TashaTay - Hello Poetry

Take my heart, Crush it Then feed it to the birds Pretend that you're helping Stopping the hurt Feed my empty soul with words that caress me Til I burst You were good at your craft Obviously rehearsed.

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Apr 4, 2015

Apr 4, 2015 at 3:32 AM UTC

craft

Take my heart, Crush it Then feed it to the birds Pretend that you're helping Stopping the hurt Feed my empty soul with words that caress me Til I burst You were good at your craft Obviously rehearsed.

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Hell is when you are in pain But don't show it Cause you don't want a million questions Hell is when you feel pain And there's no moral No lesson When you are trapped in emotion And have no control over what will happen When the tears roll down your cheeks and you can't stop them When your soul is screaming But no one will listen When your soul aches When your eyes are blinded by the heaviness The hurt The pain And knowing that tomorrow, The cycle stays the same When smiling actually hurts your feelings because its proof that you're a liar You're lying to yourself And everyone else Cause when they see that smile They don't see the pain The tears The emotions felt But just a facade you put up Because you're scared. Scared of the implications And seeing how people actually feel- Do they care about me? Only God knows And meanwhile the pain grows Fornicates, multiplies! And so do the lies The "I'm okay"s The "I'm fine"s But back to what I was saying, Hell is when you have a million ways To explain your pain

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Mar 5, 2015

Mar 5, 2015 at 5:45 AM UTC

Hell

Hell is when you are in pain But don't show it Cause you don't want a million questions Hell is when you feel pain And there's no moral No lesson When you are trapped in emotion And have no control over what will happen When the tears roll down your cheeks and you can't stop them When your soul is screaming But no one will listen When your soul aches When your eyes are blinded by the heaviness The hurt The pain And knowing that tomorrow, The cycle stays the same When smiling actually hurts your feelings because its proof that you're a liar You're lying to yourself And everyone else Cause when they see that smile They don't see the pain The tears The emotions felt But just a facade you put up Because you're scared. Scared of the implications And seeing how people actually feel- Do they care about me? Only God knows And meanwhile the pain grows Fornicates, multiplies! And so do the lies The "I'm okay"s The "I'm fine"s But back to what I was saying, Hell is when you have a million ways To explain your pain

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Pardon my outrageous accusations But if we could trade places You'd see what you were doing was tasteless And I'm sorry I hurt you But I had to be happy Cause to be honest The love was ****** The behaviour upset me And I just felt You didn't get me Now I'm not trying to be rude You didn't give me what I wanted The relationship was lacking And now the shows over I've been waiting since june Hoping this all blows over I don't love you anymore And everytime I talk to you My heart gets colder

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Feb 1, 2015

Feb 1, 2015 at 4:20 AM UTC

Accusations

Pardon my outrageous accusations But if we could trade places You'd see what you were doing was tasteless And I'm sorry I hurt you But I had to be happy Cause to be honest The love was ****** The behaviour upset me And I just felt You didn't get me Now I'm not trying to be rude You didn't give me what I wanted The relationship was lacking And now the shows over I've been waiting since june Hoping this all blows over I don't love you anymore And everytime I talk to you My heart gets colder

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Maybe you died Cause everyone's asking where you are I feel bad cause I took away their shining star The innocent girl Who used to pray hard Replaced her with a devil To play her part I tried to channel you In hopes that I could steer you back But then that just reminds me Of all the qualities you had That I lack. I'm not happy anymore Just really sad I don't wear any other colours Except black Cause I'm just a widow At your funeral and you're dead And the fact that I killed you Leaves me with a heavy chest And looking back I see That I didn't treat you great But through all of that I still wish you stayed And I hope you're still alive But just took a break Cause without you I'm a jar of memories and hate I miss you cause You were the best I ever had So dear old me Please come back.

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Nov 18, 2014

Nov 18, 2014 at 4:01 AM UTC

Dear Old Me

Maybe you died Cause everyone's asking where you are I feel bad cause I took away their shining star The innocent girl Who used to pray hard Replaced her with a devil To play her part I tried to channel you In hopes that I could steer you back But then that just reminds me Of all the qualities you had That I lack. I'm not happy anymore Just really sad I don't wear any other colours Except black Cause I'm just a widow At your funeral and you're dead And the fact that I killed you Leaves me with a heavy chest And looking back I see That I didn't treat you great But through all of that I still wish you stayed And I hope you're still alive But just took a break Cause without you I'm a jar of memories and hate I miss you cause You were the best I ever had So dear old me Please come back.

