There's a foe inside my mind
And I've fallen to his blade before
He is sneaky and relentless
And it may haunt me forevermore
There's an evil lurking in me
And his voice is soft as naivety
There's no rush for him, you see
And it waits for its chance patiently
There's unspoken harm within my soul
But I fought it once upon a time
To defeat it has become my goal
And I'll defy it, even on a rhyme
And through each act of defiance
Its grasp on me has grown much weaker
And with my companions, my reliance
My future doesn't seem any bleaker
And each day it will shrink more
So I will fight it, tooth and nail
And until this foe is done for,
I'll stand against it, without fail
I shall prevail
Oct 22, 2025
Oct 22, 2025 at 7:03 AM UTC
I'm not good at being a human
Though to be fair, no one ever taught me how
I had to pick up the pieces and hints that were dropped
Whenever I ******* up
Or wasn't successful enough
When I laughed instead of crying
Or made a joke that didn't land
When I couldn't articulate my truth
Or said something in the wrong tone
When I stayed quiet for too long
Or said something they didn't want to hear
When I did... Anything really
Especially when I did nothing at all
But at least I make good effort
Though it's never gonna be enough
Because I know deep down I'll never be enough
I was born to be a critter
I was shaped to be a man
I am forced to be a human
I don't know what I am at this point
But I **** at being a human
Though I shall find a way
To find myself, what I am
Somehow
Oct 16, 2025
Oct 16, 2025 at 6:10 PM UTC
Sometimes I dream of it
Of the realm of nonexistence
That place that lies beyond time and space
Where thoughts never spoken rest calmly
Where praises never heard of, echo angrily
And in the void where everything and nothing meets:
There too must I float
Just for a little while
Just ‘til the mind finds its place once more
Until the pressing feeling inside goes away
Then the darkness would be bearable
When the universe will make itself known
A second chance shall extend its hand
And all would be forgiven
But this cannot be the case
Not yet at least
Though most days feel grim,
And the future looks only but gray
Still, I must exist
For a while longer, at the very least
One day shall be my day
One day, I’ll find a way
One day
One day
Apr 24, 2025
Apr 24, 2025 at 2:23 PM UTC
She has not come home
It is cold outside right now
Please come back Nora
Jun 4, 2024
Jun 4, 2024 at 2:12 AM UTC
I was given a gift by my parents
A present I did not understand for a long time
It was a doll, so to say,
a puppet in the shape of a person
Not anyone I knew at the time,
but someone I would come to love
And that gift was called "life."
And I did not see myself in that gift
To be honest sometimes I still don't
I kept it, sure, but not pristine
I let it break, rip and tear
As I dragged it along with me.
Sometimes I looked in its eyes
And saw the darkness deep down
The problems that perhaps would never go away
And I got scared of it
Swore it wasn't my gift
That it wasn't my fault
And perhaps it wasn't indeed
Yet my responsibility it still remained
And continued to drag it, I still did.
But even with the mold and rust within
A speck of light would always shine through
Not always, and not even perfectly
Yet it was stubborn and unyielding
Almost as if on purpose, to be noticed
And notice it, I did.
So I try to sew its wounds shut
Needle, thread, stuffing and love
Some are tougher to mend, for sure
And there are some that appear incomprehensible
I don't even know where to start looking
Sometimes I even question if it is worth this effort
But I was given the most important gift
And I'll continue to patch it up, for as long as I can
You will only receive a gift like this once
And I will never give up on it
Apr 8, 2024
Apr 8, 2024 at 8:32 PM UTC
What cruel joke by the universe
To allow me to exist:
A broken ****** and a family nurse
Is what began the disappointment list.
And fate tried to correct its mistake
giving this child a horrible infection.
Yet by miracle, and with every birthday cake,
this undue life would continue to go on.
Following close to me is the misfortune
common accidents, broken hearts, and more.
No matter the prayers done to the full moon,
bit by bit these small things, my heart tore.
The voices in my head try to coerce me
To make me finish what life has started
A simple cut and I would be free
Of all the doubts my heart comparted.
And how come every decision feels like the wrong one
Even when it is completely out of your hands
Now happiness and excitement, inside me there is none
As fate will never acknowledge my plans
When I get close to achieving my goals
the heart will panic, it must all be a lie.
And deep inside this voice, sure it grows
"You will never do anything good with your life"
And this sabotage works
And my screams are heard by no one
My cries are dry when needed
My smile can no longer hide the sadness
My mind feels like a prison
And her arms feel like a shelter
Yet I know I can't abuse it
Because I know how much it hurts her
To see me suffering like this
She deserves the best the world can offer
Yet all she got, was good old me.
So I'll continue on my borrowed time
See how far I can still push it
Will I still be a burden to all, or will I rise when I fall?
I don't know.
But I sure wish to see it.
Aug 7, 2023
Aug 7, 2023 at 12:09 PM UTC
Words can cause happiness unlike any other
Words can cause distraught of the worst kind
Words can comfort those we hold dear
Words can anguish those we hate
Words can express our deepest convictions
Words can express our darkest opinions
Words can help those who listen
Words can hurt all who listen
Words can be easy to blurt out
Words can never be fully taken back
Words can make someone smile
Words can force one into exile
Words can save a person's life
Words can hang a person's throat
Words can affect one more than we imagine
Words can affect one more than we imagine
Words can speak truths
Words can tell lies
Words can help you relax
Words can give you panic attacks
Words can convey love and care
Words can leave you filled with guilt and dread
It doesn't matter what and how you said it
Those words have now injured me so
And a fool that I was, to think you could understand
That I cannot find the words to describe the pain I've felt
That I cannot find the words that mention what my mind feels like
That I cannot find the words to fight back your yells
That I cannot find the words that explain why I act this way
That I cannot find the words that say how you hurt me
That I cannot find the words that you used to compliment me
Although this last one might be, because they never were there to begin with
Alas, no words come out when I need them the most
But I don't care anymore
As I know no matter what words I might say
You will only see the words that you want to see
Even if they came from you, and not me
That's how it will always be
An apple doesn't fall far from the tree
Aug 12, 2021
Aug 12, 2021 at 9:34 PM UTC
The sun shined to all that day
Gardens flowered
Kids ran
People were born
People died
She smiled
And life moved on
The afternoon's warm cheered all
Everyone moved
Many danced
Several twirled
Some tripped
She sang
And time passed
The night arrived bringing comfort
The sky darkened
The horizon disappeared
The sun hid
The watch fell
She went to her room
And the tomorrow was uncertain
The noises grew silent that early dawn
The moon shined
The wind howled
Life rested
She dreamed
And everything continued
Sep 30, 2020
Sep 30, 2020 at 8:50 PM UTC
Sweet and small, my pretty sparrow
Wish my mood was just as narrow
So beautiful is your entire plume
How your rust hides all your gloom
But how come your cage is so small?
Almost makes me, in pity, bawl
I remember when first my eyes you drew
And for your beauty, I locked you
Now no longer I can see you fly
Which truly makes me think, and sigh:
If I am the one who trapped the sparrow,
Does that mean, I am not the hero?
Sep 30, 2020
Sep 30, 2020 at 8:27 PM UTC
We were friends
In fact, we were more than that
But in the end
That which we both were
Forged a lot of what we now are
Even if we no longer see each other
We will always be a part of one another
A bond unbreakable by humanity or time
An unchangeable section of our history as persons
And that is truly an amazing thing.
Sep 30, 2020
Sep 30, 2020 at 8:00 PM UTC