I still believe in our love
I still carry that internal knowledge
That the day you were born
My name was written on your heart
We haven't come this far
To only come this far
If the world was ending now
I would fall right back into your arms
Because you are home
You'll always be home
Jan 10, 2020
Jan 10, 2020 at 9:43 PM UTC
I am:
Disturbed
Cheap
Narcissistic
Selfish
Lost
Stupid
Worthless
Unattractive
Inadequate
Boring
A mistake
Ugly
Useless
Dreadful
Maybe. But I'm still your wife. And I DO love you.
It's effortless.
Jan 1, 2020
Jan 1, 2020 at 12:00 AM UTC
You say you yearn for warmth
So I beckon the sun from it's slumber
I excitedly turn around to see your pleasure
Only to watch you drawing your hopes in the sand
You say you pine for sweet tenderness
So I melt my body into yours
It feels triumphant, but when I look up
Your head is lost inside the clouds
You say you need to be stirred by love
So I softly lean onto your shoulder
Whispering my heart's sweet nothings
But you've already turned the music back up
Even still, I keep on loving you
Dec 21, 2019
Dec 21, 2019 at 11:00 PM UTC
I feel blindsided by your dishonesty
Shocked to know that this is you
The real you
Not the prince I saved my soul for
I am pierced by your callousness
I would have laid down my very life
In order to defend your honor
Alas, morning would not have come for me
It isn't malice that encases me
It is a bottomless, frigid anguish
Because it is now clear what's inside your heart
And I'm not there anymore
Dec 12, 2019
Dec 12, 2019 at 8:01 PM UTC
You've chosen ashes over gold
Traded your heart for cheap thrills
You grew careless in your love
And drank the poison of indifference
Now you swim in the sea of deception
Because apathy long ago became your vice
She's going to pull you under
And I'm forced to watch you die
I can't save you
Dec 4, 2019
Dec 4, 2019 at 5:22 PM UTC
In a second, it was over
Or, at least, it seemed to me no time had passed
You were everything
I needed not a single thing more
But now…. I am desperate
Desperate to cling to what I’ve always believed was true
That you desire me; every invisible piece
And God made us unbreakable
Foolish, that’s me; inadequate too
I’m not enough
I never genuinely was
You were always so much more... just being you
Nov 8, 2019
Nov 8, 2019 at 2:21 PM UTC
I gave you everything
I owned nothing more
Still, it wasn't enough
It didn't last
And perhaps neither will I
Aug 13, 2019
Aug 13, 2019 at 11:25 PM UTC
I’ve made friends with perfect strangers
Weeks later and I’ve foolishly tried
Just so that I could feel the warmth
Of such a desperately atrocious lie
I’m hopeful deep down in my nothingness
That you can’t let me go
That you can’t stop seeing my face
And that this is all a vicious show
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 10:25 PM UTC
I wept for a life that was stolen
I cried myself unconscious missing a golden reflection
Sneaking breaths of memories trapped in the dark
Like an utter fool
I gave up such a precious portion
Handing over what used to be sacred
While whispering words too secret to be audible
Unaware of my folly
Limping through my days on crippled wings
And now wincing at the knowledge of what I helped create
What was once so revered, what was once so precious
Has slowly slipped through these fingers
I spun in circles under the sleepy stars
I let the burn envelope me
Suffocating in order to believe
That I wasn't just another foolish girl
10/8/08
Apr 30, 2019
Apr 30, 2019 at 3:07 AM UTC
I believe that I am surprisingly solitary
For a woman who is continuously enveloped
In a breathing, endless expectation
Of the commotion outside of my head
I'm easy; yet also in pursuit
Of blending ignorance with substantiation
Because we all want to be on the right side of the tracks
Even if it means we live a life of secret risk
Mar 26, 2019
Mar 26, 2019 at 8:39 PM UTC