I just wanna be me
And also feel normal
Can't I have both?
Sep 10, 2020
Sep 10, 2020 at 2:33 AM UTC
You gazed at the endless field of flowers
Stalking and scanning them by the hour.
So, you plucked one to keep in your room
Now this one awaits their doom.
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Sep 10, 2020
Sep 10, 2020 at 2:16 AM UTC
I had three bowls of cereal today
Is that interesting? Is that strange?
What if I told you it was Cheerios
A cereal I intensely hate?
Suddenly I'm in love
Suddenly life is beautiful and so is fate
Even if I am in misery, in the darkness above
This shallow pain, this filter over my youth
It cannot touch the core of my being
The beliefs I stand for, they still hold true
If I could opt out, choose not to exist
I would turn it down with great satisfaction
Hell and hell all over again with pleasure
I feel lucky to be alive
I am lucky I get to taste
Even the ********* cereal...
Thanks, Cheerios
You're actually pretty ******* great
Sep 6, 2020
Sep 6, 2020 at 2:49 AM UTC
In this ferris wheel
I find my gestation and my birth
In this eternal loop
I take my last breath on this earth
In this complex world
I see the rest of my life unfold
In this life I live now
I visit the others I may have known
In this one moment
Every story can be told and shown
In this fixed space
All of time, all the times, times to be revolve
Sep 1, 2020
Sep 1, 2020 at 2:02 AM UTC
You can wish and hope for more
Without being ungrateful
Without making yourself poor.
Aug 30, 2020
Aug 30, 2020 at 3:27 AM UTC
Sweet melting ice cream
Sunrise beamed in blue and pink
Snowflakes drizzling, a silent scream
Soft pillows for her cheek to sink
Scents filling her nose like a sweet stream
Lying in her same bed
Eyes open but not awake
Senseless to her frozen core
Not sure if it’s all fake
Her reality now a distant dream
Memories of the world she made, erased
The rainbow sprinkled donut that was her life
She couldn’t recognize or taste
Aug 29, 2020
Aug 29, 2020 at 9:02 PM UTC
A ****** to love, a ****** to lies
How I've felt since you came into my life
Hope we stay as us, pray we never die
In all my twenty years, I've never felt so alive
Aug 29, 2020
Aug 29, 2020 at 3:27 AM UTC
Who the hell told this girl
That all her problems and concerns
Is all there is of her?
Who the hell convinced her
That stripping all that **** away
Would leave her with nothing to say?
Aug 28, 2020
Aug 28, 2020 at 2:08 PM UTC
When life is all about fixing whats wrong
Then everything right, good, and strong
Won't stay, pass by, or come along.
Aug 28, 2020
Aug 28, 2020 at 12:51 AM UTC
Is it as simple as that?
I’m trying the best I can
But maybe that’s not the right stance
Let me be selfless and pay my dues
But if I don’t pray, would it all be a ruse?
I’m trying the best I can
Or maybe I say that more than I actually am
We speak every day- so you know my path
Not even a decade old- I felt your wrath
To love and fear you
Help me balance the two
I promise I will continue trying to do
The best I can
Every moment I'm with you
I feel faithful and true
Grateful and forgiven
But the devil's work on me
Keeps me up at night so livid
Like crinkled paper
Shoved into my eyelids
Asleep and awake
Dysphoric demonic dreaming
My bones unhinging
As my muscles stretch
With sounds of ropes ripping
If I were to tie a noose for my neck
Is that the sound I'd hear when stepping
Gracefully off the deck
Plummeting into a sea of galaxies and hells
Would I watch over the world I once knew?
Until the time comes for me to settle into
Both or one or the other
The burning roots or the flowing leaves
My flesh impaled or allowed to breathe
To drink golden stench or spit fruit seeds
To wish for solitude or company
Be Agonized repeatedly or live ecstatically
In a pit of ebony flames
Or in a bath of light rays
To be punished in hell
or sent to heaven for praise?
Aug 27, 2020
Aug 27, 2020 at 10:21 AM UTC