Found my passion.
Found myself.
Lost motivation.
Found a girl.
Found motivation.
Found the military.
Found new passion.
Got married.
Dramatic events.
Adulting through it.
She moved in.
Remembered my lost passion.
But I'm too far forward now.
Apr 24, 2019
Apr 24, 2019 at 1:19 AM UTC
You're asleep on the phone with me right now
We were talking about some plans...
I hear your peaceful breath
I miss you
But I don't want you to get up, stay right here, I'll be back
You worry about me all time, I guess that's fair
But deep down, you know I'll be fine
So don't change what you're doing, stay right there. I'll be back
You love me, this is something I know no doubt.
But I want to make something very clear
I'll be back soon
Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 6:27 AM UTC
She caught me in a trap
She reads me like a map
These simple lines I say
Vary from day to day
I think I'm a simple guy
My softer side is too shy
I can't help but stand tall
Fearing nothing but the fall
I'm coming close to never
But hoping for forever
Everything is going to change
When we each part ways
I hate what I've become
In this Arizona sun
I regret decisions I've made
But refuse to stand in the shade
Would I change it all?
My guess as good as yalls
My friends are all doing great
But I struggle with my fate
I want to go back in time
LoL **** I can't find a rhyme
That was an unintentional rhyme
I do that all the time
I guess I am a poet
But **** I didn't know it
I'll just stop here and go back
See my friends, sip some Jack
I feel like my glory days have passed
Only 20 now, but running out of gas
The expectations of my peers
Is one of my biggest fears
I don't want do disappoint anyone
But I can't help but run
I miss the days at home
So let me write a poem
Jul 16, 2015
Jul 16, 2015 at 8:25 AM UTC
Who are you when I'm not in town?
Perhaps the same girl I love to be around?
Better yet are you that way with someone new?
Now you've done things I never thought you'd do.
If it was a woman I cared less about
I'd open the door, and simply tell you "out"
You seem to mean more and I don't know why
Maybe I'll grow up and come over tonight
If it was a man I didn't see as my brother
(For lack of better words) I'd **** that ************
I see his pain too and I can't lead an attack
Although I've felt the pain of a stab in the back
I will not lie, I deserve this after-all
Let's hope this doesn't cause our feelings to fall
I do not know how my life will unfold
At the end of the day, it's you I'd like to hold
I speak like I'm in High school, dumb and full of love, high as bird
These feelings that you give me..... wait I just used the L word
Many nights have passed with her sleeping in my head
But when I wake up, I'm laying in your bed
You make her disappear, like no one else before
And you make me think twice before walking out the door.
Let's really be honest, we're not each other's type
But your smile makes me believe in all the hype
Please don't listen to things you may have heard
Just know that I..... Almost used the L word.
Jun 14, 2015
Jun 14, 2015 at 2:45 AM UTC
She can be your sunshine, or leave you standing in the rain.
If she leaves you out there, she won't have much to gain.
She can say she is sorry in a million different ways,
She can be your sunshine or leave you standing in the rain.
She hopes that you can hear her, as she whispers very slow.
"I really do love you and don't want to let you go."
She wants to be your sunshine, to hide you from the rain.
No matter where you go, she wants to kiss away your pain.
She didn't mean to hurt you. She doesn't want to lie,
It feels like all she can do now is just lay down and die.
Will you be her sunshine or leave her standing in the rain?
Remember it's your choice on what you lose as well as what you gain
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 10:58 PM UTC
I really can't be mad. I have myself to blame
What she's done to me, I've done just the same
Still far ahead, but so sick of this game
Maybe it's too late, I have myself to blame.
Don't hold your feelings in, maybe it's too late.
If you miss your chance, you'll have your self to hate
In this life you carry a lot of weight
Get your **** together, maybe it's too late.
Move quick, get your **** together.
Face it, you can't live like this forever.
Brace yourself, you're in for nasty weather
Here comes pain, get your **** together.
Not much longer, here comes pain
So much to lose, so much to gain
Looking for sun, standing in the rain
I really can't be mad. I have myself to blame
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 10:02 PM UTC
A word that chills me to the bone.
I can't kiss you through the telephone.
It's hard to hear, and painful to think
She'd choose me over her cold drink.
Leave her smoke
Sell her car
I start to choke
But she's too far.
Four letters mean a lot
When it's more then just a thought.
I'd love to be here at the end of the day.
Don't use that word and I might... just...
Stay.
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 7:02 AM UTC
Moving in a direction that I don't know.
Truth is, you reap what you sow.
Moving too fast, I can't help but shout.
Hoping for success but don't know the route.
Maybe I'll find the one I need.
Haha. Maybe not.
I don't need another mouth to feed.
**** that girl is hot.
I'll find her, or she'll find me.
Soon I'll become what I need to be.
What's in the way? There must be something.
A girl that really shouldn't mean nothing.
There's only one thing to be done.
I'll see you later, I gotta run.
Burn the bridge, cut the string. Walk away, don't say a thing.
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 3:51 AM UTC
I build up bridges
They will soon crumble
I feed her small ego
Try to act like I'm humble
She sits down alone
crying on the floor
I'm too far gone
Headed for the door
She tells me I'm great
I start to believe
She's wasting her breath
I think I must leave
Her thoughts keep me up at night
**** it's already dawn
I must keep moving now
I'm already gone.
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 7:42 AM UTC
i say sorry often because i mess up a lot.
i mess up often because things aren't what i thought.
i'd like to think more so I say sorry less.
But i'm not too sure that would be best.
May 14, 2015
May 14, 2015 at 1:25 AM UTC