Trying to get everything back
back to that bright, never ending happiness.
I try to put it somewhat back to normal.
I still give to them.
I still show my happiness and gratitude with a bright fake smile on my face
I try to get it back without anymore problems.
But as it got closer to my grasp,
as I grabbed for it,
only a bit of it returned.
Oct 25, 2021
Oct 25, 2021 at 11:13 AM UTC
As I desperately cling into your arms
My once saddened heart began to rejoice again
My tears fall down my pale, white cheek
as I repeatably cried out I love you
Your gently kiss touch my lips
as you whispered I love you too
I began to be happy again...
to finally touch you again...
to be there again with you...
But as I began to say stay,
my eyes opened,
and you vanished from me and my arms...
leaving me alone once again.
Oct 25, 2021
Oct 25, 2021 at 11:09 AM UTC
my teardrop falls as my sadness came completely over me
another teardrop falls and falls down my warm pasty skin
so cold and so gloomy it was
my teardrops soon became the world's largest waterfall
and the only thing i could do
was crawl up and squeeze my pillow tight
so tight
my teardrops dried up as my eyes closed
and never opened again
Oct 25, 2021
Oct 25, 2021 at 11:05 AM UTC
I give things to people
without hesitation, without expecting anything in return.
I'm happy
when people got things that they both wanted and needed and more.
I don't complain about it at all.
But when I got something
Something that was God's greatest gift for me.
Something that actually make me happy... truly happy
They all went crazy and try to take it all away from me.
Saying that I don't deserve it.
I try to hold on to it; firmly hold on to it.
It was my whole life...My happiness... My everything
But they came in and tore it all into pieces along with me.
Oct 25, 2021
Oct 25, 2021 at 11:01 AM UTC
Crawling up into my own darkness
I lay there as my darkness consumes me whole.
My cries make no noise.
Not even my wails and screams.
My tears fall, but doesn't fall.
I'm trapped in my own darkness.
No escape. No portal. No voice or guide.
I lay there, waiting for help, as I slowly rot.
Oct 25, 2021
Oct 25, 2021 at 10:57 AM UTC
The greatest gift happened when I was fourteen years old.
It was the greatest gift that I already knew it was,
And that I already knew I loved it and will never want anything else.
The greatest gift happened so quickly,
but also slow at the same time.
And that greatest gift will always be the greatest.
And that greatest gift was you, Chris.
Oct 25, 2021
Oct 25, 2021 at 9:02 AM UTC
You took my broken heart into your hands
And tore it into billion pieces
You see the tears that fall from my face, and
the screams that come out of my mouth
But you didn't care.
U just laughed at me
Because you know in this battle you´ve won.
You fooled me down to the nit and gritty,
Even when I knew you were just using me,
You threw my tore up, bleeding heart on the cold, hard pavement
And left without saying a word
Leaving me there to die alone
Oct 6, 2021
Oct 6, 2021 at 10:11 AM UTC
Dark and weary are my days.
Everything black,
And darkness completely coats me.
Night after night.
Day after day.
Darkness is all around me.
My tears fall and roll down my cheeks.
I want to die.
I want to end this endless sufferings.
But your light mysteriously came in and never left.
Bright and warm you were.
You hold onto me and never let go.
Everything soon became bright
And darkness vanished forever.
You're the sun that ended my darkened days.
You're the light to my endless happiness.
Thank you.
Oct 6, 2021
Oct 6, 2021 at 10:07 AM UTC