Mosadi o tshwara thipa ka fa bogaleng
But what happens when you're the one holding the other end of the knife
Threatening to take my life
Lessening my chances of living beyond 20 years
I am from Botswana, the country where **** has become our culture
In my country 33 women are ***** a week
Over a population we all wish could increase
I thought monsters only existed in fairy tales we see on television
And not 5 houses away from mine
I am not comfortable in my own home
I am not comfortable in my own home
I am not comfortable in my own home
Like any other female 17 year old
And this generation thinks its okay
This generation repeatedly thinks that this is the new normal
**** has become so common
Did you know that **** humiliates a woman
A society
A nation
And even the world
**** is a dish served cold
Aren't you tired of being told the same story over and over?
Doesn't this song get old?
My heart beats for those hearts that have stopped beating
It bleeds for those that have lost their blood to the hands of a man
You say stay home, stay safe
But i am a predator of a man who is here to deprive me of my pride
You can hear my cry
Yet you still decide to turn a blind eye
Sep 11, 2020
Sep 11, 2020 at 1:33 PM UTC
Unfortunately there's no light at the end of this tunnel
At least I got to learn that things will always stay like this
I keep having these convulsions
And trust me its not bliss
I try to find the little things during the day to make me happy
But the burden I am carrying is way too heavy
Nothing ever seems to be consistent these days
So I love curling up in my bed
Reading books and making up scenarios in my head
Often I find myself in a world I call my own
I wonder when this world will ever love me for who I am
Maybe I'm too weak to stand on my own
I can't deal with certain situations alone
I'm only just 16
Can't the world be a little less harsh
Can't it at least let me be me
I've grown into consoling myself
I wipe my own tears
I hope one day I'll be able to kold up my smile
Hope that all my fears will be gone
Let's hope tomorrow I'll be better
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 3:18 AM UTC
Afraid Of Myself
I smiled and said hi
I couldn't continue the conversation
For I felt my insecurities crawling up to my mind
I walked away and left her perplexed
I couldn't get help, my heart was way too congested
And before I knew it
The river in my eyes started flowing down the desert I call my cheeks
So then I knew I couldn't face the truth
I'll beat about the bush, failing to at least elude
I wasn't even persuasive enough
So I found a room and shut the door
I had a fear I couldn't face
A tear I couldnt erase
A memory I wouldn't embrace
And I sat there and stumbled across my perceptions
I didn't want to give her the wrong impression
So I unlocked the room and walked out
And just then I remembered that couldn't face my fears
And it really knocked me down
And until today I'm still this way
A poetic introverted mind is what I'd say
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 3:17 AM UTC
Rest in peace to my beautiful
My ugly passed away too
I grew in a paranormal world
I gave in to pain
But instead of enduring pain, pain endured me
****** the life out of me
With only only my bones helplessly floating on air
Barely touching the ground
I died didn't I
My life, I let it pass
Call me crazy but I ain't frightened by a corpse
But by a kind person
Last night I choked her
Thinking I'm saving her
Because to me pills didn't seem to be saving lives
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 3:16 AM UTC
My Wish List
I just wish things could go back to the way they were
Only if things could turn back to normal
But I guess im wrong
If I knew that we'll only love each other today
And become total strangers tomorrow
I'd never have taken the chance of letting ypubinto my heart
Not to be ignored the following day
My heart is aching in pain
Yearning for your love again
I'm not gaining but loosing 'cause of this stress
If only I knew you'd get me to open up
And unfold my untold like secrets written on a paper
I wouldn't have bothers talking to you
I wouldn't have let you into my world of desires
But I'm stupid right, I'll believe every word you say
If only I knew that if I looked into your eyes
I'd fall harder, I would've wished for a world with no gravity
Just so I could float back to the cliff
But your eyes have always been my favorite mirror
To define my exquisite self
If only I knew my heart would endure this much pain
And my mind would be so strained
I wouldve went out of my way to catch flu and not feelings
Because I could never get rid of my feelings for you
Its not that easy
Not after you've set a fire in my heart that'll probably never burn out
I just wish things could go back to the way they were
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 3:15 AM UTC
Her body is like poetry
Hand written
Carefully constructed for ones eyes to consume
Thick lips I'd kiss all day
Her eyes would always capture my attention
And I always got lost in them
Lost in their beauty
Her smile that eventually warmed my body
It had the power to control me
Console me
And mold me into a better me
Curved hips that looked like an African clay ***
Made to drink love out of
You'd instantly fall in love with her I swear
Her voice I'd listen to all day
A very warm melody
A great sensation
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 3:14 AM UTC
I watched you walk away
Never thought you'd leave me abandoned
I honestly wish I'd have fixed things and you'd stay
With me myself and I, I felt stranded
In a world so far away from anyone else
I was destructed by thoughts that never left my mind
Don't know what had me thinking you'd always be by my side
When I ask if you love me
Know your words before you lips break the way my knees Do at this side of you
Couldn't keep my heart and mind at ease
Remembering all the times we've spent together
Will you love her the same way you loved me
Will your face break open and eyes get filled with Diamonds when you talk to her
Will she hold your hand tight in fear that she'll loose you
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 3:01 AM UTC
I was sitting on the train the other day
Watching each of my issues pass by while I'm looking out the window
Soon enough I found my reflection
I saw a girl, I saw a pearl
I stares for too long and she was gone
She reappeared and I looked into her big narrow eyes
Found death in her eyes
Deprived of her happiness
And left in the dry desert of loneliness
Well this girl sat in the corners of my mind
With her fingers intertwined and silent
**** was cold but she looked vibrant
I quickly closed my eyes and cleared my thoughts
Hoping she'd have faded into the thin air again
I'm so stupid for thinking she'd walk away
She's the only person that stayed when everyone else turned their back on me
She loved me when no one else did
She consoled me
Took care of my heart when life was tumbing down on me
She put me at ease when my heart beat out of my chest
She calmed me down when I thought I was loosing my breath
She has been there every step of the way, everyday
Anyway I owe her an apology
For trying to push her away
Sep 4, 2019
Sep 4, 2019 at 3:00 AM UTC
My definition of love
Is starring and finding the beauty in your canvas
The glitter in your bruised
And the cracks on the windows of your heart
I tried telling you I liked you
I swallowed my pride
But it clawed its way up
My oesophegus
And I spet it out like it was forbidden
I know I have nothing to loose when I look into your eyes
For I find true beauty in there
The way you have champagne in your walk
Is the the same way I get drunk in your footsteps
Your eyes are brighter than the sun shines unto me
I wanna be closer than your skin is to you
The other day kissed my neck
And I heard the angels calling out
My name
I love you the way the stars adorn the skies
The way the sun shines so bright
"I love you", those were my favorite words
That ever came from your mouth
Crush I'm sorry but I really really like you
And I want you to myself, I'm selfish I know
Constantly I found myself drooling over you
As I yern for your lips to run across my hips
I'm really to let you in to my world of desires
There's too many words and too many names
But yours is my favorite
Your words are a crack of lightning at night
Dangerous like a hurricane
Perhaps you could be my forever
You could be my beautiful distraction
Crush I am ready to love you
Just not ready to put a label
To whatever that's happening
Between the two of us
I grew into loving you
But one thing that's hindering me is to out
A whole label to this beautiful bond
That we have right here
Aug 15, 2019
Aug 15, 2019 at 1:59 AM UTC