your presence feels like a dream
that I wake from whenever you leave
but It's completely serene
when you're here with me
you brought back my sanity
showed my soul serenity
you're benevolent
in dealing with humanity
I'm heaven scent
but hell bound
it's quite a calamity
how my thoughts can be
so self damaging
and it can get tough sometimes to keep on managing
but when you're next to me
it's easy battling
and when I hear you sing
the peace it brings
is baffling
like geez
can this really be happening?
so relieved
to no longer have thoughts
harassing me
at last I'm free
at least while you're here
but best believe
that just because the storm has cleared
it doesn't mean
another won't appear
worse than you've seen
so soak up all the cheer
you possibly can
and remember what it's like
so you understand
why it is you fight
**** is it nice
when you make me forget
that I'm not alright
the perfect vice
escaping stress
by distracting my mind
to suffice
and survive
and live life
you're my little piece
of serenity
giving me relief
when in your vicinity
whenever you're near
I feel so content
but just as I feared
with you my smile went
Nov 17, 2025
Nov 17, 2025 at 3:21 PM UTC
I know you been trippin
isolation got you paranoid
altering your vision
got you p!ssed and
now you're blind to joy
hurt led to you sippin
on the liquor
tryna fill the void
but didn't
when you listen
silence makes a noise
audible breath
I can't help but be annoyed
the reason you can't see the point
is due to lack of confidence
all taken by your inner voice
internal sound you can't avoid
convincing you your only choice
is talking 💩 to mirrors
untill loathing for yourself deploys
and any poise
you built through the years is gone
introducing clouds of doubt
at will till all your fears are strong
and escalate in magnitude
which makes more hateful attitude
missed connections leaving you
confused and if the truth alludes
blanks and unknown answers
tend to get filled in with biased views
messing up your mood
with perception askew
and you dont even have a clue
what really is
lost grip on reality
your teeth grit
and stressin
starts to become a formality
you start to forget
about how it grows very rapidly
weight increases
and it almost feels as if the gravity
just increased nearly ten fold
seems you got your zen stole
consumed by a black hole
forming in your lost soul
burning like some hot coal
jolting like a pothole
makes it tough to not go
a little bit crazy
can't give up I fought those
demons thought I got close
but it seems that shots dont
hit with vision hazy
but a shot in the dark
can still create a spark
for a moment which opens
glimpses of where to start
searching for your mark
you gotta stay sharp
like teeth of a shark
so it's a walk in the park
the journey is a part
of this life you must love
destination counts but the amount is not above
lovin how you get there
how you've grown and woven
until threadbare
sometimes it wont seem fair
but when the good's deemed rare
its held in higher standard
than if everything pandered
to every desire
and if nothing
was ever tampered
with
unless you've felt like 💩
you might not appreciate
the way happiness hits
unless you've truly felt
at some point overwhelmed
by the
cards you been dealt
prolly couldn't even tell
how special it is
when everything is goin well
don't let greed ****** you
and trap you under its spell
detatch from expectations
for less disappointment
widen your horizon of appreciation
and join them when
things go right
for others not just you
don't compete or start pickin fights
just simply go and do
whatever makes you happy
what truly makes you happy?
you should do that
that's nothing but facts
just smile give em that
and love where you are at
life f**ks us all
I've been taught though as well
it's still possible to unfuck yourself
it just takes time, patience,
and sometimes help
dont have to go through it all by yourself....
But I'm still all by myself
Oh well...
yeah yeah
Oh well...
Oct 21, 2025
Oct 21, 2025 at 10:26 AM UTC
they love to lie to the people
they keep em mentally feeble
no one is safe from the evil
no one is safe from the evil
they brought back hate like a sequel
gets under the skin like a needle
shelter those lost with a steeple
lost hope is a tough retrieval
good luck
don't get stuck
just know they construct
lots of traps
they just laugh
might not make it back
I fell
myself
into
quite a few
trying to
keep on pushing through
sitting on the porch
puffin on a cigarette
smoked a lot of those ****
Still not feelin better yet
another nail in the coffin
tried to quit but failed
feel that need too often
so I'm smokin on the greenery
take a look around
I'm just soakin up the scenery
you'd think ya boy had leprosy
the way nobodys feelin me
whenever I get in my zone
I might indulge and **** some beats
might wake up a beast
you probaby don't want around
I'll use my alone time
to explore some diffrent sounds
turn the bass up super loud
beat bumps vibrations spill out
a small piece of bliss is found
cause I cant those hear voices now
they have gone away
that's not how it stays
my mind tends to stray
can be a dark place
just a little taste
craving then takes place
hunger turns to lust
when it's not your plate
redirecting energy
give me all of your hate
not like you're close anyway
no friendship at steak
let's see how much I can take
let's see what happens
whenever I finally break
let's see the look on your face
when it sinks in its too late
evil cannot be escaped
cynicism escalates
hope grows thin of seeing change
just end me
im sick of this place
once friendly
got jaded and that went away
real sick of pretending
everything's ok
you can run and hide but
no one escapes
from the evil
cant escape evil but you can combat it
to fight evil with evil would end tragic
sadly looks like it's now habit
it got real bad quick
I've just about had it
it's making me sick
they love to lie to the people
they keep em mentally feeble
no one is safe from the evil
no one is safe from the evil
they brought back hate like a sequel
gets under the skin like a needle
shelter those lost with a steeple
lost hope is a tough retrieval
the good gotta fight back
by showing the lost the right path
no matter the cost and we might last
I turn and I toss at night hoping for that
hope this feeling will soon pass
But know only action will pave paths
Oct 21, 2025
Oct 21, 2025 at 10:17 AM UTC
watching all the people pass
by as I feel sonder cause
they all have lives as complex
as mine and I wonder does
it interconnect are we
intertwined down under our
mortal intellect
beyond the substance humans hunger
for
I've really grown to hate
money
competing for pay
cause you're hungry
something in the way
that it operates
ensures it won't be changed
yeah
barricades remain
reinforced by chains
Oct 21, 2025
Oct 21, 2025 at 10:05 AM UTC
can't give all my energy
to my enemies
I gotta use it all up
to manifest my dreams
they check my energy
I'm not the enemy
but they don't wanna show me love
or be a friend of me
can't give all my energy
to my enemies
I gotta use it all up
to manifest my dreams
they check my energy
I'm not the enemy
but they don't wanna show me love
or be a friend of me
my thoughts really be sendin me
way off the deep end
manic through the week
then get depressed come the weekend
I mean good grief
you said you like rollercoasters
why you screamin?
