Am I really upset over this shopping cart?
This cart that is full of heavy and huge products.
Am I upset over how many people may make me stop and block my path in this store?
Every single one, just trying to get by, with their very own shopping cart.
No.
It must be this feeling of being unheard.
To follow and soon becoming lead.
But where is progression when those who follow, don’t.
Annoyance, overstimulation, anger, boil.
Every stop, turn, push.
Stop.
Turn.
Push.
Is it my fault we’re here?
Perhaps next time I’ll come alone.
Dec 11, 2023
Dec 11, 2023 at 8:10 PM UTC
I tried so hard to make you notice me, see me in a different light.
I knew we were complete opposites,
And you didn’t feel the same way,
But I swear there were times where you made me question if that’s what friends were supposed to say.
I made one small mistake and like always, there’s a consequence to pay.
You don’t want to be friends anymore, you feel betrayed and hurt.
I would never want you to feel this way.
Crying over you would be silly, so instead I stay quiet with the pain in my chest and the numbness in my mind.
You were never the best to me and there were times I thought you took advantage of my kindness, but that ended up being my downfall, how ironic.
There’s so many memories of you in my phone, In my life, and I can’t help but look and think.
Whether i like it or not, you have affected my whole life. I look at things and places with you in my mind.
How will I manage to pretend we were never anything when we see each other at work? Strangers to close friends to strangers again? Is this the cycle that marks our end?
I never wanted it to end.
At least now you see me in a different light, but it’s the one i tried to avoid.
Mar 18, 2020
Mar 18, 2020 at 11:24 AM UTC
Am i exaggerating?
Due to all the friends I've lost,
all the things I've gone through.
Is it all because of me?
Am i manipulative?
Am i toxic?
I try my hardest to keep them and love them with all of my heart.
and they still leave.
I am not good enough.
In my heart, i know it is not me.
but sometimes it is better to think as myself as the bad guy.
Because i'm tired of being the one who keeps getting hurt.
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 6:30 PM UTC
Once you drift away from affection, you get used to the cold.
Until you remember how it felt like to be embraced in the genuine warmth of someone’s love.
Oct 29, 2019
Oct 29, 2019 at 10:08 PM UTC
I won’t lie.
Once those eyes met mine,
I imagined.
When I watched you run your hands through your hair multiple times,
I daydreamed.
But when I saw that genuine smile and laugh you gave once I made you laugh,
I fell.
Sep 18, 2019
Sep 18, 2019 at 9:51 PM UTC
While waking up,
in that dream state of mine.
I imagined that you texted me,
and my heart leaped.
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 10:59 AM UTC
Wind hustling through the night sky.
Blue light shining from above.
Swinging to the top.
Falling back down.
The sound of laughter and talking muffled.
My thoughts louder.
“I’m fine.”
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 9:42 AM UTC
I’m used to it when this happens.
Closest friends to strangers.
So why does it hurt so much?
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 9:32 AM UTC
I see your messages in others.
I smile.
then cry.
Because I remember.
Maybe I cherish those memories too much
that I can’t let you go.
Yet I’m no one to you now.
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 9:30 AM UTC
There’s this order I go in.
I find.
I fall.
And I forget.
And as much as it hurts.
It leaves in a flash.
Because every feeling I felt towards you
Is every feeling you have for them.
And that’s okay.
It’s just time to follow the cycle.
Jun 4, 2019
Jun 4, 2019 at 1:09 AM UTC