You will get there
And how does it feel now,
Knowing what goes around
Comes around?
5d ago
May 29, 2026 at 7:10 AM UTC
It's like you're saying,
"Yeah, I know I'm that part for you,
But I don't care!
I'm going to keep being that part
And you're not goimg to stop me."
And you assume that I'm just like you.
But you don't even realize
This whole time I've been begging for any way
Not to let another soul be displaced
I've been forced into complicity
I've been forced to suffer strangely
I came to this world innocent,
And since then you've just piled and piled it on.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 8:22 AM UTC
We both end up defeated
We both end up with our teeth
In each other's necks
With our enemies sworn
And our dignities torn
Can we hold ourselves
From the monster that's coming next
I try to say through a busted lip
That I still love you
And want to take accountability
And did you say "you better mean that"
Or did you understand
Eventuality?
There's no actor here
Just the hulking weight of this reality
You lied to protect me
I'm in the wake of the sword
That will end my life
But you never lied
But you never lied
There's no actor here
No actor
If I could build you an army
What would keep their hearts
Steady in the war?
Cause we built this house
But what it's made from
These days, I am just not sure
It's a fight to win
For the crystal, willfull ignorance
Can I be real with you?
Stop asking questions
You don't wanna
Know the answer to.
There's no actor here
Just the hulking weight of this reality
You lied to protect me
I'm in the wake of the sword
That will end my life
But you never lied
But you never lied
There's no actor here
No actor
I'm DISTENDED
I started melting
Cause I DON'T WANT TO MAKE
TOO MUCH SENSE
WE'RE JUST STIMMING
BUT YOU'RE SO SURE I'M THE WORST
WE'RE JUST STIMMING
I FEEL CURSED
The best intentions.
There's no actor here
Just the hulking weight of a cruel reality
You lied to protect me
I'm in the wake of the coward
That will end my life
But we never lied
But we never lied
There's no actor here
The best intentions.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 1:14 AM UTC
I wake up
I stretch my supersuit over my drunk, misshapen body
Tuck in the cottage cheese
And save the world
It's one more day
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 5:09 PM UTC
The way you surround me
Contrasts the warmth of a mother's love
Mocking
Uncaring
Scathing
Wishing me ill
The dilution of it all tastes like glycerine
With a hint of dirt
And something faintly toxic
And fork, we have to treasure the days without that forced, acrid invasion
And shirt, they will eternally tell us there are such things as 'bad decisions'
And how it's not just an experience foist upon us
But please, please don't get me wrong
These currents absolutely drive my passion to a firm account
The trade winds of my spirit
Fairness, equilibrium
I see this conundrum in your only system
But it's something my soul bemoans
Because where is the adventure in a thing that's already been done,
But how can I exist without your teeth tearing my flesh apart?
How can I be considered beautiful when I am what I am,
And don't I see those special stars for every exclusive cut they design?
May 15
May 15, 2026 at 2:34 AM UTC
Denatured,
Ruptured form
When the mind has realized its own desire
Is the very source
Of that callous, repelling force
Well why should I try?
You have made me old
Old and ugly
But you will say
The eye is the seat
Where those judgments are made
All our tools mock one another
All our tools mock one another
All our tools mock one another
But it all makes sense
But it makes no sense
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 6:38 PM UTC
You are
The malady of a sunrise
The virus of love
The vacancy of that visceral swell--
You leave me honored to broken
You have drafted me into your military
Fighting for the grand cause
Of capitalism
In your own mind--
You have abandoned me
And that is exactly what you should have done
If you care about your own
And your family
Tourniquet love--
O holy bowed one
Graviton unto yourself
Please,
A little sugar
For your neighbor--
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 7:29 AM UTC
I know
The reach creates the negative space
That i begat another
Who has broken free
Of my gravity
I know you celebrate
Where my grief is bloated out
Looking inward
I see only disappointment
May 4
May 4, 2026 at 4:51 PM UTC
I am a temple of desecration
Sad eyes with planets of mockery
I toil for love but it is elusive
They tell me I should have known
Holding onto scraps is what I do
I am the last selfish leg
Of you and me, but that doesn't exist
I am the clinging part that killed your gramma
You hate me and you do make it known
I will swallow all the nails.
Your hate is a pathetic nothing
You are only me on the other side
And I know myself to be a whiny *****
So just shut the **** up
Actually,
I am laughing at YOU!
It all gets turned on its head
This is public knowledge
As a woman,
I will become infinite
So maybe I am ugly, no?
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 4:09 AM UTC
I'm right at home amongst the cacti
Because all my servitude is just idiocy to you
So take my donation
This blank stare
This pulsing knot of doubt
I do not try anything
Because it has always felt wrong when I did
It has always felt like that was meant for you
There is something on the outside that is just so right
In a way that I could never get
Sometimes
It grins a malicious grin
It knows
Sometimes I just lay in Sonoran dirt
Recovering from yesterday's self-administered bleaching
And think about all the ****** up sh/t you said
When you got high
If I know you at all
With a title like this
You'll cover it up and swallow me down
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 3:15 AM UTC