Hello?
Are you there?
Did I write this?
Do I care?
My brain is gone
and I don’t know where
My creative spark
My unique flare
Hello?
Are you there?
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 1:28 AM UTC
I wish I was sixteen
with an ivory ribbon in my hair
I didn't think I'd get this far
I didn't think that someday, again,
I'd care
...
Now I'm in the future
The crystal ball did not see
I thought I'd be
at the bottom of a lake
somewhere
for the fish to feed
...
Now I think I'm stuck here
in a future un-forseen
I wish I could have been a smarter girl
I wish I was sixteen
Jul 18, 2018
Jul 18, 2018 at 1:05 AM UTC
I want to feel your skin graze mine
hot and lazy
in the summer afternoon
light and delicate
as if almost on accident
as if almost on purpose
as if almost in love
I want wet kisses that stain the curve
of my neck from the lingering presence of your lips
The breeze caressing and cooling the marks you've left behind
Trailing goosebumps up my spine
I want to feel your warm tacky fingers sticking to my thighs like you've just messily eaten something sweet
Moving like slow molasses
Melting me in the humid heat
I want to stay right there
with the summer sunlight trickling through the window blinds
With a dull sitcom on TV
The cued audience laughter
muted in my mind
Playing my faux innocence
in that dreadfully pleasurable
moment of yearning for you
forever
Jul 14, 2018
Jul 14, 2018 at 3:37 AM UTC
I'd rather be the dirt
Nitrogen and worms
And I'd rather be the sky
Water vapor and birds that fly
The setting for the story's scene
It would all take place around me
I wouldn't have to feel
I'd rather be the ocean
Starfish and teal
I'd never love too much
Or worry that I wasn't enough
I'd just exist
Living but more importantly
Not really alive
May 30, 2018
May 30, 2018 at 2:13 AM UTC
You have your art
You have your music
You have your writing
You have your fighting
You have your sport
You have your research
You have your animals
You have your heart
You have your mind
I have nothing
And
I want to die
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 6:08 AM UTC
I awoke changed
I could fly
But then
a small boy caught me
in his net of lies
Flakes of azure drifted to the floor as I deteriorated beneath his oily fingertips revealing the transparency that lay underneath
It made me weak
Then began the tears
And no longer could I fly
with these rips in my wings
And he left me there
To die dehydrated in the heat of the sun
Not close to shelter
Not close to anyone
But then
You found me
I don't know how
You took care of me
Gave me water
Built me a garden
Where I could crawl around
Like I used to when I was a child
And it's started to help with the pain
After awhile
And even though I can never fly again
I live azure
I love you
You saved me
You'll always be a friend
Mar 18, 2018
Mar 18, 2018 at 12:51 AM UTC
We were both writers in a way
Both clever
Both artists and madmen
Disconnected from reality
Lost in translation
Bent with broken backs
From carrying the weight of humanity's misunderstandings
Yet somehow
We found our eyes for each other
I could finally see
That my capability for love was not broken
You were just looking for me
Mar 18, 2018
Mar 18, 2018 at 12:32 AM UTC
People like to think I have a beautiful mind
Sad and romantic
Just like in the movies
But the truth is
I don't really have one at all
My head is empty
My skull is hollow
Forever drifting
I just follow
Mar 16, 2018
Mar 16, 2018 at 6:40 AM UTC
I don't feel alive
Until I go outside
Until I'm engulfed in nature
Like how babies don't know they're human
Until they look in a mirror
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 8:05 AM UTC
The salt water washed away my face
As I made love to the man in the moon
In a gentle tide
I felt out of place
From the turbulence of the open sea chaos was my life
But his light bathed me
The sea glowed with a somber incandescence
The sea calmed almost to a halt
The sea slowly simmered within me
Burning
Me and The Moon
The storm was finally gone
Mar 5, 2018
Mar 5, 2018 at 11:49 AM UTC