She's crying
For the fantasy of a life
That never existed
Dec 18, 2024
Dec 18, 2024 at 11:56 PM UTC
There's nothing left
Of you and me
I held on so long because I believed
If I could take a little more pain
Maybe you'd stop hurting me
Finally I see
There's nothing in your eyes
When you're breaking me down
When you're watching me reel
Nothing
I don't know why I thought you would change
Is this hell my punishment
For wanting so badly to be loved
Is this what I deserve
For being so pathetic
Maybe I got what was coming to me
I thought by now I'd have the strength to leave
But here I am again
Looking out from the bottom of my grave
And all I see is rain
Too tired to climb out
I don't think I can escape
My worthless life
Circling the drain
But it all feels so far away
Dec 13, 2024
Dec 13, 2024 at 4:32 PM UTC
There is something rotting me from inside
Bleeding me out and gnawing
Suffocating all light
Merciless
Oct 31, 2023
Oct 31, 2023 at 8:34 PM UTC
I hang in this suspension
Of liquid memory
Self-imposed stasis to keep
Change from corrupting me
Limbo - a kind of pergatory
Where I may be found
Endlessly searching for time
That I cannot get back
I couldn't be there today
I hope you know I'm sorry for that
I tried waking up
But I always turn back
Sep 25, 2022
Sep 25, 2022 at 11:07 PM UTC
Too tired to tell you why again
We've beaten this so hard
I'd say it's dead
You say I gotta have it my way
Do I?
My patience for your ******** is wearing thin
'Cause from where I stand
You're the one who can't
Come to terms with it
So much easier
To just pretend
Isn't it?
Feels like I'm talking to a ghost
But there's still blood under your skin
Thought that I was getting close
But you don't want to understand
How long?
How long?
How long?
How long do you think I'll be holding on?
Do you expect forgiveness?
Do you think I'm made of stone?
Do you think my heart's unbroken?
Don't act like I should have known
Feels like I'm talking to a ghost
But there's still blood under your skin
Thought that I was getting close
But you don't want to understand
Aug 24, 2022
Aug 24, 2022 at 5:44 PM UTC
I haven't called you in tears in awhile
You say I'm doing so well
You say you're so proud of me with a smile
Now there's no more worrying
No more waiting on me
Because everything's ok now, right?
No, and I know it's not
And I know it won't be
The truth is that every step I take toward strength and stability
Pushes me farther from everything that feels like home
And now here I am making everyone so happy
But inside I just feel ******* alone
Aug 24, 2022
Aug 24, 2022 at 1:13 PM UTC
I was never concerned
With how close I was to perfection
Until you asked me to change
Again and again
All for your love
And I did, in desperation
Till there was nothing left
Of who I really was
Or what I was made of
I guess nothing in this world comes for free
Oh nothing, nothing
In this world
Comes for free
Apr 19, 2022
Apr 19, 2022 at 2:23 PM UTC
Sort of still angry
Sort of want to scream
Sorta still thinking 'bout
The things he said to me
One foot out the door
But it's so cold outside
So I stay halfway in with you
Though I'm not satisfied
I know you see it, too
That look on my face
Misery, loneliness
Too scared to walk away
And I'm here in the dark
And time passes by
And I still can't feel a thing
Still afraid to try
Still waiting to die
Still don't know what
I thought I would become
A life meaning nothing
A life without love
A life never growing
A life just like a setting sun
Jan 10, 2022
Jan 10, 2022 at 1:50 PM UTC
I know my worth and it's not a lot
I tried my best but it just don't stop
I fall apart again and this time
I'm not gonna say goodbye
You're not gonna hear me cry
I've been on the fence I'm sorry
But now it's time to do what's right
And maybe if I'm being honest
I was never in the fight
You don't wanna throw the towel
But I'm not coming back this time
Not this time
Jun 11, 2021
Jun 11, 2021 at 2:22 PM UTC