
Its the waiting... the long stagnant periods of oh well, nothing.
I can't sit here Presumptiously and pretend I have it all. Well, I do. But its the innovation and knowledge that created the life I live. I think just the thoughts of impatience drives me off the wall. Waiting for my music to get released, waiting for the signing. The contracts and deal takes too long. Who knew behind the scenes would need this much time.
Mar 8
Mar 8, 2026 at 6:52 AM UTC
In a maze...
Teardrops as I rain, sparkles of iridescent fire 🔥
Birds speak , and I reach a place that is not known
Glazed upon the wilderness of apprehension and proximity
Restless, exhausted
Energetic and frustrated
When will I leave?
Jun 30, 2025
Jun 30, 2025 at 1:07 PM UTC
Another daydream, just another nightmare
I shrug it off, sometimes it bites
Just maybe, I shall take my flights...
Someday soon, I will leave as I've been pleading in rage and anger.
Flip the page, this is not a cage
A lesson, I have a place to stay, Cosmetics, clothes, luxuries, a shower, eternal food.
But an uncle that hates me
I wish My freedom and Independence
I wish for My financial success
I wish to teleport to the people that love me
I wish to be what I was not looking
Burying myself in my lost tears, hopeless screams and cries for Help.
But nothing.
My thoughts have hit a huge jump
I am not waiting, I am being.
What can I do when I chose this family on earth?
I have to go back home
How?
Shall I ever be bestowed upon a life that taught me to grow....
In isolation, I froze
Apr 21, 2025
Apr 21, 2025 at 1:37 PM UTC
I WANT HELP FROM THE PEOPLE WHO KNOW AND UNDERSTAND ME
I AM ACCEPTED IN ANOTHER WORLD 🌎
I AM LOVED AND SUPPORTED...
HOWEVER , I FEEL LIKE I AM LIVING A NIGHTMARE IN THIS "REALITY" AWAY FROM MY WORLD AND PEOPLE.
HELP HELP HELP
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
I NEED TO GO BACK TO MY WORLD
Apr 21, 2025
Apr 21, 2025 at 1:27 PM UTC
The girl I once knew, she wasn't there anymore.
I've lost myself in my pain, desperate inner pleadings.
Wanting help, but only getting help from the wrong people.
People who are, not good for my energy, me.
I see my twin infront of me, Alisha... Where are you?
Gone. I long for Independence, financial freedom. My eyes empty and dry.
I lost myself, in my desperation. My face cracked.
Save me
Apr 21, 2025
Apr 21, 2025 at 1:24 PM UTC
I've shifted, I'm teleporting
I'm going through a massive spiritual Awakening, my 40millionth one of this lifetime
Purging, releasing, healing trauma wounds
Depression needing to be felt in order for it to be delt with and healed
Feeling emotions and pain
Shape shifting and shedding
Peeling skin again, transformation and rebirth
Reborn into a wild *****
My new skin will be naked and stronger than before.
It's something I need to undergo for my next level.
It's tough, my body is dealing with immense pain and burnout
Soul ascension...
Shifting my 12D self into this reality
I am exhausted, and so burnt out...
But it needs to be done
Sleep, just sleep...
Connect and feel like light codes transcend you ✨️
Dec 11, 2024
Dec 11, 2024 at 6:30 AM UTC
I've lost myself
It's been a while, but I really lost myself
I hate this **** city, but I had to come back here for a reason
I miss my friends, and I'm missing out on really good work opportunities 😪
I'm also missing out on my year end function.
But life really ****** me up to the point I don't even have a place to stay in the other city.
ALONG WITH THE STALKERS THAT IM RUNNING AWAY FROM
60 BREAKDOWNS LATER...
I almost broke my hand from such a massive anxiety and asthma attack
This air is suffocating
I feel constantly lethargic and fatigue
I feel like I lost my liveliness
I've sunk down in severe depression
Thus city is haunting
I've never felt this unhappy in years
I need a place to stay...
I'm a dying corpse here
I'm hanging onto nothing, just pain
Dec 9, 2024
Dec 9, 2024 at 3:26 PM UTC
**** this city, I wanted to come here, and i really like it here
But the hot dry air
The fatigueness and drainage from the heat
The dry air and damage to the lungs
No energy
The heat is damaging
I would like to go back to my other city, but I also don't want to at this time.
I came here for a reason and I want to continue on with that reason, but the air is so bad that you have to no choice but to sleep all day everyday
Don't get me started on its inhabitants. Corporate, the people like to control others.
It's completely rigid and inflexible
It's home, I grew up here, but why does it have to be like this?
Not bliss, I miss the optimism and hope
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 2:11 PM UTC
Don't become a performing artist if you can't handle the rumors and hate that comes with it
Don't say you want to be famous and you end up doing the arts only to get famous, then you see what the reality of it actually is
Remember, the way other people see and talk about celebrities will the same way people are gonna gang up, stalk and talk about you.
Do the arts for the passion, fame is actually destructive and toxic as ****
I wanted to **** myself many times because of it.
I do this **** for the passion, I've always been a performer, it's in my DNA.
I love dramatic arts and theory on Othello and many historical figures that brought film and poetry to life
This is my love
Poetry , music , art , painting
I will retire and paint for the rest of my life to music
Nov 23, 2024
Nov 23, 2024 at 10:49 AM UTC
A confession based on my experience as a new artist in the industry
1. Neighbours are always completely obsessed with me to a point that it actually destroys their own life. Their own misery puts them in **** I was accused by one of the jealous neighbors that I am a lookalike of "Kenji King". Kenji King whom is my stage name. She was so obsessed and tried everything to prove that I am not Kenji King, just an impersonater and identity thief. To the point that she actually got charged for false accusations and ended up getting arrested. Her father whom went to prison with her had a heart attack and died.
2. Another neighbour, heard that I quit my career in the industry. Her husband was a creepy stalker who couldn't get my name out of his mouth. They had a fight over me cuz he was stalking me and she was upset that "he made me quit my career". She kicked him out.
3. Other people are stalking and talking about how im "gone off the rails"
Remember, everything is a projection, stay happy 😊
Hahaha, yeah **** this is my life
Nov 23, 2024
Nov 23, 2024 at 10:42 AM UTC