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Never a rose without thorns You broke my heart And left me scorned

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Nov 3, 2014

Nov 3, 2014 at 7:46 AM UTC

haiku

Never a rose without thorns You broke my heart And left me scorned

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I often look in the mirror And ask myself who I am I then compare myself To castles in the sand I'm blown away by the wind Pay for my sins And the melancholy begins I often look in the mirror And ask myself why I let People who hurt me Take a fragment of me All the pieces I need Leave me here crouching Gasping for air to breathe No one to hold me I often look in the mirror And ask myself Why I let weakness get the best of me Why I let the tears fall It decreases me Makes me feel small I have to reinstall happiness In my life Be strong through it all But then I look in the mirror I see a champion Cause I've been strong through it all My soul never breaks I always pick up the pieces And the strength in me Suddenly increses Solid with no creases That's the power of Jesus

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Oct 19, 2014

Oct 19, 2014 at 8:14 AM UTC

mirror

I often look in the mirror And ask myself who I am I then compare myself To castles in the sand I'm blown away by the wind Pay for my sins And the melancholy begins I often look in the mirror And ask myself why I let People who hurt me Take a fragment of me All the pieces I need Leave me here crouching Gasping for air to breathe No one to hold me I often look in the mirror And ask myself Why I let weakness get the best of me Why I let the tears fall It decreases me Makes me feel small I have to reinstall happiness In my life Be strong through it all But then I look in the mirror I see a champion Cause I've been strong through it all My soul never breaks I always pick up the pieces And the strength in me Suddenly increses Solid with no creases That's the power of Jesus

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I grew up in a beautiful home Cozy with a strong foundation I've lived in this home for over a decade So how dare you go and take it? ****** it out of my hands I don't believe in the rupture But surely This is the end I loved this home It was a place I called my own It raised me And made me And really it saved me I believed in forever But my home is crumbling I tried patching up the cracks in the wall But no form of cemented love Can keep this home strong It is gone And all I can do now is mourn The death of my home Keep calm and carry on Rain clouds cover my home And I seem to be ****** Into a black hole With so many stories untold I feel I've lost gold Maybe its payment For the dues I owed My home is taken and I'm left in the cold With no hope I know you may not understand But this home is all I had This is not just any home Sadly The home's my family

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Oct 12, 2014

Oct 12, 2014 at 7:12 AM UTC

My home

I grew up in a beautiful home Cozy with a strong foundation I've lived in this home for over a decade So how dare you go and take it? ****** it out of my hands I don't believe in the rupture But surely This is the end I loved this home It was a place I called my own It raised me And made me And really it saved me I believed in forever But my home is crumbling I tried patching up the cracks in the wall But no form of cemented love Can keep this home strong It is gone And all I can do now is mourn The death of my home Keep calm and carry on Rain clouds cover my home And I seem to be ****** Into a black hole With so many stories untold I feel I've lost gold Maybe its payment For the dues I owed My home is taken and I'm left in the cold With no hope I know you may not understand But this home is all I had This is not just any home Sadly The home's my family

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I don't understand Why we claim we're human When we tear each other down Hurt each others feelings Because we're too small minded To accept that we are different Instead we become hateful Acting stupid and illiterate **** the minorities' spirits Make them feel insignificant We teach every generation That being gay is a sin Then turn around and say We're all God's children There are so many thoughts in my mind I don't even know where to begin So I'll begin with this thing That they call sin God makes us exactly How we are The differences we have Are to set us apart So we shine brighter than the stars So I don't know why man Would turn around And say on judgement day All gay men will repent and pray Cause they won't be allowed Into heaven Simply because they loved men and not women Say the "homos" Are lost and will never be found The hate towards gay men Is a sound too loud The other day An innocent man who was gay Was killed by a homophobic crowd When I heard of this news My heart dropped and frowned I don't understand How man can be so proud So send an innocent soul Six feet into the ground So tell me You so called Christians With your egos so large Who do you think you are? God said we should not judge You walk around like you're perfect But I see a smudge From the lack of innocence You carry on your sleeve With your head in the clouds Saying God created Adam and Eve Not Adam and Steve Thinking you see all things Through God But really You're blinded by hate And all I can do is wait For the day we stand in heaven And await our fate And hear God say To all the men that are straight "There is nothing wrong With being gay Because in my kingdom That's how these men were made"

