I can sense internal struggle, I feel the fire within, which sometimes burns. This flame is used erratically due to the constant clash of polar opposites. Love and hate, fear and bravery. Loyalty and betrayal. An interesting component of vulnerability is the inevitable onset of calamity. It is an undesirable outcome, disappointment for me has meant a great deal throughout my life. It seems to always scar my body and my mind. I wish you could phantom the feeling of being loved and rejected. A distinctive and profound feeling, a desire to run away and then run very back to the origin. The tree has been planted with roots of positive seeds. However sometimes these seeds rot before they enter the soil. The richness of the soil has essential nutrients which generate a cycle of growth and longevity. I have found that the soil is comprised of an array of elements: love, empathy, patience, trust, understanding and an innate connection.
In my experience, I do know love is never the sole ingredient. I have uncovered this truth the hard way. When I look at you I sense violence, a lion who is waiting to conquer the world. I’ve always expressed to you it is important to be one with yourself. The potency of searching for external factors leads to an undesired life. As human beings, we are geared towards survival. Our minds are primed on our environment and thoughts quickly emerge. The emergence is a display of the surroundings which sometimes are not conducive to who we aspire to be. If you’re not extremely self-aware, this can be a catastrophic never-ending series of dead-ends. I do not expect you to understand me, I don’t expect anything. I drop all expectations as I have learned that the ones I love the most might not last. A limited lifespan, initially this was a very difficult truth. I did not want to live this way, in a state of paranoia not knowing if the future would bring the grim-reaper. There is an eerie feeling I currently feel about you. Not sure if I fully understand it. To be continued...
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC
Who will cry for the little boy?
Lost and all alone.
Who will cry for the little boy?
Abandoned without his own?
Who will cry for the little boy?
He cried himself to sleep.
Who will cry for the little boy?
He never had for keeps.
Who will cry for the little boy?
He walked the burning sand
Who will cry for the little boy?
The boy inside the man.
Who will cry for the little boy?
Who knows well hurt and pain
Who will cry for the little boy?
He died again and again.
Who will cry for the little boy?
A good boy he tried to be
Who will cry for the little boy?
Who cries inside of me
Apr 27, 2017
Apr 27, 2017 at 12:29 AM UTC
A strike goes on
In your mind
A strike goes on
All on the line
A strike goes on
In your heart
A strike goes on
Breaking you apart
A strike goes on
In your soul
A strike goes on
Truth be told
A strike goes on
Filtered in fraudulent gold
A strike goes on
Freezing your soul
A strike goes on
Pain In the membrane
A strike goes on
Remaining the same
A strike goes on
The tiger is tamed
A strike goes on
Poisoning your brain
A strike goes on
Breaking your veins
A strike goes on
On a mountain of faith
A strike goes on
Defining the sense of haith
Jun 3, 2015
Jun 3, 2015 at 3:16 AM UTC
Wonder
I think of you often
Maybe it isn't healthy
But feels soo empty
For your voice speaks volumes
Into my heart calling for more
Driving emotions to lure
A path of paradox
Twlight world connecting the dots
Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 2:58 AM UTC
Her memories swallow you down a warp
Transferring to a hidden thorp
Deep and dark place in your mind
With no control of experience or time
Mysterious place in a difficult maze GPS is searching for her face
Her direction leads you to a grey place
Between black & white is it real
Feelings rip your heart so you can feel
The pain you can not tame
It fuels this place Remaining the same
Addict like a drug fiend's veins
Is this love or obsession
Timeless progression
Seems like the Great Depression
There is no constant thoughts but doubt
Wondering how did you get on this drought
A well so deep filled with tears of sorrow
Drowning you purposely so it can borrow
Your heart & empty soul
So it can add coal
To the fire burning your self control
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 5:41 PM UTC
A new soul was released
From a resentment leash
Sharpened like shark teeth
Karma is a good friend
Don't worry she won't pretend
Her truth is timelessly real
And will attack with a thrill
Roller coaster fast when she hits it'll last past the memories you see
For karma comes around
Stinging like a bee
The pain will serve you well
Ding ding the sound of your bell
It is your time now to endure
For your actions were evil and pure
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 4:09 PM UTC
From one thousand mountains the hawks flights are gone
Soaring freely & thinking clearly through the clouds in the sky
Not looking back persevering to fulfill the dreams
The dreams aren't solely an illusion in the mind
But a preview of future times
For the reality in the hawks mind is dreams of happiness
Clashing between difficulty & a paradox of what is seen & what is not seen
What is believed has 20/20 vision
A clear sight with no eyeballs
But a driven mind with great visual
Anticipating the future of success
Feeling blessed and alleviating stress
Persevering and passing all the tests
What lies is the wind which is the past
Securing things of desire at last
Achievement is a good friend
Resulting in a fulfilled end. . .
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 4:03 PM UTC
What have you become
Is our love all but done
This equation doesn't add up
As I lay at night
Contemplating should i put up a fight
If its over ill be colder
With you I feel warmer
My heart feels the drift
A pain indicating a shift
But I don't recognize you
You left no clues
However is this my cue
To hit the road jack
Anther heart attack
Better yet a broken heart
Smashed to pieces all apart
My mind flows with memories of us
Calculus couldn't figure out our trust
I refuse to believe you were a bust
Taking the pain as I must
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 1:31 AM UTC
I miss you so much
I'd do anything for one last touch
Love Afar
like a mountain burning tar
I'll go through the fire
To reach a place higher
I wanna be close to your heart
A great love from the start
Which will never break apart
Miss you so much logic is my enemy
Eating away my soul heavily
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 1:28 AM UTC