I know I pushed you away
It's my thing
I said I was sorry about hundred times
I'll say it again
I'm sorry
But all I know is you shoved me away too
So I guess that means one thing
I'm not worth the anyone's time
Anyone who misses me or loves me is just waisting their precious time
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 10:33 AM UTC
I'm awake
It's 2:00am
I'm pondering on the fact of if you ever loved me
By 3:00 I'm cleaning up the red stained mess
By 4:00 I'm crying my self to sleep
Now darling I'm pushing you away
I'm sorry
May 9, 2014
May 9, 2014 at 8:18 PM UTC
You say you love me
Darling you don't know me
I say I'm fine
I like to hide the fact that I'm dying
Darling I will keep trying
If you can learn
To love a girl with scars
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 10:11 PM UTC
I say I'm fine
You say I lie
You check my wrists
Never my thighs
But darling
Did you ever think
To look into my mind
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 10:06 PM UTC
In the end
There is nothing
In the end
Everything will be gone
Everything you worked so hard for
Will be gone
So what's worth living
Give me a reason
And I may stay
I love none
Because you see they will leave
If only the end of the world would speed up
So we can't waist our time anymore
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 1:12 PM UTC
Darling
Your too young to be this sad
Too young to cut
Too young to cry
Too young to die
Through out your razor
Through out all your blades
At first it may be scary
But beleive me darling
You'll find someone
Who cares
Then they will leave
Because that's what people do
They leave
Then the cuts that once disappeared
Will suddenly reappear
And so will your tears
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 1:40 AM UTC
Your words
They stab me like thorns
You may think
That I would be crying
And in hysterics
When I cut
But when I do
I'm the most calm
Because I feel safe
I feel relief
I know it's bad
But I don't mind
If I die
Who will miss me anyways
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 1:29 AM UTC
I cut
Don't judge
I like to board
It's my escape from reality
I have secretly tried sucide three times
Once with a rope
But there was nothing to hang from
Once with some pills
But I just received a bad headache
Once with a razor and my flesh
But I'm still here
Why am I still here
I only have music
I only have boarding
I'm done
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 1:26 AM UTC
Stop it
Stop the pity
I don't need it
Don't you dare ever look at me that way
I don't deserve pity
I'm too ugly
And darling believe me
They only care if your pretty
So just leave me be
And save your pity for a deserving soul
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 2:31 PM UTC
The mere look of myself disgusts me
Why am I so skinny
Can't I just be pretty
I eat like a cow
But gain no weight
People think I starve myself
I see the pity in their eyes
I wish it would wash away
I'm hideous being skinny
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 2:27 PM UTC