How do you begin to describe your feelings of loneliness
and your mental seclusion from the world
when your surrounding world
only sees the built facade of belonging.
Feb 9, 2022
Feb 9, 2022 at 11:15 PM UTC
I don’t know if therapy
legitimately helped me stand tall
or just get better at covering up
the moments when I mentally fall.
Jan 24, 2022
Jan 24, 2022 at 9:21 PM UTC
All it took was one look from me
and you would have bent over backwards so easily.
I took advantage of the love you had
because I needed to fill a void so bad.
It’s true you knew how I felt for I wasn’t fooling anyone
but I still feel guilty for everything I have done.
I can see that you try and try and try
but this time you will have to tell me goodbye.
I will stop you from coming back and begging for more
because I need you to move on and realize you don’t deserve this unreciprocated love anymore.
Jan 16, 2022
Jan 16, 2022 at 11:06 PM UTC
What do you do
when your mind is your greatest weapon
but your most destructive enemy?
Nov 18, 2021
Nov 18, 2021 at 10:12 PM UTC
Take the tear soaked dirt from around your knees
And mark your face to prepare for war
Because the battle for your life
is about to charge you like never before.
You will stand face to face with the darkest of demons
as they screech in your ears that you’re worth is zero
Your feelings are inadmissible and
No one loves you enough to be your hero.
These evil belligerents will be the effects of
the most damaging kind of rejection
the most destructive criticism of your reflection
the most vile act of a man’s unwanted ********
Yet your future is proof that
even with a trembling body and labored breath
even with a soul draped with trauma
you are more fierce than the call for death.
You will make it through every battle
You will end the raging war within
You will experience the sweetest kind of love
and you will rediscover an authentic grin.
Just because you made it through
doesn’t mean all fights are over
But, you will think back to this time
and know how to allow your strength to takeover.
You can do hard things.
Nov 18, 2021
Nov 18, 2021 at 10:00 PM UTC
The Demons are back again,
Haunting me with darkness,
Painting me with insanity,
Those sick little artists.
It's all my fault,
All the years of failure
And the neglect to cure this disorder,
That controls me.
The sadness consumes me,
The water is getting higher,
I can't breath, I'm drowning
In everything that becomes of me.
My mind bubbles with regret
And burns in pain
For ignoring this illness
That makes me insane.
My heart beats slowly
As it frowns in silence,
My blood rushes around
in heavy violence.
My body shakes
And I'm short on breath.
I'm becoming attacked by this panic
And I become a mess.
It's maniac ways
Every days the same.
It's calm and it's crazy
And I'm always fighting to stay Sane.
Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 10:40 PM UTC
Looking out over a Mountain View
was my idea of escaping.
But my feelings of
inadequacy,
my shortage of happiness,
and my lack of love
only grew.
It wasn’t an escape.
It was emotional poverty with a view.
Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 10:30 PM UTC
I cleansed the knife
you stabbed in my back
and cauterized
my bleeding wounds
with it.
Jan 23, 2021
Jan 23, 2021 at 11:39 PM UTC
Im not sober tonight
laying alone in my bed.
Because I’m drunk
on the memories
of what we were
and overdosing
on the thoughts
of what we will never be.
Oct 16, 2020
Oct 16, 2020 at 10:41 PM UTC
My mirror reflects someone
I don’t recognize
but I love her
and I respect her
more and more
everyday.
Oct 4, 2020
Oct 4, 2020 at 2:23 AM UTC