Look closer
Even closer than you are noww
Do you see the cracks?
Do you see the inherent sadness in my sweetness through them?
Do you see me being put together or do you see me crumbling?
Dec 8, 2021
Dec 8, 2021 at 7:49 PM UTC
Let me cry an ice cream tub full of tears
Let me know what is it like to feel your pain
Let me feel your absence from my arms as we walk
Hurt me
Let me miss you calling me weird insults, lovingly
Let me miss your voice suddenly going high as you say something sweet
Let me feel the wave of missing you upon catching your scent
Hurt me
Let me miss the wave of small breaths you take when you laugh
Let me miss your akwardness when someone compliments you
Hurt me
Let me miss your spontaneous energetic dancing
Let me miss your breath on my face as we get close
Hurt me
Let me miss your taste after freshly applying lip balm
Let me miss the feeling of your fingers running through my hair as I lay on your lap
Hurt me
Let me miss the smile I get upon seeing your name on my phone
Hurt me
Let me miss our moments interspersed
Hurt me
Let me know the feeling of being
alone again
Hurt me
Hurt me
Hurt
Nov 12, 2021
Nov 12, 2021 at 7:18 PM UTC
Standing on the balcony, that seems like it was made for you and me
A litte bit drunk, a litte tipsy
None of us knew how magical it would be
Underneath the umbrella that's too small for the both of us
Getting soaked in the rain
A little bit of a fun, a little bit of pain
This girl is driving me insane
Without talking to her, the day seems incomplete
A little bit of **** a little bit of sweet
This girl makes my heart skip a beat
She is immensely special, if only she could see
A little bit of distance, A little intimacy
These are the moments between me and she
Nov 10, 2021
Nov 10, 2021 at 6:21 PM UTC
The
I want to love
I want to love
Became
I want to live
I want to live
To
I want to leave
I want to leave
Jul 6, 2021
Jul 6, 2021 at 9:53 AM UTC
How do the stars feel?
Seemingly close together
Beautiful and bright
Everyone admiring them
Do they feel like me?
A closer look and you'll realise they are lonely
On fire
No one to listen to their pain
Surrounded by darkness
Lost in the middle of nowhere
Moments away from dying
Just almost all burnt out
So I ask you again,
Do they feel like me?
Jul 6, 2021
Jul 6, 2021 at 12:44 AM UTC
If you could look into my mind you would see thoughts of you all day long as if my spine is a never ending film reel of you.
If you could look into my heart you would see that you are the only one who resides in it. It's your fortress.
And if you could hear my heart beat a bit better you would not hear dub-lub but dub-love because love is all I have for you.
But you have always looked straight through me, haven't you?
And it was always me the one who was listening to you, wasn't it?
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 12:15 PM UTC
I am famished but don't feel like
eating.
I am exhausted but I can't
sleep.
I am alive but don't feel like
living.
I want to cry but the tears never seem
flow.
I want to move on but my legs are
glued together.
I want to say so much but my lips are
sewn shut.
I don't want to look at her anymore, but my eyes are
wide open.
I feel like writing but my hands only come up with
mediocre.
I feel like dying but don't have the
courage.
I feel like reaching out for
help.
Can anyone just
Fix me?
Jul 30, 2020
Jul 30, 2020 at 9:21 AM UTC
Dear Time,
Did my last letter reach you a bit late?
The letter in which I asked you to stand still because I thought it couldn't get better than this
Well, a lot has changed since then
Now it feels like you are still when I want you to skip right to the end.
Jump to the end of my time, would you?
I feel dead inside, wouldn't it feel better if I felt the same way outside too?
It's okay if this letter takes a while to reach you
Things don't seem like they are going to improve any time soon.
Thank you if I don't get a chance to write to you again.
Yours truly,
The wallflower guy.
Jul 29, 2020
Jul 29, 2020 at 3:06 PM UTC
Saying everything on my mind like you want me to
Will make me lose you forever
And I can't survive that
So I keep it in
Where it will make me lose myself
And I can live with that
Can't I?
Jul 11, 2020
Jul 11, 2020 at 11:55 PM UTC
Legs feel weaker
Eyes want to stay shut
It's like my body doesn't want to move anymore
Stop seeing anything but darkness
All my hurt and pain visibly coming out of me
One puke and tear drop at a time
My heart beats faster and faster as if wanting to complete all the beats it has remaining in this instant
I imagine this is what a robot experiencing a malfunction feels like
But then again, a robot can't feel anything
What I would give to be able to not feel anything right now
Or just be able to swtich off with the hit of a button
Jul 11, 2020
Jul 11, 2020 at 8:50 AM UTC