I look but I don't see
My family tries to get through
While my friends try to talk to me
My mind is lost
To a sea of despair
My mind
It's what all these mistakes have cost
I can't hear what they're saying
My mind is lost
I'm in a place of thought
Where no one can reach me
I'm hidden away
While everyone thinks I'm here
Ok
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 5:59 AM UTC
I've got a wild heart that won't commit
I carry it on my sleeve
Hoping I'll find the perfect fit
That's not true
I don't know what I want
I change when pain is a possibility
Choosing a different side of me to flaunt
It's a self inflicted torture
A cycle that's hard to end
Meeting someone new
Knowing that soon you'll let them see a change
To avoid pain
And start again
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 5:49 AM UTC
Cold air on a summers night
Sweeps the room
To my delight
I lie here awake
Waiting on my child
Hoping that he is safe
Wishing his father was a better man
Wishing he would have stayed
Jun 21, 2017
Jun 21, 2017 at 2:49 AM UTC
In the beginning you meant nothing
Then so suddenly
You were everything
You were the air I breathed
The water that gives me life
Then just as suddenly
I was nothing
And you were still everything
Jun 21, 2017
Jun 21, 2017 at 2:42 AM UTC
I could tell tales
Of all that I have felt
Of the dreams tarnished
Of all the pain I've been dealt
I could tell them in great detail
Hoping that in telling them
This agony I feel would end
Only it does not
Every time I tell them
It is one more battle fought
My mind tells me to let go
While my heart forbids it
It would be easy to forget if my mind was on its own
If these feelings were ones my heart had never known
In the end these emotions keep the memories alive
As my mind begs for me to let go
And my heart says a steady no
Jun 21, 2017
Jun 21, 2017 at 2:35 AM UTC
Dreams of broken glass
I've had
Of children
Who to hell cannot pass
Of loves that never last
Here I am alive and well
Yet still in living hell
Where nothing stays true
I lie here
Always wishing I was with you
Jun 16, 2017
Jun 16, 2017 at 6:20 AM UTC
The drugs take me away
From everything
The things people say
Away the truth
Away from all the secrets and the pain
Away from the difficulty of keeping a mind
That was never really mine
How can I love
When I know not
Who I really am
A distorted reality
For a distorted dove
Jun 16, 2017
Jun 16, 2017 at 5:54 AM UTC
A love that held no substance
A boy that was confused
A boy that I thought would be my husband
I saw children in my future
Only to be left feeling useless
At the same time used
Jun 16, 2017
Jun 16, 2017 at 5:36 AM UTC
Unhinged
Waiting for my world to end
Only I'm here to stay
I'm here to break or
Maybe just bend
I'm not sure
The only thing clear
I'm no longer pure
I'm horribly stained
I have seen too much
I have felt an unimaginable pain
Along with betrayal
Seen too much evil and such
I think it's time for end
But when do you know
When do you know that it is too much
When do you know there is nothing good
Nothing good around the bend
Nothing good the gods have left to send
Does it come when others
Realize there is no light left in your eyes
When they see
Every word you say
Is a lie
Jun 16, 2017
Jun 16, 2017 at 5:29 AM UTC
Boys always fawn
Only for a moment
They say it's something they feel
And stupid me
I think it's real
This is the cause of my torment
It created a hate so strong
I don't know what to do
I innately know something's wrong
But I don't want to make it right
It started with a boy
He seemed so sure
I thought his feelings were pure
He was in love
Just for a moment
Then he wasn't
That's when this hate came to be
I'm letting this hate
This darkness encase me
Nov 27, 2016
Nov 27, 2016 at 3:21 AM UTC