TheRealAlfa - Hello Poetry

what's wrong with me? is it my sun kissed skin that you don't want to associate your soft pale touch with? is it my hearty laugh that you're scared will turn heads? booming inside me like my ancestors screamed. is it my past that haunts you, is the ghost creeping besides you? do you see my dark side, and reject me too? is it my crooked smile, that makes you think im still a child? i could never have the time or money to fixed my abnormal smile. is it cause im three times your size? you want someone who cares if they live or die? someone who isn't in survival mode? someone who wants to be 90 years old? did you hear how disgusting i am? how i pick my nose in the shower? how i dont shave cause of feminist power? how i say **** too many times? or that i move every couple of years? am i too inconsistent cause i change the color of my hair? is it because i dont love myself, that you cant love me? am i a project that you dont want to complete? am i a puzzle that you dont want to piece together? is that it? is there more? am i too hot tongued? too foreign? too much? why am i never enough? ill compare me to the girl you picked, always wondering, why am I never it?

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Mar 28, 2020

Mar 28, 2020 at 5:32 AM UTC

we almost loved each other

what's wrong with me? is it my sun kissed skin that you don't want to associate your soft pale touch with? is it my hearty laugh that you're scared will turn heads? booming inside me like my ancestors screamed. is it my past that haunts you, is the ghost creeping besides you? do you see my dark side, and reject me too? is it my crooked smile, that makes you think im still a child? i could never have the time or money to fixed my abnormal smile. is it cause im three times your size? you want someone who cares if they live or die? someone who isn't in survival mode? someone who wants to be 90 years old? did you hear how disgusting i am? how i pick my nose in the shower? how i dont shave cause of feminist power? how i say **** too many times? or that i move every couple of years? am i too inconsistent cause i change the color of my hair? is it because i dont love myself, that you cant love me? am i a project that you dont want to complete? am i a puzzle that you dont want to piece together? is that it? is there more? am i too hot tongued? too foreign? too much? why am i never enough? ill compare me to the girl you picked, always wondering, why am I never it?

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I wish I was the light to your firework, I wish I was the first snow in your winter, I wish I was your paid time off, I wish I was the warmth in your sweater. I wish I was the A on your paper, I wish I was your cats making bread, I wish I was your first sip of coffee, I wish I could see your face again.

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Dec 17, 2019

Dec 17, 2019 at 5:27 PM UTC

Maple Leaves 3

I wish I was the light to your firework, I wish I was the first snow in your winter, I wish I was your paid time off, I wish I was the warmth in your sweater. I wish I was the A on your paper, I wish I was your cats making bread, I wish I was your first sip of coffee, I wish I could see your face again.

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I fantasize about touching my thighs to your lips when you whisper sing in my ear- softly letting your hand dance on my back while we lay in your bed listening to 2009 rock.

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Aug 28, 2019

Aug 28, 2019 at 12:48 AM UTC

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I fantasize about touching my thighs to your lips when you whisper sing in my ear- softly letting your hand dance on my back while we lay in your bed listening to 2009 rock.

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I feel more alive when I'm with you- speak to me through your sweet tongue- of memories past where we thought of making love.

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Aug 22, 2019

Aug 22, 2019 at 12:51 AM UTC

Maple Leaves 2

I feel more alive when I'm with you- speak to me through your sweet tongue- of memories past where we thought of making love.

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you're moving away and i didn't get to say i still wonder what you wanted to tell me when your eyes begged me to stay after a long night where i felt i was home tell me before you leave how much you love me and i'll-

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Aug 21, 2019

Aug 21, 2019 at 12:26 AM UTC

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you're moving away and i didn't get to say i still wonder what you wanted to tell me when your eyes begged me to stay after a long night where i felt i was home tell me before you leave how much you love me and i'll-

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two simple words that made me cry.

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Aug 7, 2019

Aug 7, 2019 at 4:46 PM UTC

| appreciate you.

two simple words that made me cry.

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i cant make the right decisions with the demons whispering in my ear i cant choose a or b cause id destroy myself if i mute the world from screaming, i can't hear myself if i clean my thoughts with clorox i cant sort it out, so let me know the right answers so i can figure it all out

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Jul 20, 2019

Jul 20, 2019 at 9:44 PM UTC

help me

i cant make the right decisions with the demons whispering in my ear i cant choose a or b cause id destroy myself if i mute the world from screaming, i can't hear myself if i clean my thoughts with clorox i cant sort it out, so let me know the right answers so i can figure it all out

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im t i r e d of being STRONG please catch me when i f a l l .

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Jul 10, 2019

Jul 10, 2019 at 12:38 AM UTC

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im t i r e d of being STRONG please catch me when i f a l l .

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i love you- i wish we had a future together. im just selfish.

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Jul 9, 2019

Jul 9, 2019 at 12:41 AM UTC

please love me forever...

i love you- i wish we had a future together. im just selfish.

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fly me across the world so i can lay in your arms- to find out you're in love with someone else, hear my heart shatter in a glass of cold chardonnay, see it harden while it heals my pain, and feel our former flame burning away in the maple leaves.

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Jul 4, 2019

Jul 4, 2019 at 3:34 PM UTC

maple leaves

fly me across the world so i can lay in your arms- to find out you're in love with someone else, hear my heart shatter in a glass of cold chardonnay, see it harden while it heals my pain, and feel our former flame burning away in the maple leaves.

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