like someone pulled a molar
out your mouth
while you were sleepin
or super soakers sprayed you
when it's freezin
this is what I'm used to
why you freakin
out so much
it's such a rush
but I can see you've had enough
please don't erupt
just leave I'm stuck
and wish me luck
I'm in control
I'm in control
Of my mind
And my body
And my soul
I'm in control
I'm in control
These might be lines
You should copy
So you know
We're in control
We're in control
And there's no way
That we'll ever let that go
I have control
You have control
Please don't forget it cause
I'm needing you to know
took a break
now I'm right back at it
now I'm right back at it
now I'm right back at it
tried to escape
but I'm right back at it
now I'm right back at it
always right back at it
I'm right back at it
I'm right back at it
the key to consistency
is making it a habit
so I'm right back at it
and I gotta keep at it
if I'm ever gonna manifest
the dreams out of my attic
so you know what we can't do
can't give all my energy
to my enemies
I gotta use it all up
to manifest my dreams
they check my energy
I'm not the enemy
but they don't wanna show me love
or be a friend of me
can't give all my energy
to my enemies
I gotta use it all up
to manifest my dreams
they check my energy
I'm not the enemy
but they don't wanna show me love
or be a friend of me
oh well...
Oct 21, 2025
Oct 21, 2025 at 9:58 AM UTC
Time is not real
it's a construct of man
forget how you feel
blindly follow their plan
they came up with time
to feel in control
little did we know
it'd swallow us whole
the time is now
we are all slaves
as we all bow
will we ever be saved?
we follow all these
time based routines
as if we were sheep
I think it's time for change
but the clock says
"it's time for sleep"
is this really my fate?
time is now creeping
like a turtle
these burdens
have some weight
struggling just to
clear this hurdle
too much on my plate
it's like Geodude vs. a Squirtle
frustration turns to hate
my blood boils
then it starts to curdle
manic in a panic
and my speech
it starts to speed up
I'll sink like the titanic
wanna speak
but keep my mouth shut
they think I'm satanic?
oh how sweet
let's roll this uncut
time is not organic
take a seat
you will be dumbstruck
why does it seem
like nobody really gives a f**k
I just don't know
I just don't know
but it seems it's become the norm
it seems time was meant
to take the world by storm
but why would we create
something imaginary
if it's finite?
would someone please
explain it to me
I just do not get it
forever is something
that we can't comprehend
especially when we don't have
much time to spend
but time isn't real
but neither is money
but it's funny
cause these two things
keep the world running
does existence end?
or just infinitely loop?
keep climbing up these ladders
but keep falling down these
"shoot"s
I need a friend
when I feel like ****
but it doesn't matter
cause nobody has a clue
so what the 🔥 am I supposed to do?
cause I ain't got a thing to prove
but let me prove
that I'm not wasting your time
but that's kinda tough
with an ill mind
I'm not Hopsin
but still gonna get mine
don't worry everything will be fine
even though the quicksand
I'm sinking in is up to my a**
I realize now that
I am trapped in an hourglass
I'll sink a little deeper
with every second that pass
like truly how am I supposed to last?
try to learn from it
but don't get stuck in the past
when comprehension
exceeds dialect
then what you mention
cannot manifest
the true value of the thought
behind the words
but I'm sure
that when I speak this
some will find bliss
some will swerve
like it's ubsurd
I still get lost in the thought of words
like how it works
blissfully baffled so I just smirk
the sound made from vibrations
cleverly sequenced
and understood by nations
some used for love
some used for hating
thoughts racing
just tryna find my proper placement
studio down in my room
of my parents basement
from where I wanna be
it feels like I'm adjacent
and I don't know
how much time
I got left
which one of these
is gonna be
my last breath?
I don't know
how much time I got left
which one of these
is gonna be
my last
breath
Oct 21, 2025
Oct 21, 2025 at 9:53 AM UTC
A happy mask
often brandished by those
most sad
Attempting to prevent
anyone else
feeling as bad
As they have
And often try to help
And make it better
Their kind eyes and smile
hides them feeling
under the weather
Just because
it's worn well
doesn't mean
that it's not heavy
most are scared to die
they crave escape
and have been ready
to eject from their meat suit
Been mistreated and misused,
And would rather
dangle from a noose
than to bring
the burden of conflict
to you
They know enough
to know that
within ignorance is bliss
so most get kept in the dark
and blind
they've even
been feeling like 💩
If those you care about
are still alive
Then you
should tell them.
Like that SkyZoo song says,
"Give em their flowers
while they can smell em"
Oct 21, 2025
Oct 21, 2025 at 9:43 AM UTC