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Oct 4, 2014

Oct 4, 2014 at 9:25 AM UTC

Gay Day

I don't understand Why we claim we're human When we tear each other down Hurt each others feelings Because we're too small minded To accept that we are different Instead we become hateful Acting stupid and illiterate **** the minorities' spirits Make them feel insignificant We teach every generation That being gay is a sin Then turn around and say We're all God's children There are so many thoughts in my mind I don't even know where to begin So I'll begin with this thing That they call sin God makes us exactly How we are The differences we have Are to set us apart So we shine brighter than the stars So I don't know why man Would turn around And say on judgement day All gay men will repent and pray Cause they won't be allowed Into heaven Simply because they loved men and not women Say the "homos" Are lost and will never be found The hate towards gay men Is a sound too loud The other day An innocent man who was gay Was killed by a homophobic crowd When I heard of this news My heart dropped and frowned I don't understand How man can be so proud So send an innocent soul Six feet into the ground So tell me You so called Christians With your egos so large Who do you think you are? God said we should not judge You walk around like you're perfect But I see a smudge From the lack of innocence You carry on your sleeve With your head in the clouds Saying God created Adam and Eve Not Adam and Steve Thinking you see all things Through God But really You're blinded by hate And all I can do is wait For the day we stand in heaven And await our fate And hear God say To all the men that are straight "There is nothing wrong With being gay Because in my kingdom That's how these men were made"

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I often find myself alone And that's when my mind starts to probe Why no one cares Why my heart is cold And hard as stone Why I become unhappier as I grow And why my heart is Blacker than the night and a crow Maybe its because I have no friends No one who cares Enough to stop the tears I have spent many nights Sad,searching for a friend And the people I find Always leave me uncertain Lord,Father Help me Please stop the hurting Shelter me from my enemies' eyes Please be my curtain Fill me with the strength I need to keep moving on Cause with a twisted life like mine I have no choice but to be strong I try to let them in Let them break down my walls But once I do That's when it starts going wrong They leave me Continue with their lives And don't look back And I remain here Thinking bout the lack of trust That I have All I've ever wanted was a friend To make this sorrow end Maybe I should stop loving Because it never lasts Stop building castles in the air Cause they are not there I cannot deny what is real Its clear I don't appeal And I always face this ordeal And this weakness I conceal My loveless heart has had enough I don't know where to start But let me tell you My heart has the deepest cuts One more heart break Will tear it apart I don't know why They don't understand That I'm a human being Who needs love

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Oct 2, 2014

Oct 2, 2014 at 4:19 PM UTC

Alone

I often find myself alone And that's when my mind starts to probe Why no one cares Why my heart is cold And hard as stone Why I become unhappier as I grow And why my heart is Blacker than the night and a crow Maybe its because I have no friends No one who cares Enough to stop the tears I have spent many nights Sad,searching for a friend And the people I find Always leave me uncertain Lord,Father Help me Please stop the hurting Shelter me from my enemies' eyes Please be my curtain Fill me with the strength I need to keep moving on Cause with a twisted life like mine I have no choice but to be strong I try to let them in Let them break down my walls But once I do That's when it starts going wrong They leave me Continue with their lives And don't look back And I remain here Thinking bout the lack of trust That I have All I've ever wanted was a friend To make this sorrow end Maybe I should stop loving Because it never lasts Stop building castles in the air Cause they are not there I cannot deny what is real Its clear I don't appeal And I always face this ordeal And this weakness I conceal My loveless heart has had enough I don't know where to start But let me tell you My heart has the deepest cuts One more heart break Will tear it apart I don't know why They don't understand That I'm a human being Who needs love

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The thought of loving again sends trembles down my soul Breaking it down Like earthquakes destroying homes My love is as precious as gold But I find that at a cheap price It is always sold I guess I'm a hopeless romantic And when my love is thrown in my face I become frantic I can't have it Its just madness When gold is treated just like plastic Set on fire The flames burst The deepest cut in my heart Is from the one I loved first My heart died when he left me And my body is the hearse He trampled all over my heart Left me so hurt I don't know why I get so attached Surely I must be cursed

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Oct 1, 2014

Oct 1, 2014 at 5:09 AM UTC

Like Gold

The thought of loving again sends trembles down my soul Breaking it down Like earthquakes destroying homes My love is as precious as gold But I find that at a cheap price It is always sold I guess I'm a hopeless romantic And when my love is thrown in my face I become frantic I can't have it Its just madness When gold is treated just like plastic Set on fire The flames burst The deepest cut in my heart Is from the one I loved first My heart died when he left me And my body is the hearse He trampled all over my heart Left me so hurt I don't know why I get so attached Surely I must be cursed

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