i’ve given you so much of my time
and so much of my effort
i’ve treated you as best as i can
i’ve been understanding and caring
i’ve given you my all
i built up expectations
without even realizing it
and now i’m being let down
slowly
these past years
all i’ve wanted
is to know what it’s like to love you
and i know now
loving you is incredible
it’s like a breath of the freshest air
like a popsicle on a summer day
like listening to your favorite song
loving you is wild
it’s like speeding on a backroad
like sneaking out at midnight
like every animal in nature
but loving you came with a price
it came with plans that were never completed
with “i love you’s” that weren’t returned
with texts that weren’t answered for hours
but loving you has been
the best decision i’ve ever made
and i’m going to keep doing it
until you break my heart in two
because that’s just who i am
and who i am loves you.
May 23, 2021
May 23, 2021 at 7:09 PM UTC
tonight i found out
that the worst i had assumed
actually happened
i don’t remember it
i blacked out.
but i had a feeling in my stomach
that knew all along.
**** you.
May 14, 2021
May 14, 2021 at 10:37 PM UTC
there’s nothing more wholesome and perfect
thank you falling asleep
with your head in my hands
and giving me half-awake kisses
Apr 6, 2021
Apr 6, 2021 at 3:07 PM UTC
maybe i love you, okay??
not the type of love where i can’t live without you
but how the moon loves the night sky
how i love sunsets
the type of love where we could drive around forever just listening to music and that would be okay with me as long as i’m with you.
the type of love where i could look at you all day and not find a single thing wrong because i’m so ******* captivated by you.
the type of love you see in movies.
that’s how i feel about you.
everything about you.
there is nothing about you that i would ever change.
maybe i’m scared to show you who i am because it’s driven everyone else away in the past and i don’t want that to happen this time.
maybe i had more hope in myself that i wouldn’t drive you away, but i still managed to.
so maybe i love you.
but what ******* difference does it make
Mar 27, 2021
Mar 27, 2021 at 10:11 PM UTC
i don’t know much about you
but i’d like to think you’d love it here
the sound of the waves crashing
the shells that string the beach
the sand on your feet
i’d like to think if i found you a shell
you would keep it
and i would keep any shell
that you found for me
Mar 12, 2021
Mar 12, 2021 at 9:37 PM UTC
“i’m not upset”
i say as it feels like an elephant
is sitting on my chest
i say as i’m hoping that
the wind will knock this tree in my room
i say as tears are running down my face
constantly lying when i’m upset
to spare others with the burden of my feelings
Mar 3, 2021
Mar 3, 2021 at 7:18 PM UTC
i want to stand on a roof,
drive so fast i could die,
lay in the middle of the road,
just so i can feel something other than this
i know that healing isn’t linear
that it’s full of highs and lows
but when the highs are euphoric
and the lows are like storms
it’s hard to question if you’re healing at all
but there’s beauty in a storm
and euphoria can be addicting
that’s why rainbows exist
and why there’s drug addicts
Mar 2, 2021
Mar 2, 2021 at 12:31 AM UTC
we kissed
it was like fireworks went off inside me
i couldn’t stop
you’re all i want.
Feb 24, 2021
Feb 24, 2021 at 10:13 PM UTC
my goal is to take a picture
with you or of you
every time we hang out
so i can look at those pictures
the way i do at this one
Feb 16, 2021
Feb 16, 2021 at 12:46 AM UTC
flashbacks
your hand in mine
your arms around me
you pulling me closer to you
looking in your eyes
i haven’t felt this way
in a long time
Feb 16, 2021
Feb 16, 2021 at 12:45 AM UTC