SadHeartsAndBrokenParts

It's been over a year and I cannot forget it My heart always hurts and I tend to let it I strive for a connection but always regret it Lines get drawn and I overstep them It's a problem that I'm stuck in the past But for my heart time moves to fast Life tells jokes and I forget to laugh I close my eyes when reality floods back So maybe I'm not As fine as I thought Maybe I lose myself from time to time on accident This isn't a promise I'm just being honest When I say I hope I find myself before it all ends

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Mar 30, 2022

Mar 30, 2022 at 3:00 PM UTC

I hold onto things

It's been over a year and I cannot forget it My heart always hurts and I tend to let it I strive for a connection but always regret it Lines get drawn and I overstep them It's a problem that I'm stuck in the past But for my heart time moves to fast Life tells jokes and I forget to laugh I close my eyes when reality floods back So maybe I'm not As fine as I thought Maybe I lose myself from time to time on accident This isn't a promise I'm just being honest When I say I hope I find myself before it all ends

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I think therapy is helping. I think I finally figured out that we were always better off apart. I never was able to treat you as the queen you were and instead treated you like I treat myself, always begging for better communication, tripping over petty inconsistencies and desensitizing what it meant to be comfortable. I was always Mac and you were always Ari. While I am heartbroken, I cant blame you for the wreck. Nor can I use it to justify my reactions. It was poor timing and a case of the one locked inside his own head and the one trying to break those walls. You succeeded even though we didnt. Im grateful but still wounded. Like sacrificing an arm to prevent the spread of infection. I am struggling but will learn to live differently with this experience in mind.

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Mar 30, 2022

Mar 30, 2022 at 1:19 PM UTC

You succeeded even though we didn't

I think therapy is helping. I think I finally figured out that we were always better off apart. I never was able to treat you as the queen you were and instead treated you like I treat myself, always begging for better communication, tripping over petty inconsistencies and desensitizing what it meant to be comfortable. I was always Mac and you were always Ari. While I am heartbroken, I cant blame you for the wreck. Nor can I use it to justify my reactions. It was poor timing and a case of the one locked inside his own head and the one trying to break those walls. You succeeded even though we didnt. Im grateful but still wounded. Like sacrificing an arm to prevent the spread of infection. I am struggling but will learn to live differently with this experience in mind.

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There's a place inside My mind I find Atrocities like to hide Keeping my heart pure of things that would surely break it While there's no cure for the curse The lord's hands are surely at work Creating a labyrinth of self doubt and confusion making my mind just as fragile as it strong They say you should forgive your enemy But remember their name and I can guarantee that mine is written on every book and on every page Of everyone I have ever hurt or ever slain Or every person I have ever met Written in blood as black as it is wet They may have forgiven but I never forget

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Jan 26, 2022

Jan 26, 2022 at 4:54 PM UTC

"There's no undoing what is done. The experience is shared and lived through."

There's a place inside My mind I find Atrocities like to hide Keeping my heart pure of things that would surely break it While there's no cure for the curse The lord's hands are surely at work Creating a labyrinth of self doubt and confusion making my mind just as fragile as it strong They say you should forgive your enemy But remember their name and I can guarantee that mine is written on every book and on every page Of everyone I have ever hurt or ever slain Or every person I have ever met Written in blood as black as it is wet They may have forgiven but I never forget

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It's a gross misconception that anyone's really there I presume there's a dark void separating the reality we share I forget if I dream but something inside keeps me there And I chose to wake up because it's the night when I'm scared As the moon comes up and the chill hits the air I almost forget how lost in the void I get when I stare The seas kept pushing a dark mist when it hit The rocks never gave but the waves still hit I am not the rock or the ambitious sea I was the man on the hill with a pen and some tea

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Sep 29, 2021

Sep 29, 2021 at 10:10 PM UTC

Today

It's a gross misconception that anyone's really there I presume there's a dark void separating the reality we share I forget if I dream but something inside keeps me there And I chose to wake up because it's the night when I'm scared As the moon comes up and the chill hits the air I almost forget how lost in the void I get when I stare The seas kept pushing a dark mist when it hit The rocks never gave but the waves still hit I am not the rock or the ambitious sea I was the man on the hill with a pen and some tea

