TCoZy - Hello Poetry

You sleep peacefully unbothered. Whilst I lay in agony next to you. God I can’t stand it. Your supposed to make everything better but it feels like your irrelevant to that purpose. Then why am I still here? Where do I go? I can’t depend on YOU. I’m learning that. I hope that changes because I want to. Surprisingly regardless of how useless you are I still love you. I knew from the beginning you couldn’t do for me what I prayed but yet I stayed in this course with you. What do I see in you? You can’t provide me with my basic needs What do I see in you? Just what **** is this? Is this all based of science in which I can’t help but need you? I don’t want anyone else. I don’t feel like I need anyone else to be with. There is no other option but you and why is that? Maybe I am blind at the moment with thoughts that push aside my feelings, because I’m not getting anywhere. This is a mystery yet to be solved. I’m going to sleep now. Good Night to the love of my life.

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Apr 25, 2021

Apr 25, 2021 at 6:22 AM UTC

A mystery or misery?

You sleep peacefully unbothered. Whilst I lay in agony next to you. God I can’t stand it. Your supposed to make everything better but it feels like your irrelevant to that purpose. Then why am I still here? Where do I go? I can’t depend on YOU. I’m learning that. I hope that changes because I want to. Surprisingly regardless of how useless you are I still love you. I knew from the beginning you couldn’t do for me what I prayed but yet I stayed in this course with you. What do I see in you? You can’t provide me with my basic needs What do I see in you? Just what **** is this? Is this all based of science in which I can’t help but need you? I don’t want anyone else. I don’t feel like I need anyone else to be with. There is no other option but you and why is that? Maybe I am blind at the moment with thoughts that push aside my feelings, because I’m not getting anywhere. This is a mystery yet to be solved. I’m going to sleep now. Good Night to the love of my life.

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Alright, perhaps I'm listless Drained, by my past now gone So, please don't get ahead of yourself You won't find what you're hoping for But I do hope you're not disappointed I can only be who I am, to who I try to be But if you so choose to go on with me I hope you remember what was said from the beginning Don't tell me that you love me Because I won't love back Don't tell me that you need me Because I don't need that Don't tell me that you want me Because I'm on my own So, When it all start to whittle Remember every bit of what was said, every bit of it Yes, maybe I want to be by myself Not wanting anyone else But I'm not For I truly hope you're not disappointed I could only be who I am, to who I try to be But if you so dare, to go on Don't you use those words, those gestures, Or even make promises that hold no meaning to you Because to me they will and once they do I hold on to them While I'm easily crippled, to be repaired with side effects. If I was to be honest I don't know either.

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May 7, 2019

May 7, 2019 at 12:16 AM UTC

If I was to be honest

Alright, perhaps I'm listless Drained, by my past now gone So, please don't get ahead of yourself You won't find what you're hoping for But I do hope you're not disappointed I can only be who I am, to who I try to be But if you so choose to go on with me I hope you remember what was said from the beginning Don't tell me that you love me Because I won't love back Don't tell me that you need me Because I don't need that Don't tell me that you want me Because I'm on my own So, When it all start to whittle Remember every bit of what was said, every bit of it Yes, maybe I want to be by myself Not wanting anyone else But I'm not For I truly hope you're not disappointed I could only be who I am, to who I try to be But if you so dare, to go on Don't you use those words, those gestures, Or even make promises that hold no meaning to you Because to me they will and once they do I hold on to them While I'm easily crippled, to be repaired with side effects. If I was to be honest I don't know either.

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You say you want to run away From your world and all its dismay I told you, don't worry about a thing Follow me and let yourself unwind Stare into my eyes, dive deep into my mind Swim through the seas of my thoughts and deepest desires My world is yours, just let me make your dreams come true For there isn't anything I wouldn't let you do All through and through, I was never enough for you Perhaps you were just dastard, too scared to try something dignified For to come find it's all a lie, and I willing to forgive An utter butcher, you wouldn't even let it live I wondered if it was my ignorance that led to the end But no....it seems it just wasn't meant to be But why is there something inside me that just won't let it be

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Apr 30, 2019

Apr 30, 2019 at 12:15 AM UTC

Undestined (so to say)

You say you want to run away From your world and all its dismay I told you, don't worry about a thing Follow me and let yourself unwind Stare into my eyes, dive deep into my mind Swim through the seas of my thoughts and deepest desires My world is yours, just let me make your dreams come true For there isn't anything I wouldn't let you do All through and through, I was never enough for you Perhaps you were just dastard, too scared to try something dignified For to come find it's all a lie, and I willing to forgive An utter butcher, you wouldn't even let it live I wondered if it was my ignorance that led to the end But no....it seems it just wasn't meant to be But why is there something inside me that just won't let it be

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I didn't get to hold him, like I wanted to. GOD but I wanted too. I didn't get look at him like I wanted, admire it for what it was. Something.... beautiful. I didn’t get to feel his touch, to fall on cloud nine So much I yearn for it. Nevertheless, I realized that I never really got to enjoy my first love. Yet I fell so hard.

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Apr 26, 2019

Apr 26, 2019 at 4:58 PM UTC

My Delight

I didn't get to hold him, like I wanted to. GOD but I wanted too. I didn't get look at him like I wanted, admire it for what it was. Something.... beautiful. I didn’t get to feel his touch, to fall on cloud nine So much I yearn for it. Nevertheless, I realized that I never really got to enjoy my first love. Yet I fell so hard.

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