They say Beauty is skin deep
At least according to society
And if you don't conform
Life will be a hellofa storm
Gold lies beneath the sand
So with a shaking hand
I dig in to my skin
Mining for what's within
digging for what you can't see
What is deep inside me
Red gold bubbles at the surface
It hurts but that's why I do this
Beauty pays a price
And this is souly my choice
the scars aren't pretty
And this isn't beauty
It's still you I love
But A mismatched glove
I am to you
Into the trash you threw
Me away
Another day
Passes and No matter how
Deep I dig, I know now
It's not me
I'm not ugly
It's society
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 1:29 AM UTC
Let's laugh the night away
Forget the sorrows of today
Again tomorrow the sun will rise
And it won't be a surprise
That our friendship will stay
As golden as it was yesterday
Feb 25, 2016
Feb 25, 2016 at 6:04 PM UTC
I get it
I cry
Not for me
But for you
Can't you see?
You left; I don't blame you
I blame me
I get it
There's bigger and better things
Out there than silly ol' me
There always has been
Always will be
I get it
I'm that answer on the test
You know the one; letter c
Everyone knows it's wrong
Because it's so silly
It's so obvious
Only the poor fool who didn't study
Would choose it and I'm not the right 1
He thought I'd be
I get it
I'm not wanted
I'm unnecessary
I could dissapear in a flash
And it would be easy
I get it
The world stopped moving
When they have up on me
For them, it will keep going
When I give up on me.
Get it?
Feb 16, 2016
Feb 16, 2016 at 10:03 PM UTC
You broke my heart
When you broke up with me
You shattered my heart
When you got with her
You threw away my heart
When you lied to him
Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 12:17 AM UTC
Just a memory?
We were so happy..
Just a moment?
We shared so many..
Just a was?
What about "We will"?..
Jan 27, 2016
Jan 27, 2016 at 11:47 PM UTC
He pushed play
He said "Hey"
But he pressed fast forward
And leaned inward
So I pressed play
We could've kissed all day
He pressed pause
There were a few flaws
I pressed play
I thought it'd be okay
He hit stop
Was I too over the top?
Ether way,
I want to press replay
Jan 27, 2016
Jan 27, 2016 at 11:39 PM UTC
Who knew
Someone
I didn't know
Would say
Hello?
Who knew
That night
We'd see
Ourselves
In each other?
Who knew
We'd share
So many things
And never met
Before?
Who knew
Every day
He'd ask me
"Do we
Still match?"
Who knew
The answer
Was always yes?
Who knew
Less than
A week
Would pass
Before he
Kissed
Me?
Who knew
When he
Kissed
Me
It would
Bring back
Memories?
Who knew
We'd kiss
Again
And
Again?
Who knew
We'd fall
In love?
Who knew
It was
New Years
And I
Was only
Thinking
Of him?
Who knew
One month
After Hello
Would be
Goodbye?
Who knew
The
Difference
Between
"Goodnight"
And
"Goodnight,
Love"
Was enough
To make me cry?
Who knew
I could
Feel him
Even if
I never
Saw him
But now
All I feel
Is his
Absence?
Who knew
I'd fall
To pieces
But
Pick them
Up?
Who knew
I'd just
Drop them
All over
Again?
Who knew
He wouldn't
Or pretend
He doesn't
Care?
Who knew?
Not me.
Jan 23, 2016
Jan 23, 2016 at 12:53 AM UTC
I wasn't ready
I didn't want it to end
But isn't that what anyone would say
After their own apocalypse?
I knew it was coming
So why didn't I do something?
It was like the little boy
Who cried wolf
Except there is no
Little boy Or Wolf
Just you and me
And you went your own way
So now I'm here
Broke in love
I was gambling
I thought it was a good risk
Silly me,
I bet it all
I gave you all I had
And now I'm left with none
Nothing
I feel empty
Like I'm hollow
Dying on the inside
Every second I'm alone
I'm one second closer to dying
Because now, thanks to you,
I am my own poison
I cry all night
Telling myself things
No one should ever hear
Destroying myself
Burning brighter than the sun
Only to burn out and ruin it all
To become a monster
After something thought beautiful
I never wanted to lose you
No, not yet
But you left me
So now here I am
Laying here alone
Literally shivering in fear
Crying silently in the night
And all because
I wasn't ready
I didn't want it to end
But isn't that what anyone would say
After their own apocalypse?
Jan 22, 2016
Jan 22, 2016 at 4:48 AM UTC
My brain and I
We play these sick games
Most games are fun
But not this one
Where I stop eating
Just enough to keep my heart beating
And at night I wish it wasn't
Or at least that's what my brain says
It makes me cry
even when I have no reason why
Until I meet the darkness of sleep
To wake with last night's tears
My brain almost always wins
Talking trash and whispering sins
But this time it's different
I'm not battling my brain, but my heart
I can't stop eating
I feel like I'm barely breathing
I can't do this to myself
But my heart says I need him
It makes me cry
And I can't stop no matter how hard I try
When I meet the darkness of night,
I get a chance but I'm too filled with fright
If I win, my heart breaks,
If it wins, I break
Jan 19, 2016
Jan 19, 2016 at 10:08 PM UTC
My home
Life as I know it
My world
Is on fire
Burning
Burning
Ash and Dust
Timber
They scream
Timber
They taunt
It comes crashing down
And
It's heavy
It's sad
It's all too real
And yet here I sit
Not even throwing a fit
Watching it burn
For it is my urn
I wait and watch
Because sometimes
I'd rather burn with it
Than live without it
Jan 16, 2016
Jan 16, 2016 at 10:28 PM UTC