I believed in you, everything you said, everything you did, I believed it was true. WHY? ... you gave your heart to me, I thought ... You gave your mind to me, I thought ... I told you things you kept it to yourself, I thought... walking by your side I was fearless, sitting by your side I was proud... To see you smile at me I was happy... I believed in you...until the day you left us...my mind and heart couldn't take the pain couldn't trust it was real...ohhh but it was real my world that I once knew was gone,what I believed in was lost. In its place was fear and sadness at what cost ?... Deceit and lies... who were you?who did I see walking with me? who did I feel sitting with me? I have to trust that you loved me as I loved you... My trust is gone forever dug deep in the muddied ground trampled on many times over... A black bird told me that morning, told me of the devastation to come, it took no flight stayed in my sight... I knew there was something wrong, knew I should close my mind and protect my heart I did nothing, made no escape . The drive was horrible the rain told me it was meant to be, but I closed my eyes not to see...I walked through the door on Shakey legs... there you were like never before, forever gone for me to adore... The rain poured and poured mixing with the tears of sadness and pain... they took you away, put you to rest, I believed in you I believed you were who you said you were, now I know that everything was untrue... You kept me in the dark kept me hidden from the reality. WHY? I will forever love the person I thought you were... I forever will cry for the person you were. Endless tears of fighting for the truth will always haunt me...
Feb 18, 2021
Feb 18, 2021 at 7:44 PM UTC
I was told he has a locked box inside of his mind that holds his most inner turmoil, His anger, His untold secrets of his daunting past...He once Told me he can't open that box, he keeps it bolted shut ! It cracks every once in a while that horrid box... I have seen those times, I have been in the path of his internal earthquakes... His eyes are the first to show... A dark shadowy cloud forms, letting me know, stand back... walk away... fear me... His hands pull inside themselves into tight fists at his unyielding sides... words can't be spoken the silence is deafening...I sit and wait for him to seal those cracks and come back to me...
Feb 17, 2021
Feb 17, 2021 at 8:49 PM UTC
Days run into years and blacks turn into grays ...
Childrens height measured clearly on the wall,now are numbers fading not really knowing how tall...
Teaching our babies love and life facts,now they are writing out there own contracts...
Life was so hectic,crazy and fast, now we sit reminiscing of long ago past...
We laugh at the memories with a tear in each eye... 2 were a handful and 1 was real shy...
Now they are grown we say it's okay, for all 3 are perfect each in their own way.
Overjoyed are we my spouse and me... For our love is still true.We have much to pursue.
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 7:44 PM UTC
Familiar remembrance, justified growing sadness, fearing the inescapable future.
Unabridged love never known.
Forever in darkness you may stay, if you only look inside yourself , not seeing what is real, who is constant. Shielded eyes never see.forever blinded. Always waiting. Never truly free.
Bloodlines, forever near, can't escape the unbridled drumming of the heart that can't feel.
Feb 9, 2021
Feb 9, 2021 at 7:59 PM UTC
Please release me from this burden of loneliness... This albatross forever holds me down... saddened and trapped by my own hurtful thoughts ... They hold me back from being alive... I need to escape from my own reality. Take a walk from my secret dungeon and
breath the fresh air of happiness...
The eyes and ears of
understanding are far too hard to catch. It's me and only me who can break though these steely walls. I need to see there could be a day I will laugh and smile without cold miserable feelings still inside of me.
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 2:26 PM UTC
When the light of day closes your path of sight, shadows come, the heat of the day is forgone to the cool moonlit night. The serenity of these shadows conjure up illusions only ones mind can see,Sit back and relax, watch the movement of the trees awaken your imagination to see,Not the leaves not the branches... but a beautiful mermaid breaking through the waters surface... Or a flying carpet with a genie sitting on top ... Don't be afraid to push inside your minds eye, find your creative side, what can you see in those shadows of dark and light?
Feb 7, 2021
Feb 7, 2021 at 8:41 PM UTC
Seconds...
Of peace, happy relaxed mind numbing peace
Minutes...
of relief, heart sting pulling relief
Days... of hope, real sunshine and rainbow making hope
weeks...
off fear, sad tear dropping fear
years... Of trying to understand why the hope in our life won't give us relief from the fear that will over power the peace of our every day existence.
Feb 6, 2021
Feb 6, 2021 at 2:38 PM UTC
Cry,scream, unending dream,Jump, fall, bang on the wall. Days into nights, nights into days, all in one big haze.fractured mind won't unwind. can't get out ! What's it all about? No words were spoken, all promises were broken.
Feb 4, 2021
Feb 4, 2021 at 11:23 AM UTC
Sweet kisses of sunshine and honeysuckle transport my mind back in time... Walking free my friend and me... No worries no foes, round trip no woes... on the bridge we took a peek... wading in the creek at days peak... the Moons light took us home at night... Morning sun brings us back to the guard shack...
Feb 1, 2021
Feb 1, 2021 at 10:30 AM UTC
Make me believe that you are true... Show me your heart anew... From the words you speak to your technique... For
you have my forever adulation without
hesitation ...
Jan 30, 2021
Jan 30, 2021 at 8:01 PM UTC