I reach out and you pull away.
Eventually I will stop reaching,
what will you do then?
Jul 3, 2010
Jul 3, 2010 at 12:17 PM UTC
Your actions say you love me, and yet you pull away.
Those words you choose never to say.
May 21, 2010
May 21, 2010 at 5:20 PM UTC
Neither of us want to be alone. You stare at me as if I am a ghost. A distant shadow of a peaceful past.I apologized in advance, I was never going to be who you wanted me to be. I can only be myself, and sadly I leave wrecks in my wake. You stare at me, with a resentment in your eyes, I'm afraid I can not conformire to your world, I'm sorry you left the world we shared. I realized something the other day, you never shared that world with me. You were always on the outside looking in, pretending just as I had to pretend. Your no different than I, and yet you will never let me forget, how much better you are.
Feb 22, 2010
Feb 22, 2010 at 6:22 PM UTC
I feel asleep, and awoke several times, in the course of these actions, I felt as if I was still in the dream world.You came to me in this dream and kissed me gently. I felt as if the world could never be a more perfect place to be. Things changed, you changed, we changed. The dream became a nightmare, you became the cause. The once welcome dreams have turned into a dreaded cascade of horrible images, and scary realizations. The dream became a nightmare, and you became the dream.I missed who you were, I was afraid of who you became.In all of this, I lost myself, a recurring nightmare. Will I ever have sweet dreams again?
Feb 22, 2010
Feb 22, 2010 at 6:12 PM UTC
I wish I could control time,
all my mistakes would be wiped away.
I could see who I was suppose to be not
what life has made me.
I wish I could control my thoughts,
not allow all the worry and doubt to
slowly erode what little sanity I have left.
I wish I could control my "heart"
Not fall so fast and so quickly for
a dream that would never cross
over into reality.
I wish, the word I wish did not exist.
Instead I can always hope.
Feb 18, 2010
Feb 18, 2010 at 5:16 PM UTC
You were so bright you cast a shadow on me.
You were younger, but I always looked up to you.
I always wished I had your confidence, your smile.
I always hoped I could leave your shadow behind, but not like this.
I would give anything to have you back
see your smile again, feel the warmth of your hug.
Instead I only have pictures,
it is the only way I can see your face.
Even your voice has faded in my mind.
I could never forget you, but I have to let you go.
You said I would never be alone,
that you would always be there.
You lied, and now your gone.
Where does that leave me?
Alone...
Feb 16, 2010
Feb 16, 2010 at 6:26 PM UTC
We laid in the grass
touching, kissing, holding.
In the background there was a song,
you dedicated it to me.
Little did you know that the major chords lift,
and the minor cords show the depths of melancholy.
Maybe you should have dedicated a different melody.
Feb 16, 2010
Feb 16, 2010 at 5:55 PM UTC
I am not your saviour
I could never save your soul
Mine was ****** from go.
So please leave me alone.
Besides, you don't need me,
You are much better off alone.
Feb 16, 2010
Feb 16, 2010 at 5:47 PM UTC
I have lost myself,
in your kisses,
in your touch.
When you're inside of me,
for just a moment,
I forget reality.
I am engulfed with pleasure
inflamed by desire.
I've lost control,
and for once,
I embrace the chaos.
Feb 16, 2010
Feb 16, 2010 at 5:40 PM UTC
You liked the taste of tears
the harder I cried, the happier you appeared.
And I love to please.
So I cried for you,
I spilled all the secrets of my soul for you.
I love to please.
You left me, cold and broken,
my tears were not enough.
You needed blood, you needed pain, you needed agony.
I gave you those as well.
I love to please.
When you were done, when you had everything that was me,
I ceased to be.
Do I really love to please?
No, I just did not know
that pleasing you,
would break me.
Feb 16, 2010
Feb 16, 2010 at 5:33 PM UTC