Freedom is what I gained
After months in therapy
Days filled with tears
Days filled with fear
Broken is what she said
Impossible
Unfixable
No belief
Think
Reframe
Rearrange
There is no magic fix
No cure
Not 100 percent
Hard work
Resilience
Much effort it takes
Get what you put in
Up to you they say
It really is possible
Keep up the work
Keep it all in your head
Don’t forget the work you did
Because it saved me
And it may save another too
Jun 20, 2025
Jun 20, 2025 at 7:12 PM UTC
Blue is the feeling I get
After a long a day of thinking
I feel yellow playing with my plants
Inspecting them for miniscule detail
Show me something new I say
Red is that feeling when everything is on fire
My head or the planet raging
Something scary or displeasing
Wars I can’t win
Things I can’t fix
The green feeling of worry
When will it go away
Who will really stay
What will go right for me
Oh the colors I feel
A variety of thoughts
Some days more than others
I don’t know who I’d be without the feelings I feel
Jun 20, 2025
Jun 20, 2025 at 7:00 PM UTC
Cruel and dark
Sunny and bright
A miracle
Unpredictable or chaotic
Joyful and delicate
Life is a strange thing
One day it’s great
The next so dark
Neutral or average
You never really know
It’s unpredictable as they say
How do we deal
How do we celebrate
Only up to you
You make the choice
Harder than you think
What can I say
Life is a strange thing
Jun 20, 2025
Jun 20, 2025 at 6:38 PM UTC
The waves crash
Just like any other day
Some harder than others
Some so small you can't see
Maybe you can see but not feel
Measurements of how high they go
Not so predictable
Some with patterns
Others so random you don’t know what to expect
Waves may be high but you must know
It all depends
Be prepared for both
Hope for what kind you want
I see both waves in sight
I find peace with the waves
The fascination of patterns
Though the waves may be high, you must not fret
It’s part of the cycle
Part of the wave
Jun 15, 2025
Jun 15, 2025 at 9:32 PM UTC
One year ago I still thought it was over
There was no end
What is better
What is hope I said
There is on point
Why try at all
You could not convince me
I shut them out
I wished for an end
I tried with all I had
That was all I could do
That trying saved me
The Hope was real and still is today
From twice a week to weekly to biweekly therapy
I saved me
Made myself whole
The skills I said were useless, weren’t useless at all
I thrive not survive
I believe in the light
I share the light because today I believe
That Hope is real
Jun 15, 2025
Jun 15, 2025 at 9:31 PM UTC
I don’t believe it, she cried
It can’t be true
Words seemed meaningless
All false hope to keep me from breaking
Better than before is not achievable
Why believe it I shouted
I say quite the opposite now
How is this real
How did I get here
I really saved me
I was never broken, simply lost
Now growing older
Achieving the impossible
I don’t know if this is real, but I like this new life
We both never imagined this journey of healing
This healing is believable
Not fake at all
I do believe
And I did it all
Jun 15, 2025
Jun 15, 2025 at 9:31 PM UTC
Regret and guilt
Secrets to hide
Secrets to share
So heavy and overwhelming
Mistakes
Wondering whys
Searching for satisfaction
Seeking answers
Was it worth it you question
Some stupid mistake
Maybe even dangerous
Did you really know
Why’d you do it
Some questions unanswered
Those are the worst
It will all be okay
The past is gone
Moving forward to a new day
Mistake or decision, it already happened
Now out of control
The dwelling is done
You must move on
You may never know the answer
That is okay
There is no failure
Grow and learn
Not your fault
You didn’t know
Answer or not
Moving on, it works
Jun 15, 2025
Jun 15, 2025 at 9:30 PM UTC
Sometimes I still feel sick
Like I'm right back where I was
Where I cried myself to steep
Constant urges
That one thought that turned to many
The visions of past times
That vision of me still here
Buried deep so I forget
The thing is you don’t forget
It will forever be a part of me
The old immediate coping skill
Hurt or die
It will make you feel better
The pain stops I said
Those thoughts were never true
The brain hitting panic mode
Sad thing is it worked
Only for a moment though
After you were scared
Felt the regret, guilt and anger
Now you know better
Though it still comes back
That urge for control
Something you can fix
They say it’s not worth it
We all know
But the pain felt good
They didn’t see
But I know today
This isn’t me
May 11, 2025
May 11, 2025 at 10:26 PM UTC
You were never broken
Unfixable
A failure
Too far gone
helpless
You just needed help
help see the light
The hope you didn’t know was real
It was there all along
tiny bits and pieces
While the world isn't kind
Only limited love
You will find hope
A better life
You Make it
you can change it
No change without change
Can’t wait for it to show
Change is hard.
But 100% worth it
Remember, you aren’t broken
Just needed to speak up
May 11, 2025
May 11, 2025 at 12:43 PM UTC
The train keeps moving
Won’t stop if you’re late
The conductor won’t apologize
Say sorry for missing you
The passengers won’t help you
You seem to be on your own
You try your best not to be late
Some days you just can’t help it
There’s too much on your plate
The plate keeps filling, almost toppling over
You’ve missed your train again
The train keeps moving
-OliviA
May 7, 2025
May 7, 2025 at 12:02 PM UTC