It's unfair
How when people leave
Everything that reminds you of them
Tends to stay
It's unfair
How I can't just move on
Without dying a little everyday
It's unfair
...
~*It's unfair how much I miss you and
it's unfair how much I really shouldn't.
Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 8:13 PM UTC
...
Because in between the notes
That hum a melody through my veins
I find the overbearing reality
Of the ghosts that scream out
In a rising soprano
So out-of-tune that I'm afraid
The pieces left of my heart
Will shatter into nothingness
And leave me empty
With no music to describe
The burden of these demons I carry
...
Most of all,
I'm afraid
To live in this void
Of infinite silence
That forever threatens
To swallow me whole
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 6:21 PM UTC
...
But in the deafening sounds of silence
There lay thousands of silent screams
Never to be heard by anyone
But the ghosts that haunted
The sinners and the ******
...
If only you could hear
The echoing of their voices
In the corners of my mind
In the emptiness of the night
Then and only then
Would you understand
That behind my smiles
And stupid childish jokes
Lies a thousand unheard screams
Demanding me
To let them break out
And finally be free
...
*Because I am the Tortured and the ******
May 6, 2018
May 6, 2018 at 12:56 AM UTC
...
But the second I chose
To embrace who I was
I plunged into a darkness
So thick
I lost my own reflection
...
and When I finally emerged
I saw a once-broken girl
Turn into the very demons
That tormented her
...
And she then turned
Into the very monsters
That made her suffer
In the land of supposed dreams
...
And that little girl
Was wiped from existence
Just. Like. That.
Never to be found
Ever again
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 9:33 PM UTC
...
And Yet
I will not seek the forgiveness
I know I don't deserve
And
I will not seek the redemption
My demons wouldn't allow
...
And I will live on
With the heartbreaking truth
Of how someone
With a heart as pure as you
Could never be near
A monster like me.*
Apr 29, 2018
Apr 29, 2018 at 9:55 PM UTC
Is it wrong
To wish
That for all the scars I own,
I could reopen just one
To let my demons spill out
So as to cleanse myself
Of the torturing sins
I carry as a weight
Within my veins...
But Alas
That would do nothing
But let more darkness in
...
Apr 26, 2018
Apr 26, 2018 at 9:54 PM UTC
...
And that was when
I finally realized
My demons made home
In the valleys of where
My wounds ran so deep
They became scars
Full of ghosts and regret
Echoing nothing but
The deafening screams
Of silence once lost
Apr 26, 2018
Apr 26, 2018 at 2:23 PM UTC
I wish for you
Perfect sunsets
And early morning day dreams
I wish for you
Perfect smiles
And living life to the extremes
...
I wish for you all that
And so much more
But most of all
I wish-
I wish I could be
The one you spend
All those memories with
And I wish that
More than you could ever know
...
And yet,
When you looked at me
With tears in your eyes
And asked why
I couldn't stay
...
Well behind my broken smile
Was the truths that stung to say
...
Because-
I'm not the kind of girl you fall in love with.*
Apr 25, 2018
Apr 25, 2018 at 11:01 PM UTC
I think
I'm finally starting
To see myself
Through your eyes...
So is it bad
That all I see
Is a sad girl
Too broken
To give her heart away?
Apr 24, 2018
Apr 24, 2018 at 9:56 PM UTC
We grow a little older
Every second of every day
And sometimes we forget
The night will always be young
Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 3:55 PM UTC