My shrink left too
She said it can be done
I said I want to live on coffee and strangers
In places I don't belong
But I wonder
Is this your upswing now?
In the Valley of Wires
I can always pick the prize
You strange storm of a person
Came rolling in from the West
To mess up my death, But
I will gladly be your mirror
Reflecting back whatever it is you want to be
I have a gift to give souls buoyancy
Even while mine drowns
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 1:14 PM UTC
The world cracks open
And I fall through
Making up for lost time
Collecting trouble like specimens
To examine at a later date
At the table
Like a couple of grade schoolers
I drove out West
For an adventure
Bonds over make believe
And some mental slip-ups
Waiting to die
I lie
And lay with you like it is nothing
Only the natural progression of my life
Borrowed clothes
And on no sleep
Now here I am
May 13, 2018
May 13, 2018 at 5:31 PM UTC
You will believe what I tell you, Simply
I cannot see a way out of this unscathed
So please tell me
Are you ready for it?
I guard my heart with iron covered sarcasms
And the make believe
A **** won't help these matters
But what do I care?
I am here now, only for the ride
I have died for years and years
I've had my fill
It's the empty house out West that I want now
Where the expectations are only half realized
And maybe met
while I say:
This is my home now
In the spaces between right and wrong
Here and gone
May 2, 2018
May 2, 2018 at 4:55 PM UTC
So this is my life now
I swear, it must have happened while I was asleep
I wake
And you are in the desk drawer, divided between us three
Because I do not know where she should go
I haven't made it there yet
Putting my creator in the ground
Mixed with the bugs and so many worms
My ash love
My Mother of bone
Can you tell me then what it means
When the ones who gave me life are dead
And all of the proverbial ships have sailed
I am left crafting an uncalled for exit
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 11:57 AM UTC
Proper proportion exits and I am left
To figure out what to do
With shadows and light
I cannot seem to get it right
So I will swallow this life whole
As punishment
As penance
Practicing patience
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 5:25 PM UTC
Sleep is the only reprieve
When life is stuck on repeat
But even then I see the dead
They carry on as if nothing has happened
They aren't dead
Back in the past
Back in the downstairs Den up North
All stale and brown
I cannot keep people in their proper places
They become jumbled in my heart
Everything and nothing happen so quickly to me
Where is the schizophrenic in the woods?
And the boy out in the corn fields?
I cannot flatter myself anymore with your existence
When mine is fighting for its own
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 1:30 PM UTC
Ah silly boy
It is already a half lie
And I can make it whole
I wake up now
Writing poetry in my head
Sleep glazed lines that disappear before it matters
Before they are caught
And the sun is not yet up still
I will not answer for this
So leave me be but
I am getting of track again
Keeping my thoughts behind me
And guts in knots
Waiting
Predestined for difficulty
In the warm corner of a coffee shop
Writing ****
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 1:17 PM UTC
A field of daisies
Is where you began
And ended in a drawn out suicide
It took you
One night at a time
Drop by drop
Out of the ocean that
was you
Is that house in the woods still there?
And is that where all of the ghosts have gone?
To wait for me in the cracks in the floor
In the closets
And under the beds
But wait!
I had forgotten
You never got that far
Before life decided it didn't belong to you
And took it back
Into the void
"Come inside, everything you love is here with us now"
That is what it screamed
Day after day
And when the night came too
Only then louder when it became dark
I can't blame you for your homecoming
To the party that was waiting
On the kitchen floor...
Mar 29, 2018
Mar 29, 2018 at 1:51 PM UTC
You and I can be the modern day Ted and Sylvia
Self-destruction for two, please
Yes, I have it easy... but do not mistake it with happiness
I am constantly trying to make it harder
To make it fall apart
Predestined for difficulty
You said folk like us are self-involved
There is nothing I can do now but wait
In the warm corner of a coffee shop
Writing ****
Mar 26, 2018
Mar 26, 2018 at 2:31 PM UTC
Baseline
Low lying
Like a lizard on a rock
Gathering all of your energy from what is around you
Nothing inside
Acting on impulse
With a brain millions of years old
That is how old you are
Who came first?
Me or You
You stop progress
Throw up your hands
And shut my mouth
Hiding in your gut cave
Eraser of thoughts
And I with a blank slate face
Flaring up
Tightening at the smallest of advances
Protection above all
Safety is paramount...
Mar 20, 2018
Mar 20, 2018 at 2:38 PM UTC