I wonder what
happened
that gave you those
shotgun hands
Designing silence
When words go blind
faith gets violent
The things that
use to fill my days
are gone
A line was crossed
Forced madness won
Once you see
you see
you always saw
And I’m always
Breaking the law
Breaking the law
But who’s law
governs all?
Mirror
Mirror
on the wall
Mirror
Mirror
watching you crawl
I watched you
It’s a long fall
May 26, 2020
May 26, 2020 at 10:42 PM UTC
I saw you through
dawns of
grey
Smoking cigarettes
divided
into four quarters
So far from home
I had forgotten
my way
And the seasons went by
and I kept waiting
to feel something inside
In the requiem of
silence
With my tear drops at
Midnight
They say God is dead
But I’m still breathing
And bleeding
Falling victim
and believing
Now it’s getting
lonely
having company
without the
sunshine
I’m the type of girl
who is loved through
poetry
Left all alone
I gnawed on
your bones
that were dipped
in honey
they tasted so
sweet
and I was so
hungry
Looking back at
snapshots
of being trapped
in time
Reflecting on the
darkness
before it knew
the sky
Now I close my eyes
Lay me down to rest
I want to be made
empty again
Living just for today
The sun is inviting
But I turn it away
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 10:02 PM UTC
Maybe I’ll never write again
My words will turn to ash
in my mouth
Ink will bleed
Rust and blood
This vintage pen will break
Is this all that I am
Rhythm and syllables
Confined by definition
Complying and lying
And hesitate questions
I got no use for a name anyways
And I’m always over complicating
the simplest of things
The moon is smiling
between telephone wires
Venus is crying
So I sleep alone
And over Gods eyes
I close the blinds
Now time begins to move
right through me
I’m trying to delegate time
But it’s catching up to me
The sun is rising
To empty street views
The Sirens are singing
Their calling for you
So lay your sins down
to rot in summer backyards
where the children go and play
Let them pick them up
Let them learn a few things
Mar 28, 2020
Mar 28, 2020 at 11:00 PM UTC
10.
I’ve been awake for so long
now I’ve begun dreaming
And I’ve been to the end where the dreams lay in secret
It’s 8 am and I’m no longer sleeping
I’ve buried a few bones in my years
And the end of today is near
As the apocalypse kissed my lips
Hearts start to skip
Monsters and hero’s
Lipstick on mirrors
My vision grows clearer
Now I’m seeing
the casual miracles
As I break free
55 petals fell onto me
Red roses
Red roses
I’ve met the immortals
Its the race to become God
And I almost had lost it
Mar 25, 2020
Mar 25, 2020 at 10:03 PM UTC
The Red Moon waits above
The Dead City lights
The Director of Elements
Queen of the Sky
The 4 Sacred Winds
were given new life
Listen to the breath
of howling Death
As a New Sun rises
coming up in the West
Chronicle catastrophes
Confrontation of concrete cities
Calling for the confessions of cruel
communities
A cunning currency became the ruler
Civilians were converted to complying consumers
Condemning the cultures causing them to crumble
Creating social confusion
Convincing the masses
That the Kingdom of Heaven
belonged to the high ranking classes
Compassion cries in its coffin
Credit cards turned graves
Raising the rates as corpses decay
But Death was always free
Never required a fee
So let it be written on the graves
“From debt to death prices were paid”
Mar 17, 2020
Mar 17, 2020 at 12:19 PM UTC
I saw the angel of death riding on the back of a pick up truck
Emergency room pit stops
Picking cigarettes up
I just wanted an excuse for death to pick me up
The night never stops
and there was nothing
I could do
to sober up
But God sits back and
lights up a
cigarette
Inhaling life into
the Dead
Satisfied at a job
well done
Mar 9, 2020
Mar 9, 2020 at 9:29 AM UTC
~ Time pasted like the breath of one
sky into the next
For everyday in every hour we had lived our death
Now I see time is a dream
And all the things you said keep running in my head ~
There is a story inside of me
It sings in a velvet rich voice that is heard across the eleven skies
Of order and chaos and how Death had made its home inside of me
It screamed and it begged to be liberated
But I tamed that wild beast
And now I no longer fear death
It is my guest
It is my friend
And I wish my words could deliver you from fear
And I wish my words could deliver you to paradise
And I wish I could describe just how simple this paradox is or was or never really was
And if you could only understand the sacrifice I had made to be able to enter this metaphysical place with such grace
And lately it seems in silent nights when I cannot sleep in the mirror I look at myself and ask the same question
Over and over
Do you see what I see?
Do you?
And I know you do because just like you
I see everything too
But can you feel everything?
Or hear everything like I do?
If you could would you shatter like I did?
Your broken pieces cutting broken pieces of me
A million shards stealing my reflection upon reflection
Who have I become now?
Have I become infinite?
Have I become algorithmic?
Or am I still just another statistic?
And how long will it take for me to catch myself?
Will I wander forever in search
Lost in this fast paced abyss
Am I a sleeping princess
waiting for a charmed kiss
A kiss on the lips
that will bleed your name
Screaming in vain
in the glittering ghettos
that delivered social pain
My memories of you were written in
the hands of Heaven
I recorded the stories you told to the last syllable in time
And that was the last time I did ever hear from you
Hidden in the eloquent smoke and shadows
At the edge of the world where the barricades of Heaven fell
And only in the darkness
is the truth found
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 4:07 PM UTC
2.10.
Freedom accepts
its prison and shows
no mercy
Write a story on
war
your body holds
one
Use my lips
to dip the
words
you long for
Late night scheming
Lipstick lyrics
Radio playing
Forehead kisses
The dialogue
in your singing
eyes
God shed a tear
for you
Three Angels were saved
Bar tabs were paid
Fate stumbles home
always finding its way
Don’t you remember?
I do
Jan 30, 2020
Jan 30, 2020 at 9:42 PM UTC
Like a flower
I bloom
then I die
Tears drop at midnight
I live til the end of days
The stars watched amazed
Blood on my hands
Dirt on my face
I have seen heavens
barricades
In cheap love and
gunshots
Chain smoking expensive
cigarettes
Let me call you black magic
And only to thy Lord
I’ll admit
Maybe sometimes
I am the bad guy
Leave the ordinary behind
Leave the sterile good byes
That lay in my eyes
My eyes my eyes
That flutter shut
Lost in the big sky
Fulfillment of logistics
Made you a false witness
Sick with the fear
New perceptions
of reality
When I look in
a mirror
Jan 17, 2020
Jan 17, 2020 at 1:14 PM UTC
6.
Time is non existent
a man made
reality
Alone in the shadows
he will watch the
clock
When love is material
man will fall apart
On his knees he
will worship the
paper faced
false Gods
Who will see the
Miracles in the
littered streets?
Who will hear the
clothing-line
secrets?
The whispers of
God
And after one has
seen God
Where should they
go?
Is there a cure?
Or do they stay in
exile?
Hidden from the
world
Where they are free
Dec 2, 2019
Dec 2, 2019 at 12:19 PM UTC