My heart has seen the day
That my eyes have only dreamed
But now as dull as clouded sky
My heart misses your beats
Focused on within
Distracted from without
Cluttered minds and sleepless nights
A fumbled distant bout
My heart has seen the day
No longer met by sight
Muted colors faded tones
In this all, You're right
My heart has known the day
In this I must hold tight
When fickle feelings come to play
Reposture towards His might
Nov 28, 2019
Nov 28, 2019 at 12:04 AM UTC
Which direction does peace take
When who you love is at stake
When divided roads become the foe
Of all the heart does not know
One step alone to leave the rest
Can the soul withstand this test
Not out of fear, reason, or hate
But discernment guided from heaven's gate
With decisions of love and freedom of choice
Comes a quiet whisper of a quieter voice
Love could mean coming, staying, or going
Regardless love will mean a peace in unknowing
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give it to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid."
-John 14:27
Nov 28, 2019
Nov 28, 2019 at 12:00 AM UTC
Reach out and seek His hand
The day has turned to night
Darkness impairs vision's skills
Let Him be your sight
Even in the night there is nourishment
Even in the dark there is growth
The hope of morning perceivably far
He is with you as you go
Loneliness surrounds
As deep as night's despair
Can someone who seems so far
In this all be near?
As dawn begins to glow
Misted eyes of dew
The journeyed body's painting
Old has turned to new
Even in the day there is suffering
Even in the light there is pain
Illuminate all these miseries
Beloved, He calls by name
Nov 27, 2019
Nov 27, 2019 at 11:55 PM UTC
Sudden turns
You come first
Change your mind
Ignore the hurt
On or off
Night or day
Black or white
No room for gray
A kind word
A falling tear
Bravery
Paralyzing fear
No time for dawnings
Or colored days' turnings
Evening shade
Or rising mornings
Gradience dies
Contrast is born
Shadows black
Against the sun
Tidal waves
Desert dry
Every low
Every high
Sudden turns
You come first
Change your mind
Ignore the hurt
Nov 27, 2019
Nov 27, 2019 at 11:52 PM UTC
A final breath
And comes the light
My soul to You
It takes its flight
This light I see
I’ve seen before
When on my knees
You, I adore
Within the sun
Of shining gold
Behold the One
Who holds our world
Through the Son
Is to the Father
He holds my hand
And leads me farther
Into the light
Into the Host
Accompanied by
His Holy Ghost
He pulls me home
Within the light
A familiar feeling
A glorious sight
Jan 8, 2017
Jan 8, 2017 at 8:39 PM UTC
I ask for peace
and You hold my hand.
I ask for mercy
and next to me You stand.
I ask for truth
and I drink from Your cup.
I ask for love
and You show up.
You say You are faithful
though I do not believe
for I ask for all these things
but You say You're all I need.
But when I picture peace
is it not Your hand in mine?
And when mercy is my desire
is it not a craving for Your time?
When truth is in question
do I not yearn for Your Word?
And when Love become the answer
is that not found in You, Lord?
You tell me You are faithful
as I begin to see
that all these things I long for
are all that You would be.
Sep 12, 2016
Sep 12, 2016 at 10:15 PM UTC
I am restless
and constant
unable to pause
I am fearful
and lost
without my Lord
I am running
in circles
and thinking so short
I am lonely
and useless
My will has no sort
I am peaceful
and worthy
Your will is my fort
I am running
straight forward
and changing the world
I am joyful
and loved
when with my Lord
I am passionate
and moved
unable to pause
Oct 23, 2015
Oct 23, 2015 at 11:00 PM UTC
I was in a white space, of infinite planes
I was searching and seeking, my heart was in pain
There was a man standing there, my movement he barred
As I noticed his hands, two heart breaking scars
I continued to strive to peer around his corner
But, the stone, the man gentle, his face was familiar
Each time I put effort to look for the good
He redirected my gaze to where he stood
I need better, not this, I need the best
But there was no competition, there was no test
For holding me close, was the Sun of all Sons
The One who surpasses, the One who overcomes
The One who is holy, and wholly just
The One who I know, I always can trust
The East and the West held me close to His heart
In one instant I knew, I felt there no part
The better I looked for did not exist
For the best held me close in this moment of bliss
So why did I seek for something more?
For my previous focus, was distracted, was poor.
Oct 23, 2015
Oct 23, 2015 at 10:54 PM UTC
A simple crash is all it took
To encourage a nervous and curious look
Into the bathroom where my mother lay
A blood bath around her, in the middle of the day.
*Oh honey, please just look away
You should not see this, please do not stay.*
Self-help never works, I could finally see
As she covered her tracks, her eyes never leaving me;
But the evidenced razor lied on the floor
And the pile of pills poured out by the door.
*Oh baby, please do not let your father know, too
He wouldn’t understand, the way that you do.*
And all of my words held deep inside
Hung on my tongue, my lips were dry.
All of the times you spoke only through words
Left me so confused, viewing life backwards.
*You are beautiful, and just so pretty
it is the inside that counts, don’t be so petty.*
Oh but momma, can’t you see
How do you expect me to love me?
When you have so much hatred towards yourself?
Enough to clear off the medicine shelf,
Enough to starve, binge, and purge;
You always told me to have some courage.
Enough to cut into yourself: thin and long lines;
You always told me, we would be fine.
But how could this painful sight be so?
Please bow now, mommy, an award for your show.
Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC
Don’t be so hard on yourself
Give a gracious gift
And feel your load lift
Your shoulders are now light
My, look at all your might
All that you can do
By trusting in more than you
By giving it up to Him
As he forgives your sins
Even when you can’t yourself
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 12:30 AM UTC