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Which of my people spoke of the lonely forest For I the poet too feel empty and cold like a grave I believe we mourn our dead like death is evil But they fear strange unknown darkness Some howl silent melancholy thunder from soul pain Always between alone, lost, or confusion Face this earth alone and walk by light young spirit Echo nevermore with every dark gray storm No man shrouds his heart come crypt You are who was there unseen as skin is made though it is bone Shudder shiver cry be as pale dread Scream bitter truth whisper about a broken imagination White raven how he did hide in cover of a black shadow Through dusk and fly at dawn He leaves in my crepuscular half dream I see him here more often now so fill my mystery midnight

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Feb 9, 2021

Feb 9, 2021 at 11:01 AM UTC

Fridge magnet poem

Which of my people spoke of the lonely forest For I the poet too feel empty and cold like a grave I believe we mourn our dead like death is evil But they fear strange unknown darkness Some howl silent melancholy thunder from soul pain Always between alone, lost, or confusion Face this earth alone and walk by light young spirit Echo nevermore with every dark gray storm No man shrouds his heart come crypt You are who was there unseen as skin is made though it is bone Shudder shiver cry be as pale dread Scream bitter truth whisper about a broken imagination White raven how he did hide in cover of a black shadow Through dusk and fly at dawn He leaves in my crepuscular half dream I see him here more often now so fill my mystery midnight

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I would like to bare my soul and lie in a bed of roses and know what it's like to fall asleep as my eyes are closing and hopefully, I begin to dream it's something I forget to do and I hope you say goodnight again and my heart stops feeling blue

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Oct 4, 2020

Oct 4, 2020 at 7:57 PM UTC

I Can Try

I would like to bare my soul and lie in a bed of roses and know what it's like to fall asleep as my eyes are closing and hopefully, I begin to dream it's something I forget to do and I hope you say goodnight again and my heart stops feeling blue

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can you see me? can you tell where I am tonight? do you hear me? I don't know where to find my mind

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Oct 4, 2020

Oct 4, 2020 at 7:47 PM UTC

drunken thoughts

can you see me? can you tell where I am tonight? do you hear me? I don't know where to find my mind

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please give me the time a humble request but always denied a chosen deity whose face replaced the one from before who has since been disgraced mangled and broken wings clipped due to fear an angel once mighty now bound to us here blessed with the gift of a terrible curse whatever made me follow was never rehearsed and I'm forever still searching for nothing I know golden opportunities I was forced to let go but more so over I just wish that I knew why I was abandoned by Truth fix me if you can for I've come unglued not broken anymore but pieced together without clues

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Oct 4, 2020

Oct 4, 2020 at 7:44 PM UTC

Untitled

please give me the time a humble request but always denied a chosen deity whose face replaced the one from before who has since been disgraced mangled and broken wings clipped due to fear an angel once mighty now bound to us here blessed with the gift of a terrible curse whatever made me follow was never rehearsed and I'm forever still searching for nothing I know golden opportunities I was forced to let go but more so over I just wish that I knew why I was abandoned by Truth fix me if you can for I've come unglued not broken anymore but pieced together without clues

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I have asked a question for so long I forget what it was I think it started differently than where it is now it haunts my tongue and stays on my mind I can't quite put it into words just yet I want to push more than I am I cant gain traction here in my frozen mind unknown hour golden war never oh

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Oct 4, 2020

Oct 4, 2020 at 7:27 PM UTC

a cliffs edge

I have asked a question for so long I forget what it was I think it started differently than where it is now it haunts my tongue and stays on my mind I can't quite put it into words just yet I want to push more than I am I cant gain traction here in my frozen mind unknown hour golden war never oh

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I cast a wary gaze on dreary days Wishing she could hear me With lifted eyes on the cloudy skies That float forever near me Holding broken lines of broken time Hoping to catch a glimpse In a ***** mirror something superior But cant even if I squint The rain beats down My clothes grow heavy My head is hard to lift Broken glass Lay in my chest My mind wet red brick I forget my name And who I was Before I felt the shift

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Oct 4, 2020

Oct 4, 2020 at 7:19 PM UTC

I have bad eyes

I cast a wary gaze on dreary days Wishing she could hear me With lifted eyes on the cloudy skies That float forever near me Holding broken lines of broken time Hoping to catch a glimpse In a ***** mirror something superior But cant even if I squint The rain beats down My clothes grow heavy My head is hard to lift Broken glass Lay in my chest My mind wet red brick I forget my name And who I was Before I felt the shift

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