Ive never been the open type
The one to say how im feeling
i let people walk all over me
And it leaves my head reeling
I tell everyone i love them
So no one will know
If i truly do
I cant let it show
My face is a perfect mask
But my eyes are cliches
If you look into them
Youll see my emotions in rays
Girls and guys alike seem confused
When i tell them my confession
They see my sadness
My dear friend depression
So they try to help
But they know nothing
Of the cuts on my wrists
That show my suffering
Feb 26, 2019
Feb 26, 2019 at 10:36 AM UTC
Ive loved you forever
Never once given up hope
Is 4 years too long?
I really dont know
Id give my life for you if it came to it
Id do whatever you wanted
Id give you everything
Blood is a small price to pay
Ive got plenty of it
Ive got plenty of thoughts
Wanting to come out
To tell you my secrets
Ive got plenty of those too
Plenty of everything valuable to me
But all i wanted was you
Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 3:02 PM UTC
She was there when i needed warmth
She was like a forbidden fruit
Her favorite candy
A peppermint
Still on her breath
I can still feel her near me
Even when shes miles away
She doesnt know
Or at least doesnt act like it
Her eyes the color of molasses
Her voice rich as chocolate
Her body as perfect as a rare painting
We lock eyes now and again
Only i feel a connection
Shes a secret
She's different
I dont know why
Shes hard to understand
Her mind only thinks of music
She will be mine
Her mind
Her body
Her soul
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 6:11 PM UTC
Soft,
Sweet,
Smooth,
My body is sacred
I want to be touched
But your hands
They hurt
Theyre rough
But your lips are oh so soft
On my neck
My pulse rises
Brings me to the point of no return
Why to i do this to myself
Treating my body as something to be thrown away
The scars so easily seen
As plain as day when people look
Teach me
Love me
Treat me like a princess
So that ill see myself the same way
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 12:35 PM UTC
I really never knew how i felt
Sexuality free and fluid
Feelings fleeting and shallow
Yet those times i was close it was confusing
The boys always toned
Breath like cinnamon
Voice of pure velvet
And covered in the aura of *** and passion
The girls always soft
Sweet and flexible bending to my will
Voice like the feeling of a rose
Soft smooth but sharp
With guys its about ***
With girls its love
but all the same passion flows
Dominance and submission in perfect harmony as lips clash
Does it really exist?
Can life really be that free?
Both sides are sweet
Both sides are safe
I am both sides of this coin called sexuality
Nov 14, 2018
Nov 14, 2018 at 10:40 AM UTC
Did i do something wrong?
Did I ever stray?
No
You changed,
You controlled me,
All i did was love you
What happened?
Did you fall in love with someone else?
I didnt give you my body.
Is that what you wanted?
I shouldve known that we would fall apart.
but what happened?
Nov 12, 2018
Nov 12, 2018 at 10:36 AM UTC
Time changes everything
She was great
She was perfect
She was always by my side
But that got old real quick
Im no longer my own person
She owns me while she gets kisses and cuddles from others
If i stray im the *******
Because no one sees what's happening
She was perfect
I trusted that
But theres someone else who is now there when shes not
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 11:33 PM UTC
Yes
The one word that my heart soar
Yes
The one word that changed it all
YES
She finally said it and i dont think my heart will ever stop racing
She has turned my life upside down in the few seconds that shes been mine
We all knew it would happen
We just werent sure when
Or how
Or why we would finally accept it
Shes my sunshine
Shes my forever
At least...
For now
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 9:47 AM UTC
Im scared
Terrified
Cowering in the corner like a child with the shadows of my feelings surrounding me
Shes my best friend
And everyone already thinks we're dating
Why cant i just do it
Why cant i just ask her
Ask her to be mine
Just for a little while
Shes confused
Im completely sure
Shes the one i want at least for now
Teenage love is fleeting
It comes and goes
But for now i want her
And she'll likely never be mine
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 4:04 PM UTC
Sitting alone longing for warmth
People push me away
Say they dont want to get to close
"Get away im not gay"
Well little do they know theyre just scared that they are
A few years later they come to me
"Ive had a crush on you forever"
Well theyve lost their chance
My mind and body and soul is gone
Im a shell and they broke me
Theyll never have me
Oct 15, 2018
Oct 15, 2018 at 10:37 AM UTC