Suicide feelings,
Suicidal thoughts,
Lost my train of thought
Forgetting all that was taught,
Give away every thing i bought
Take everything! Take everything!
Nothing to my name,
Nothing to become
Everything I've ran from
Out of the picture, out of the frame!
What's my name?
What's this game?
How do you play?
Read me with your xray but stay in your lane
Can't be basic, livin plain,
Can't go back where i came,
The boy with no home
Through the night I roam,
Why am I to blame
Life I can not tame,
So much shame
My nine to my brain,
Suicidal thoughts as i aim
Couldn't write a suicidal note,
I'm afraid ill choke
A lost hope so let go of the rope!
Jun 22, 2019
Jun 22, 2019 at 1:56 AM UTC
Blunt in my hand,
I'm the man
The man for the moment and I own it
Can't find many ways to show it, In the moment i cherish it
So let me bury it, deep with in a broken soul with a smile on my face
Rainy days i think of this day,
Oh why i know this is one of a kind
Looking at you,
You're one in a million
I wouldn't trade you for a billion
So confined in you,
So confident i can show my flaws around you
One lucky man to have you to hold
If i had knew your touch would be so cold
Blinded by false hopes,
Guided by the lies i've been told
For the monster i've become,
Speechless by the smoke that fills my lungs
She's cancerous, addiction so hard to cut,
Open me up, So easy to love
Play so rough
Wake me up buried in the dirt
Masking my emotions,
Leave me before its able to show
So Don't wait on me,
I won't show
I won't come, so please stop trying to make me
Baby, please don't make me
I'll show you what it takes to feel like me, move like me
Love like me
Feel the lost ones
So im on one
Couldn't just take one,
I know you feel the lust too
There's no trust between us two
I've got to much to lose
To much to feel nothing
So high in the moment
Pass the blunt, start the movement
Only doing what is meant
Only regretting the last message I've sent,
Letting you vent,
Leaving me bent in many ways
Coming alive inbetween the plays
Don't get caught up as we lay
There was nothing more to say
let me seize the day
Need to ease the pain
Unbrella the rain
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 9:40 PM UTC
Love is never what you wanted.
I hope you got what you wanted from me.
You took everything I had left of me.
There's nothing left of me.
Having nothing left to lose.
I'm so far gone.
There's nothing left for me to do
I only want you, only you.
What do you need to prove?
So irrelvent its old news.
Old memories that once meant something to me.
You didn't need to do me like that.
Feeling ashamed for wanting you back.
Missing the way you act.
When I told you I loved you,
It was a fact.
It's not romance I lack.
Leaving me asking where were you at?
Replaying the last words you said to me.
Thinking of messaging you.
I just can't picture you replying to me.
Missing you lying with me.
Never needed you lying to me.
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 4:29 AM UTC
Cant I just love myself,
Cant I be someone else,
Cant you love me for me,
Tell me you'll die with me
As skies come caving in,
held as angels surround
Hell waits, I'll come apon,
My sins stay around me,
These demons just clown me
Please Feel free to bruise me,
Abuse me or use me,
Clean me off then feed me,
Love me, I hate myself,
waiting on something new,
you used me til I'm dry,
In these words aren't lies,
These feelings I disguise,
Lay secrets about life,
Learned how you live your life,
Your habits became mine,
Yours, I sacrifice mine.
Dec 2, 2018
Dec 2, 2018 at 7:38 PM UTC
I am just a butterfly camouflaged by my horrid wings
Taking flight from damaging things
Only tempting to land on what looks to comfortable to be true
Only to find what hides behind the beauty of nature
Still hovering seeking a place so secure as I'm recovering and suffering from what took place
never forgetting but shedding from my past
Forecasting my shell to what I've grown in
As if being forced to crawl before i was able to fly
Having to heal from my sorrows before i can soar
as it was all meant to be, I'm just now able to see
casting out of my shell to be who I'm supposed to be
Dec 2, 2018
Dec 2, 2018 at 4:46 AM UTC
I think im Helpless
Some would say im helpful
I really need some help
Im indecisive
Make this situation easier for me
Make a decision for me
Im pretty sure i wasted all my opportunities
So what more does life want from me
Theres nothing left to take from me
Wishing i can wash away my past
Looking forward to a better me
Instead waiting here taking a knee
Everyday waiting for a plea
Not knowing which direction my life is going
Just wondering how its still going
Dec 1, 2018
Dec 1, 2018 at 10:39 PM UTC