’m depressed My moral's may be something I silently put to rest

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Forgive me For i have sinned I told my daddy to wait Im gonna make it But when? I cross my heart and i hope to die This life i live Its all a lie Look at my face A happy smile right? or Look in my eyes Dont be scared This is wheremy demons lie Foegive me For i have i have sinned I haven't been myself I pray for help I want you to trade me shoes See if you could walk a mile Without wanting to die I try not to cry Father god this life i live Im sorry i lied I'm on my knees Please forgive me I ask for the thousandth time Did you hear me?

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Jan 14, 2019

Jan 14, 2019 at 7:40 PM UTC

Forgive me

Forgive me For i have sinned I told my daddy to wait Im gonna make it But when? I cross my heart and i hope to die This life i live Its all a lie Look at my face A happy smile right? or Look in my eyes Dont be scared This is wheremy demons lie Foegive me For i have i have sinned I haven't been myself I pray for help I want you to trade me shoes See if you could walk a mile Without wanting to die I try not to cry Father god this life i live Im sorry i lied I'm on my knees Please forgive me I ask for the thousandth time Did you hear me?

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No means no It does not mean convince me No I do not want to get in the passenger seat As a child Throughout my teens Harassment is engraved deep into my memories Nap time A touch over my jeans The teacher did not mind We were just kids, right? No became a new word with a new meaning Flashbacks to heavy breathing Your sweat dripping onto me Singing my skin At the age of six When most kids are playing games and learning cool tricks You harassed me with Words i could not repeat No means no! Stupid boy get this through your head Give it a rest Silly girl, you're playing games And this is chess Make a move, what’s new I’m always next I think now, you must have been obsessed No means no but in your head it meant *** No, please don’t leave us alone I knew where this would go Flashback to the sound of doors being locked Give up Your pants are already off No does not mean convince me But it didn’t prevent you from stealing my virginity Engraved into my brain A cookie wrapper Just to be safe I screamed no but Silently It was ****

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Jan 14, 2019

Jan 14, 2019 at 7:37 PM UTC

No means no

No means no It does not mean convince me No I do not want to get in the passenger seat As a child Throughout my teens Harassment is engraved deep into my memories Nap time A touch over my jeans The teacher did not mind We were just kids, right? No became a new word with a new meaning Flashbacks to heavy breathing Your sweat dripping onto me Singing my skin At the age of six When most kids are playing games and learning cool tricks You harassed me with Words i could not repeat No means no! Stupid boy get this through your head Give it a rest Silly girl, you're playing games And this is chess Make a move, what’s new I’m always next I think now, you must have been obsessed No means no but in your head it meant *** No, please don’t leave us alone I knew where this would go Flashback to the sound of doors being locked Give up Your pants are already off No does not mean convince me But it didn’t prevent you from stealing my virginity Engraved into my brain A cookie wrapper Just to be safe I screamed no but Silently It was ****

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You got it from your father I know you did The way you treat women As if we are just objects You are a hunter I am the pray You got it from your father He made you believe it was okay To keep hunting until you got your **** I know it’s hard but swallow this pill As a human you are a disgrace To touch me in each and every place When I was younger You felt nothing but hunger A hunter hunts You got it from your father Who let you believe Women are just like a piece of meat You took my purity You haunt my sleep I hope as your son grows old Your father will not stay in memories

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Jan 14, 2019

Jan 14, 2019 at 7:33 PM UTC

Father

You got it from your father I know you did The way you treat women As if we are just objects You are a hunter I am the pray You got it from your father He made you believe it was okay To keep hunting until you got your **** I know it’s hard but swallow this pill As a human you are a disgrace To touch me in each and every place When I was younger You felt nothing but hunger A hunter hunts You got it from your father Who let you believe Women are just like a piece of meat You took my purity You haunt my sleep I hope as your son grows old Your father will not stay in memories

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