i think of you
it's an amazing night
i think of you
i yearn a little.
i don't understand these feelings
so deep...fuck.
i yearn a little, a lot maybe
for you.
i think of you
but it's dumb and it's a misunderstanding of emotions
please talk to me.
do you know?
do you understand?
i want to call on you
i'm scared you'll leave me alone and more desolate than i already am
i'm killing myself with cigarettes
do you know?
i care for you
darling,
Liam
oh, how i care for you.
Oct 25, 2018
Oct 25, 2018 at 7:46 PM UTC
Pencil to paper
But page stays blank
Thoughts consume my mind
But no words speak out
I cannot comprehend how, why
or when I sank,
So deep, so deep...
Hard to keep the faith
When no faith is left to keep
Am I the big bad wolf
in the clothing of a sheep?
And if I am, how do I stop
these thoughts as they slowly creep,
before I'm knee deep in sin?
May 2, 2017
May 2, 2017 at 10:22 AM UTC
Narrow roads
Dishevelled hopes
Blank tomorrow's
Is this what lies ahead?
Searching for insolation
But cold shivers surround as the palm pushes me out
What did I do to deserve isolation of the hardest yet
The unrest of another day passing
Asking the question like
Is this life my best bet?
I've endured this devastation for too long
And strike after strike, I've resurfaced again
Tired
Mind completely unsound
Chained, pulled around and round
Unwilled and weak
But I still seek that light
And that hand to dust me off
Begging sometimes seems pointless,
For, what am I here for?
More frustration? More anger? More morbid depression and borderline insanity?
I no longer wonder what possibly could be wrong with me.
There's no specific thing, it's me.
Why are embraces cold and smiles hard?
Why constantly have up my guard?
Why give in to my darkness when I've been rabid for the light since small.
I knew that things would get here, no, I lie.
My Bible's shelfed and dusty
But I know what it says
About children
Who lie.
Nov 1, 2016
Nov 1, 2016 at 4:20 PM UTC
I adore the hairs at the back of your neck
Oh stranger, can I pick one?
I enjoy riding slowly on the waves of your delicate golden hair.
I'm feeling anxious, for if you turn
your pretty eyes will notice my declaration of love,
Your pointed nose will sniff out my guilt.
I'm a little scared.
Anonymous, how plainly you are dressed
But glancing around I see you looking better than the rest.
I'm bound by societal rules
Like a sunflower trapped in a dark room
Wishing I could run a finger down your nose
Love you with sweetest prose.
You're just there
Standing within arms reach
If I were feeling daring
I would turn you around and begin a speech
Standing behind you here, oh the bliss!
If I were feeling eccentric
I would lean forward and
Give you a
Quick
Kiss.
Sep 13, 2016
Sep 13, 2016 at 12:07 AM UTC
2:47
I'm about to sever
Ties with being awake
It's too late.
I realised that I loved him,
But it was too late.
Late, like when you miss the train
When you walk too slow and the taxi rides away,
Late, like when you see that flight take off
Knowing you should've been on it.
Jun 30, 2016
Jun 30, 2016 at 1:57 PM UTC
I smell baby powder
Here in my bed
Puts a cloud over
All the thoughts in my head
Most things I say
I regret having said
And all through the day
I prefer lying
Here
Just
Horizontally
Looking through my photo album of
Imaginary friends & make believe realities
Creating new ones
Over and over until
My current state
Disappears
Altogether.
Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 6:18 AM UTC
You can love me now
Rainclouds are only temporary.
Ger sleeps over tomorrow
He'll tell you all about it
At the carnival park
We'll be alone at last
'Coz I'ma little upset
That I'mnot pretty yet
Maybe you'll look around at
Beauty and vigour
And leave.
Once found a butterfly. He died.
Called him he coz his patterns were
Brown with a little green.
Wanted to save him.
Wanted him to live.
He had no direction
Just like me
He was flying in circles
He understood
What I was feeling
All he could.
Tried to take care
Make him alright
But it was a lie
And here he lies.
May 22, 2016
May 22, 2016 at 2:50 PM UTC
Rumble, shiver
Rain. Rain.
I'll do this
Again. Again.
Just to live it
Just to hear it
tumble down
Heavy on my roof
Its the only proof
That I actually feel
My heart is actually real
And oh, the smell after rain has cleared all sorrow
After its washed away all dirt in hearts
Makes me want to kneel and pray.
May 7, 2016
May 7, 2016 at 7:19 PM UTC
I like the rain.
But that doesn't mean I'm in pain,
It keeps me sane
In a way
because I can't blame
my pain
on the rain
taking the sun away.
I see clouds gather,
Thinking that I hate this weather
When the thunder came
I knew that this game I was playing
was unorthodox
Took a few knocks
Cut my dreadlocks
And when the rain finally came
I was dancing.
In the rain
Just dancing.
Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 4:49 AM UTC
Bullets reign,
You've grabbed my heart again.
My blood flows blue
Out of my chest again
Thought I'd fooled you
trying to turn the page
Was lying to myself
You returned with rage
Now it makes sense
Why this is not allowed
Myself I'll neglect
Trying to make you proud
Breaking guitar strings
Just to sing the blues
I had just built myself up
Now, you've left me in ruins
Doubts whirl like blue water
in hurricane sea
Unable to find the centre
Unable to just be
My mind freezes when I see you
Close my eyes, I'm drowning in blue
White shirt, blue jeans
golden froth from blue tea
Blue mouth
from disease unknown
Caused me to walk away
and leave my home
For days on end
Still brought no difference
And all I felt was fed up
With being so different.
Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 4:03 AM UTC