Memories from my past blending together.
Events in my life, that I try to remember.
Uncertainty in the way I think.
Moments vanish, gone in a blink.
The clouded thoughts fill my head.
Dark as blood from when I bled.
Evading conflict, my one addiction
Unable to separate, truth from fiction
Childhood echoes, in my mind I recall.
A last grasp of youth, before the last fall.
Thinking of how, it could have been.
Knowing first chances, can't be relived again
Jul 9, 2024
Jul 9, 2024 at 8:56 PM UTC
On the floor
An empty bottle next to me.
A hand full of pills
that will finally set me free.
A fake smile and laugh,
to cover all the lies.
I wipe away my tears.
No! I won't cry.
Waiting for an answer.
To the question that I fear
My thoughts asking to be heard,
but no one around to hear
I'm tired, in pain, I've given up.
Will this decision set me free?
Or will my soul be lost,
Forever in purgatory
The pills still await
for the choice that I'll decide
It is my choice,
its simple live or die
My selfishness and pity
Causing my heart to go blind
Sweet memories of my life and those I love.
Coming back strongly to my mind
Those few that I love
and the fewer that love me
I will not cause them this pain
or this to be their last memory of me
The pills tossed away,
Along with the darkness that's inside.
I will remember today,
As the day, I chose not to die.
May 28, 2024
May 28, 2024 at 4:23 AM UTC
What you get, isn't always what you see.
I've worn many masks, to hide the real me.
Too scared to show, who I really am
A fragile child in the body of a man.
My day full of pain, my thoughts all wasted
Bitter and sour, life's fruit I've tasted
But for you, just know, I tried to stay strong
Please remember our love, even after I'm gone
May 28, 2024
May 28, 2024 at 3:16 AM UTC
I'm jealous of the sun
How softly it caresses your skin
Your loving touch
Clears my conscious of its sin
I'm jealous of the moon
How your eyes look deeply into its light
Your laughter a soft breeze
On a warm summers night
I'm jealous of your words
Intimately falling from your lips
The definition of passion
The passion from our first kiss
I'm jealous of life
I can only live but one
It's a gamble you take
And yet some how I've still won
So many times I've asked
Why did you picked me?
You answer always the same
You and I were meant to be
Jun 3, 2023
Jun 3, 2023 at 12:05 AM UTC
All races joining together
To help protect the weak
Voices and cries of outrage
For respect is what we seek
Violence leads to more violence
While cooler tempers try to speak
The words falling on deaf ears
For respect is what we seek
Pay no mind to our skin color
If you do our future is bleak
We are all of God's children
For respect is what we seek
We need to rise above this madness
The protests need to be heard
Senseless killings need to stop
Respect and justice is what we ALL deserve
May 30, 2020
May 30, 2020 at 5:31 PM UTC
If you had one chance to make one wish
What wish would you ask?
It seems so simple but harder than it seems.
A difficult and daunting task.
Fame, glory or wealth?
Eternal youth would be so splendid.
Never getting old.
But loved ones lives will have ended.
Being able to see into the future?
Or being to read peoples thoughts?
Would you really want to know?
If they liked you or if they did not?
Wealth won't make people like you
A big house just the same
If you want to make your mark
Live your life without shame
I don't want popularity or extravagance
For me a simple wish would do
I would wish for peace of mind
With that so much more can come true
May 15, 2020
May 15, 2020 at 11:30 AM UTC
Things happen everyday
some things make us cry
It leaves only a question
And for me that question is why?
There's no real answer to this question
No matter how hard we try
Still in disbelief
To only question, why?
The outcome doesn't change
We push thru with a sigh
Tomorrow is not guaranteed
We look up and ask why?
Only God knows the reason
The reason we ask why
Put your fate into his hands
For his love we must rely.
Mar 24, 2020
Mar 24, 2020 at 4:46 PM UTC
Tattoo
The skin on my body a canvas
An artform with needles and ink
It was my choice and my decision
I don't care what others think
The images express who I am
It represents moments in my life
A koi, a dragon, a geisha
The names of my children and my wife
It's an ongoing project
So many hours on the artist's chair
Yes of course it did hurt
And no I don't mind if people stare
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
And beauty is what I see
If you don't like it keep it to yourself
I didn't do it for you, I did it for me
Mar 12, 2020
Mar 12, 2020 at 5:43 PM UTC
Life is so unexpected
and your tomorrow is not guaranteed
Fate snaps its fingers
Leaving loved ones only to grieve
Your memories we share
and so many tears we have shed
The pain so surreal
Thinking of our last words that were said
We take comfort to know
You're not in pain anymore
And that you're looking down upon us
With a smile at Heavens Door
We hope you know
That you're missed and were truly loved
Your with mom, dad and your brothers
Angels now watching us from above
Mar 12, 2020
Mar 12, 2020 at 2:53 PM UTC
Life is so unexpected
and your tomorrow is not guaranteed
Fate snaps its fingers
Leaving loved ones only to grieve
Your memories we share
and so many tears we have shed
The pain so surreal
Thinking of our last words that were said
We take comfort to know
You're not in pain anymore
And that you're looking down
Upon us from Heavens Door
We hope you know
That you're missed and are loved
Your with mom, dad and your bro's
Angels now watching us from above
Feb 21, 2020
Feb 21, 2020 at 4:46 PM UTC