Promises you made to me
You said that you would stay
You said we’d stay together until we could both run away
Here I am feeling betrayed
Cause when you had the chance
You flew away from the promises you made
Mar 3, 2020
Mar 3, 2020 at 1:12 PM UTC
Poetry
From the love to the hate
The words can elate
My aching heart
And from the start
I’ve fallen in love
With words like a dove
Because when words relate
Even if you think it’s too late
It’s can show you’re not alone
Even if you are at home
And words suspended in time
All laced with rhyme
Hug me tight
Show me it’s alright
And that there’s a light
Called poetry
Mar 3, 2020
Mar 3, 2020 at 1:09 PM UTC
So...
how's it been
it's been a while
I think I like you
but,
I'm scared:
of getting hurt.
of you being distant.
of getting my hopes up.
but,
What if:
I like it?
it actually works out?
I'm finally free of my past?
but,
I know that I overthink everything
and now everyone knows
...
why does that bother me?
Is it because:
deep down inside I know you don't like me back?
I'm not sure if I like you or the thought of you?
I'm guilty that I'm over HIM this fast?
but,
Am I REALLY over HIM?
yes
he was never the one for me
but,
what if HE was?
no
not HIM
dear God please not HIM
...
Sorry I lost my train of thought
what did I decide?
Oh right
Overthink it until I can let it go
thank you
I had almost forgotten
So
...
how's it been
it's been a while.
Mar 3, 2020
Mar 3, 2020 at 11:59 AM UTC
Some say that time marches on
a steady tempo droning forever
but I like to think that notions wrong
time dances with ebbs and flows
twirling gracefully to each dawn
and sometimes time falls
crashing down on you like concrete walls.
slowly... time stands
timidly and bruised
one foot then two
a little dazed and confused
but Time always dances on again
lightly swaying but mused
Time dances to its own pace
their metronome abused
Mar 3, 2020
Mar 3, 2020 at 11:37 AM UTC
I know you for a reason. We met for a reason. The second I met you, I fell in love. The second you met me, you finally felt something. And it scared you. I'm scared. Right now, I'm absolutely terrified. because I thought it'd never feel like this. I thought it never could. I lost my favorite person, and now I've found them again and If god is real and things really do hapen for a reason than nicole lead me straight to you and no one will ever understand it, because we share the same soul and that's why we'll never work. Because we're the same. We're both sociopaths. Dad always told me sociopaths can love. But their love is limited. and he limited his to me, and i limited mine too absolutely everything. That's why it hurts so badly. He says I've fulfilled him and he cried. I cried. We sat holding hands crying for 2 hours because i can't live without him, and the second I let him go, I was going to have to let him go for good. I'm walking away now. This is where I leave it. But that's a lie. I can't walk away from him and I never will because if you truly Love someone, and loving and being in love are not the same thing, than that never goes away so matter the pain or the distance. I love him. We think the same way. We share the same mind. He told me that once. He told me I'm the female version of him. He acknowledged it. But he's the broken one. I'm not some broken thing to be fixed or saved, I'm just a girl who needs to be loved. And he loves me. But he can't love me. He's not in love with me. Simply, because he can't love. And I still love him. **** I ******* love him. 7 billion people, and we end in the same place at the same time and we have soemthing this special that no words but his and mine to each other can describe or express and for a moment that's enough. But what are the odds. What are the god **** odds of that. Under this moon.
Jan 16, 2020
Jan 16, 2020 at 10:57 PM UTC
45 days have past since I have written last
Not that I haven’t tried
but I couldn’t find the words to
Until tonight that is because something just isn’t right
You were supposed to arrive at nine but it’s midnight and
…nothing
Are you okay since you’ve been away
I know it’s probably fine
and just paranoia on my mind
…but what if it’s not
I feel helpless as time goes on and you’re still gone
Honey are you ok?
Please be ok.
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 2:44 AM UTC
A long long time ago I asked you what your favorite color was. You paused and said yellow. Up until then yellow was just a color but now. Now it’s everywhere. And every time I see yellow I smile because I think of you. You just radiate beautifully hopefull innocent optimistic yellow. And whenever I feel like the world is caving in and the minutia of it all has dragged me to the end of my strength. I see a dandelion, or a honey bee, or even a bottle of lemonade and it’s like we’re back in sophomore year sitting on your bedroom floor looking up cheesy pickup lines and playing killer bunnies. Even though you’re 900 miles away blessing a new territory with your grace. You know I’ll always love you to the giant black hole in the center of the universe and, though it is physically impossible, back. I’ll see you in Mormon heaven because I know you’re gonna baptize my name once I’m dead XD.
Jun 16, 2019
Jun 16, 2019 at 5:44 AM UTC
Your smile brightens up my day
And I feel inclined to say
I wouldn’t want it any other way
May 20, 2019
May 20, 2019 at 10:54 PM UTC
Oh honey how you thrill me
And you know I’m too blind to see
How bad you are for my mind
But you’ve been so kind
And we have such a great past
It’s too bad it didn’t last
but here you are
Apologizing for the scars
How you messed with my head
How I wish I was dead
You know I long to go back
To the girl I was before the attack
I like to think I’m stronger now
I just have to forget how
You used to be my world
May 20, 2019
May 20, 2019 at 10:14 PM UTC
I love you. You are beautiful and the most adventurous person I know. You make my life exciting and I’m glad I got to know you. I can’t wait for our next adventure or at least to scream out school song at each other again. Our friendship is alpha friendship!
Sincerely,
Your very messy other half <3
May 19, 2019
May 19, 2019 at 11:56 PM UTC