
It's winter again
Has it always been?
I can see it all year round
But only from a distance
I can hold it
shake it
sniff it
lick it
Dip it in formaldehyde
Though no matter how I abuse it, I can never reach what's left inside
It's raining again?
Though it'll never end.
I still want to hold them to love them to crush them to consume them.
From a distance it's safe, I suppose.
I can look all I want,
There's more to the surface you know.
Sometimes when you dig in, it's just pancake batter.
And I prefer waffles.
Dec 22, 2025
Dec 22, 2025 at 1:35 AM UTC
Sorry if this is how it ends.
I wish I was a better friend,
more deserving of ya'lls love.
I'm sorry it ended here,
but I'm glad that it's over.
Maybe Blake was right... I may have had too much.
One more bottle to go.
Dec 20, 2025
Dec 20, 2025 at 12:19 PM UTC
Oh I drank quite a lot tonight
I've drunk more than ever before
Now it's got me feeling just right
I can s3nse it deep in my core
Cheery and happier, you know
So excited, I Don my crown
My sins so deep you'll have to tow
If I'm lucky, I might just drown
Dec 20, 2025
Dec 20, 2025 at 4:36 AM UTC
I thought they'd take their time, but they went ahead
I just can't help but think it's unfair
still in their work clothes, they slid to bed
In due time, I'll join you down there!
I've tried it once or twice, doncha know?
I wish to live in the muck and the mud
this filth's no different from how it usually goes
These folks won't, let me swim with my bud
I can't tell loved ones about this joy
They worry and cry, no fun on the sewer slide
The incessant love and guilt delays my ploy
But I can't help thinking when I'll catch this ride?
It's obvious I've never caught the bus
That doesn't mean I haven't tried!
Working under the hood you'll hear me fuss
Hear me whine about when I've nearly died!
But it's fine.
It's okay.
Don't worry, it's just a poem.
the slides a while away, so we can enjoy this
until we take the dive.
Nov 18, 2025
Nov 18, 2025 at 6:51 PM UTC
The wound has healed
At least a little
But one more peek?
It's fresh again.
A mistake, a poor character
Self reminder
Undeserving
Cut it off, let it go
But I can't
I have to know
If I rend it from the flesh, will you love me so?
Another reminder another scar
Self-inflected and well earned
A piece of **** thinks he's a star
Don't forget and don't move on
Growth can wait
Wallow while you can
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 3:47 PM UTC
Present but not always seen
Thoughtful and present; a dream.
Tenderness packed with violence
Ask me why? It makes no sense.
Can't explain why yet I desire
A trap I've fallen for again
If I have your words, I can't tire
I wouldn't fold, I'd go all in.
Her eyes like a does
An idiot, I suppose
Feb 1, 2025
Feb 1, 2025 at 5:56 PM UTC
Every day I wake up and I ask why.
For what reason
For what purpose
For what cruel punishment was I chosen?
It's empty here.
Silence is abundant and joy is ever-waning.
But it's better I do this
Or so I told myself
Keep this reality from those I love.
Let them enjoy while I cannot
Things are better if I know they're ok.
but I deserve love too
Oct 30, 2024
Oct 30, 2024 at 6:00 AM UTC
The road is long and the load is heavy
But when I traveled with you it didn't matter.
I didn't think about the heat or the pain.
It wasn't any easier but it became almost fun
Like a game we'd play, the point didn't matter.
Now by myself I can't see a point.
It's long and painful and the joy is gone.
And as I keep walking, it never gets better.
Sep 28, 2024
Sep 28, 2024 at 12:42 AM UTC
Can you connect?
I can't.
These scribbles?
A mess.
Senseless scratches
On paper.
Sep 5, 2024
Sep 5, 2024 at 1:45 PM UTC
A misty morning; skies clearing
I see the rainbow; endearing
I follow its glow; *** of gold
Adventure and fun; I've been sold
When I close in; I look around
I see once more; stories abound!
Apr 23, 2023
Apr 23, 2023 at 1:14 AM UTC