What’s the point in living.
When you weren’t supposed to be alive?
What’s the point in loving.
When you couldn’t find the reasons why?
Why do we live in vain?
When we have to live alone.
It’s our choices against the world
And we’ll upset them as we go.
You’re in your box of thoughts,
Stuck wondering if they should know.
The world is a flaw
Stumbling from start to go.
Jun 2, 2023
Jun 2, 2023 at 2:45 AM UTC
I can take the criticism
I can hear compliments
But I can’t stand opinions
Like I ever asked for them
Sometimes it’s just that simple
And I need to vent
I swear I’ve changed
Can you just accept it?
The whole world falls apart,
And it keeps on turning.
When no one can stop it,
I’m told I can’t be positive.
But what’s the point in living
If there’s no silver linings
It’s that need for control
The god **** thought of it
I was living in vain
I thought I could stop it
Just stop. Don’t fight it.
I abused the ones I love
And justified it all.
By the thoughts in my head.
Control, I’ve none at all.
I Tried to make things happen
Like I could force it all
Did anything matter?
In the end it’s all gone.
I just made a mess
It grew bigger and bigger
Couldn’t hold it together, it all fell apart.
Did we mean the things we said?
Did they come from the heart?
My misconceptions of life
Took me away from the light
You’ll tell me I’m wrong
When you can even start
To be honest with yourself
Or hold love in your heart
Let’s be more accountable
Really honest with each other
Would it hurt that much
To be open and vulnerable?
I’ve no room for judgment
Or to hurt another soul
If we can’t love unconditional
Accept this life and just let go
Then we’re just fighting change
When it’s obviously inevitable
I think it does more damage
When our emotions take control
You wanna talk mental health
But I think it might be physical
Just listen, please trust me
I can’t change the past
Can’t take away the pain
But I will be a better me
I promise, I’ve changed.
Jan 14, 2021
Jan 14, 2021 at 3:40 PM UTC
If I could only hold this note
So you could find your way back home
Back to a place when you were young
When love is all there ever was
You stole a kiss, I can’t forget it
The one that started this connection
I swear it’s true but I don’t know
I just hope you feel it too
I don’t know what to do
Sit here patiently for you
I know that I can’t force change
I wouldn’t dare it, all the same
I just want to love you, as you are
Only you
Why do we make it difficult
It’s only love, that’s it that’s all
I hope you see your sisters face
Light up on your wedding day
So she can see the one I love
How proud she is, you’re all grown up
It doesn’t matter where we go
It will follow, if you sow
I’m just trying to trust this
But my patience wearing thin
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 8:31 AM UTC
What if the doctrines were all wrong?
Like god gave us pieces of a puzzle,
and scattered them across the world.
What if we’re supposed to get along.
So we can piece them all together.
In peace as one.
What language is this?
Who do I need to love?
That voice inside says
“There’s nothing to be scared of.”
“It’s only love.”
Sep 15, 2020
Sep 15, 2020 at 5:48 PM UTC
I want a beach house in the sand.
Walk out my back door, coffee in hand.
Down those stairs and onto the sand.
Watch the morning sun
Peak over the water
Lapse the waves
that splash my feet
I can feel the sun in everything
Energy and heat
There’s something more to this place...
Yeah...
I want a beach house in the sand,
That place was lovely.
Sep 12, 2020
Sep 12, 2020 at 6:11 PM UTC
I’m taking hits from every direction
And I can’t seem to stand on my feet, without you
You’re a constant burden, and the source of my aggression
I hate admitting I miss you
I’m so sick and tired of you my dear
Been steady running in circles but not this year
I’m so set on finding some space to clear
My head of all conversation I still hear
I’m finally pulling myself from the wreckage
Battered and bruised, there’s not much left to lose
I’ve got places and directions to choose
Stay the **** out of my life, I hate you
Those beautiful, green eyes
They wreak havoc, your disguise
I’m a wrecking ball of hatred
You can see it in my eyes
A swift swinging hammer
I’m just saying my goodbyes
Sep 9, 2020
Sep 9, 2020 at 8:41 PM UTC
I keep on hoping maybe one day
You and I can push our differences aside
Even in a perfect world
You’ll never change
I’m so sick and tired of living this way
What do I have to do to make you understand,
That I want nothing to do with you.
You’re more than just a problem.
You’re a nuisance and a thief.
You stole my feet from under me.
When I’m with you I let a piece of myself die
Holding onto me, something’s just not right
I’ve got cheap emotions and they’re bleeding through
I wear them on my sleeve and it’s all for you
Even in a perfect world
You’ll never change
There’s no sense for me to be living this way
What do I have to do to make you understand,
That I want nothing to do with you.
You’re more than just a problem.
You’re a nuisance and a thief.
You ripped my heart right out of me
When I’m with you I let a piece of myself die
Holding onto me, something’s just not right
Sep 9, 2020
Sep 9, 2020 at 8:40 PM UTC
I caught myself reminiscing again
I just don’t understand why things change from what we planned
I made mistakes, I wear them well
I’m just trying hard to prevail
And I don’t have much confidence
Left to take advice from all my friends
And it seems so ******* useless
See I always stray away in the end
I’ve dug a hole too deep
Find it hard to find release
In these situations you complicate
It’s these growing pains that I’ve grown to hate
Now I lay alone on my bedroom floor
Stare at an endless sky, there’s a light that never dies
And a bottle in my hand that just seems to pass the time
I’m just trying hard to survive
I’ve become what I always feared
And I miss what I once held dear
I just don’t understand why things change from what we planned
I caught myself reminiscing again
Sep 9, 2020
Sep 9, 2020 at 8:38 PM UTC
Little plastic signs cover all the lawns
Spend your money for the rich leaders cause
Here to show your support
For the ones looking for a job
Here to take your money
To argue all the opinions
Like it even matters at all.
“Another a**hole’s name”
Broken promises, led astray
Money claims everything
Is there no room for love at all?
Where’s the unconditional?
Screaming and fighting
Trusting all the lies.
I won’t play that game.
No room to control change.
Live your life,
Cause it’ll never be the same.
Electors finding rage, they will hate
But love will be the only way.
Sep 7, 2020
Sep 7, 2020 at 10:19 AM UTC
Can you open up for me?
Vulnerability
Tell me all your fears
Tell me all your dreams
I wanna be your medicine man
In this world of pain
Hand me all your baggage
Let go of the pain
Let the lovin’ take hold
I can be the aid
If you just let me
Sep 7, 2020
Sep 7, 2020 at 10:13 AM UTC