this world is unfair
just one word from one person is enough to make me crumble
i hate it
i hate that i'm like this
i hate that i feel this way
my head knows things
my heart feels things;
Different things
if only it was easy to build me back up
but it's not
if only I was capable of putting it into words
and if only I had the courage to show these words to someone
but i Don't
and i hate it
but truth is, i don't know what to do about it
I'm At A Lost About All Of It
May 30, 2020
May 30, 2020 at 10:44 PM UTC
I wonder what it feels like to give up what's most precious to you
grief from losing that part of you
or
satisfaction from gifting it
I hope it's the latter.
Apr 9, 2020
Apr 9, 2020 at 11:08 PM UTC
I'm not you yet
but I'll be you soon
Don't ever change
for I believe in you
I want to love you
better than I do now
Build me up
so I can be proud
Gain wisdom
and share it with me
So I'll have the freedom
of loving who I'll be
Apr 9, 2020
Apr 9, 2020 at 11:00 PM UTC
As a child, you long to be a year older;
how fun will it be when I get a bigger bed
how fun will it be when I get a phone
how fun will it be when I finally get to drive
But what's ironic, is how once you've realized the weight of the responsibility that accompanies these things...
You Wish You'd Never Grown Up.
Dec 31, 2019
Dec 31, 2019 at 5:16 AM UTC
do you know what is hidden behind the bubbly personality?
if it popped, what would be left of me?
is this me or a persona I created
I've been lying to myself for so long I don't know anymore
how high can I fly before it bursts and I have no choice but to find out...
Who am I without my bubble?
Dec 25, 2019
Dec 25, 2019 at 2:38 AM UTC
happiness is not fearing the ending.
it's being excited about the beginning
happiness is not being scared of suffering, of hurting, of dying.
happiness is living the moment at its best, knowing it could end any second, but not caring.
happiness is so strong that sometimes it is hard to express.
because happiness comes from deep within you.
Dec 19, 2019
Dec 19, 2019 at 7:49 AM UTC
in the end, I think none of us really are sane.
and that's what makes me insane.
Nov 18, 2019
Nov 18, 2019 at 11:16 PM UTC
My choice of words may come off a little strong,
But who are you to judge how it really feels?
I finally figured out why it hurts so much
It’s because I trusted you
I confided in you, and you in me
We were a team
I felt what it was like to have a best friend
Whatever people said, thought or did
It didn’t matter as much
Because I had you
Didn’t matter if I didn’t have a lot of friends
Because you were enough
So now, I don’t know what to do
I’m hurt and lonely
I haven’t dealt with these feelings in a while,
Not on my own
It seems like I’m losing everyone around me
I thought I was doing the right thing?
I don’t know anymore
All I know is that once again,
I’m getting a taste of betrayal
And I really wish I could spit it out,
But I can’t do that
Because I still care about you
Oct 19, 2019
Oct 19, 2019 at 11:55 PM UTC
She didn’t know what a beautiful soul she had
Her dreams, her goals
How far they could have lead her
If only she had let them lead
Maybe she’d have a taste of happiness
The kind she can only imagine now
Sitting on the floor behind her bedroom door
A knock on the door
A voice
As a spark of hope reaches her eyes
She lets it go
People will wonder what they failed to see
And she will never know what it is to be
Because she can imagine that it’s all a dream,
But her sleep is far too deep
Sep 11, 2019
Sep 11, 2019 at 11:59 PM UTC
I sometimes enjoy looking at the world through my blurry vision
Seeing the world as a big picture rather than in detail
It hides the imperfections
But sadly, the details get hidden too
And that’s what makes it so beautiful
So I put my glasses back on
The imperfections are back
I know they never disappeared in the first place
But that doesn’t mean I have to give them any attention
I can choose what I want to see and ignore the rest
So I will
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 11:51 PM UTC