Alas dose
Nagsisimula ang mga hirit sa pagsibol ng liwanag ng nagiisang buwan
Dalawang anino ng mga pusong pinagkaitan ng panahon at pagkakataon
Mga diwang hirap makatulog sa kabila ng pilit ng dalawang pares ng mata para pumikit
Ala una
Nagising sa biglaang pagtawag
Sa kabilang linya, ang boses ng nagiisang tangi
Mga matang pilit na dumidilat ngunit singkit pa din
Alas dos
Nagsisimula pa lang ang gabi
Mga palitan ng salita at biro
Oras na para matulog para sa isa, may pasok pa kinaumagahan
Alas tres
Ang oras ng kadiliman
Na nagsilbing liwanag para sa dalawa
Mga tawa nilang mas lumalakas
At damdaming mas lalong lumalala
Sa kabila ng lahat, hindi man tama
Pagsapit ng alas kwatro
Natulog siyang may ngiti
At panalangin
Na sana’y ganito sila palagi
Ng kanyang natatangi
Jun 10, 2021
Jun 10, 2021 at 3:44 PM UTC
in that moment
i don’t seem to mind
i can’t seem to breathe
but my lungs were on fire
As you took me by surprise
Our dreams seem to fade behind
through highways we’ve Passed
with the cold breeze on a saturday night
this memory feels vivid, it’s hard to see
that i’m falling and don’t even see it
you’re enjoying, the chase we’ve created
a secret bubble built in hotel rooms
now, i have been able to breathe
when fire left my lungs
more than a year since
-for the ghost of my february Love
Mar 21, 2021
Mar 21, 2021 at 6:06 PM UTC
call me
Whenever it’s lonely
Whenever the silence
Feels so loud that it’s deafening
Hide me
Just until i feel safety
Just until every morning
Feels less like i’m drowning
—this will never reach you
Mar 21, 2021
Mar 21, 2021 at 4:45 PM UTC
I didn't choose you at twelve
I was broken but pretended you made me whole
In a way you did, yes
But it was not enouugh, my fears got the best of me
not knowing it was you it took
I didn't choose you at thirteen
I was self centered
I had made myself believe I deserved someone more spontaneous, unboring to make me feel alive
But I didn't know it was constant I needed to make me feel safe
I didn't choose you at fourteen
I wanted someone new, I was busy with friends
I said you would only keep me down
But you were the one who's always kept me on my feet
I didn't choose you at fifteen
I was scared
You had enough of me now,
But you still made me feel important
You kept your distance when we were sixteen
You liked someone else
Suddenly the world was yours
And nothing was mine
At twenty one we saw each other
for the very first time
I witnessed someone I loved for 10 years walk away
And I still didn't choose you
But I knew now,
At twelve I loved you because you were my friend who drove away my fears
At thirteen I loved you because you made me feel the center of your universe
At fourteen I loved you because you were the constant thing keeping me alive
At fifteen I loved you because you respected me enough to stop pursuing me
At sixteen I loved you because you were still my friend even after all
At twenty one I loved you, I love you still, I love you always
But I didn't choose you now
Because now
you're not choosing me
(M.E.G)
May 9, 2018
May 9, 2018 at 9:29 AM UTC
I fell in love with the way he keeps himself
so full, so sure, so arrogantly handsome yet so humbly beautiful
I fell inlove with him for all the times he stayed
through all the beating, through all the cheating,
through all the bad and good
I fell in love with his words
the way they roll out of his mouth through the clever words he speak and into my soul, he envelops me with every decibel he forms
I fell inlove with him, because he is true, because he is him
I fell in love with the way he looks at things that astound him,
the way the crease forms between his bushy brows,
you know he's thinking, you know he's about to say something
you know when he looks at you, so straight into your eyes you would think he has feelings for you,
so deep into me that the brilliant comeback I've thought of all of last night has crumbled and vanished only to be replaced by you
so then you caught me, words, out of breath, out of mind
you asked me, "what do you think?"
I thought, of how unpretentiously gorgeous you look
of the tax computation that made you question yourself, if u were in the right course
i thought of why you were so inlove with her,
I think of why I love him
but I think I'm in love with you
So I said, " I don't know"
eg
Jul 27, 2017
Jul 27, 2017 at 7:47 AM UTC
And when he asked me if I was okay,
For the first time
I actually don't know how to answer
I didn't want to lie
I guess
I haven't been for a while
Maybe that was why he was here
To remind me that I have to be
Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 2:20 PM UTC
I feel no sincerity in your words
No decency in your eyes
No promise in your lips
No emotions with your touch
Yet when you tell me you love me
I believe you
Everytime you look at me
I melt
Every kiss we had
Made me want more
With every touch you make
I burn
May 11, 2015
May 11, 2015 at 1:50 AM UTC
At one point i thought
You could be the one
That would make me close my eyes
When i kiss
At one point i thought
That what we had
Or what we might be
Is real
But when you kissed my tonight
I kissed your lips
Tasted your tongue
But not your soul
My eyes were open
I couldn't keep them close
Just like with all the boys
I kissed before
Apr 16, 2015
Apr 16, 2015 at 1:49 PM UTC
Efforts mean nothing without thoughts
You don't just do something for nothing
You do something because your soul told you to
Or because you would have not been able to sleep without doing it
And you don't do that
I know because i cannot feel anything
And this is not me being an insensitive person
It's about lighting something and realizing that your lighter has no fuel
You can't light up a candle
Now you need to think
Of
A
Way
To light up that candle or just leave it be.
Or continue what you're doing now:
Keep trying the lighter as if it would miraculously spit fire
Just to look like you're making an effort
Can't you see?
There is no thought in it
No sense
No feelings
Merely doing something for nothing
Just stop
(E.G)
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 3:22 AM UTC
Boy, you must know i am hardly astounded by faces as i am with minds
And you have only ever heard the things i wanted you to hear
You have never even touched the surface of my soul
I know this because if you have
You wouldn't have survived without
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 1:19 AM UTC